Images and voices accompanied with  a certain feeling.

I've never seen a face or saw the being.

But He moves in shades of pine and images of cut wood.

Glitter in the air and whispers in my ear.

Am I insane i ask myself?
Is this God I wonder?

Is there some sick twisted joke under all of this...

Am I being played for the fool?

A bad liar could speak truth
If he could at first speak dreams
and Wishes become wants
and wants tie in the seams.

I wish I wanted to be clean
I wish I wanted the best for me
and one day I will find what it means

to be purity

I will stuff this cat in the bag  
and carry her with me through the city.
In urgency, in urgency

She will be colored orange and I will be dressed in black
and at my funeral she will be released.

The second time I awaken you will be sensually irresistible to me
and I will show what its like to have freedom from with in.

And when Number three threatens His Quake Satan Himself will
Dine with us,
and we will all three transcend.

I taste your spit in ever single soda I drink.
I smell you in all of those cheap perfumes.
I see your presence in every single thought i think


Its not to bad being surrounded by you.

I call you God, and you can call me baby
I call you my man and I can be your lady.
Intoxication doesn't compare...

You drip like drops of golden honey
and fall down my shirt, into my stomach
where i feel you raise your head.

You sing sweetly against the breeze and your hair    
speaks louder than your voice.

I swear it speaks louder than your voice.

You could waver over me
You could slip right above
You could try to flatter me
I could fit you like a glove.

You seem to be an issue
and You seem to be  a God
I seem to be a fisher of few
and I seem to raise mine rod.

I would love to keep her but the body is getting cold
I didn't meant to **** her its just, fightings getting old.
And One last night together is all that I want,
I would love to keep her but to be blunt.

She never loved me any way.
Fighting was all she did,
and now that she hasn't moved,
Its nice to see her dead.

She never did me any good, no one else now too
Its glad to see her finally gone out of this healthy mind
and I would never want her back I never ever would
I hope  there is something better, a new Idea to find.

Your charming, and if aloud to speak long enough
Could talk your way through and around any sin.

To me you sounded so clear, so obviously right
SO in control so Convicted. ha
What a plight.

What a plight, is absolutely right
You were the most dangerous of all
A sociopath possibly?
woman insane on a narcissistic level?

I will never know the truth by my childs mind was fooled.
My ideas of you were twisted truths.
Lies, and misconceptions of ugly ugly features.

You pretended to glow in the dark but you absorb light.

You are a hole to not fall in
A mirror to not look in for you may just find yourself over welmed.


You bring me Genes of atrocity and I will transcend you.

Your intensity frightens me
and when you speak, I will not lie.

I am terrified.

You have become the all jealous God which I Lovingly Fear

Oh my dear oh my dear

You spent such long long nights waiting for me to grow
Into this beautiful creature which I have become
You never second guessed that I'd be leaving you

You never even thought I was very strong did you.

Savior can you Save her?
Do you want to make her,
Live another day, "sure"
But what if she wavers.

Then Savior will you Save her
From all her tricks and trials,
and Savior with you save her,
From all those strangers smiles,

I dont think so.

So Savior can you Love her,
Like her daddy never did
and Savior can you brave her
Darkest nights when  inside is dead.

Savior will you Remember ever time she sighs
Savor ever moment, see through ever lie.
Let her feel like you own it, sweet and inner thigh
Keep her from her vices, and Spiritually High.

Savior can saver her, Just for this moment
Let you entertain her See that shes been shown it

Taste all of her  Flavor, and in the distance you cans ee
That she is your savior and she can set you free

But only if you save her, with your deep sincerity  

So savor her  to find your savior and when she asks for you to save her
the answer should be free.

Seconds seem alot like sand
Falling through the hour glass
Moving with the second hand
Making sure eternity lasts...

Yes minutes seeem alot like
Rulers on a counter top
and music playing music stops.


Hours seem like prison cells
Counting bricks and Record Sales
Waiting for a strangers smile
To Make a better day.

And days get me started but
I would rather leave the door shut
on weeks and months and years
I would rather be here....
Not counting moments in fear
Not planning to shed tears.

Inside are things forgetting, forgotten.
and then those forgoing, gone rotten.

Inside my mind I see scenes of nostalgia
and I am moved by the tripping of the reel.

Mother in the recliner, television running.
It smelled like cigarettes, and I am 9 and nicotine.

Mother is intoxication and the angry mean.
Mother is the reasoning.
Mother says life needs seasoning.

Something to make it worth while.
and I am 9, but i can tell her vice is vile.
She and him and those and them and they all smile.

Smile.
Smile.
laugh,
Inhale smoke.

Rough men are real.
Boys are jokes.
**** the love, it is a hoax

I am nine and breathing nicotine

Mother is intoxication and a greyer sheen.

Sing to me, in counted rhythm .

Let not my pride confound me.

Show me all the stepping stones
which lead up to your alter.

I will set myself in them
and you can walk on me.

Sing to me in tempo
of a better greener day

I am sanctimonious but in a citadel.

I am no different than you I only
am aware of my faults.

I have the same failings as every one else
But i see mine.

where many do not

I selectively trace the wrinkles in my soul
to create the picture I see with in it all.
I leave some creases un marked,
others are made blue, then green .

This is how I create my inner scene
Who i am and who I want to be.

You see all these marks, create a bigger picture
with in all the lines, there are words and gestures.
Within all the instances there are gained impressions.

With in all of me , there is something deeper
with in all my rolling hills there are some which are steeper
With in all my throw aways there were one or two keepers.

Sub sequence
Domino
I am left
No where to go
You are right
and this we know.

Sub sequence
High then low.

You fall for me,
I taper so.

I love you now
You've some where else to go.

Sub sequence,
You move in shades of progression
One step two step
Funeral wake and then per-session .

Penance never made since to me.
But with these new eyes I can see.
I volunteer myself unto you
I speak my unforgiving truth
and punishment beseech me.

Use me as an example of the evil that I am?
Or use me as a moment to hold all control.

To admit myself unknown at first and now I am known.
And then to be punished, oh.

The bribery to extinguish any type of learnt from a lesson.

I see the way you move in the shadows among lit beacons.
You can not bare the light I bear so there for you
Extinguish my flames to the others.
You show my vulnerability
for where i am offering intimacy I am offering
You the ability to destroy me if you like.

I open my womb unto you and you may sleep there
or rip it out of me.

Do you understand this confessional?

Your decadence transposes me
I see you there in Jewels and honor
and I am shaken mightily.
With seraphim in my way
I ache for your position.

Light Blinds my mind of such Indulgence
i see slowly more reason for abstinence in all that you do.

You have shown me a worser way
and they call you the pigs.

Those who are disgusting in their wake.
Those who repulse the clean mind .
I see you and I want judgment upon you
But yet again Light blinds my mind
and I still see reason for abstinence in those things you do.

I could never hang you from a cross for your greed,
or for your anger or for your jealousy.
But you would hang me for my acceptance of it.

The tension in my third eye is unbearable
Most of you could never relate.
But my understanding of the universe is comparable
to the phrase "you've got to much on your plate"

I've taken it upon myself to Remove emotional chains
To let go of anger and hate and to release all of my pains.

I've decided to open my mind
No longer will judgment dwell there.
I am still looking for what I will find
When I learn what it means to truly care.

I want a meanfull life, to live how I want
I want to balance my thoughts and never give up
I want to offer love and warmth a Godly presence
I want to be a person of large reverence.

I am doing the work I am disciplining my mind.
i am reading and studying, quieting time.
I am attempting and failing soon I will find,
A warm place inside me that is all mine.

But the tension in my body is unbearable.
The energy coursing through me is comparable
To a spicket that is set on full
I've opened my eyes and ripped off the wool.

I want to live Consciously
No More Impulsive Instinct.

I tap my toes inconsistently to my own rhythm.
I don't really care that your watching me
I have learned to live this life through my own wisdom.
And I have learned to be who ever the **** I want to be.

I swing my hair in the car quite loudly
and Sing quite un forgivingly.
I parade my scars like tattoos,
do you want to touch them?
They feel quite strange!
Does it matter where I am from?
No I am not deranged!
I am just not ashamed.
Of course I want your attention
but i dont want your pity
I want your love,
and Thats what you can give me.
I'm to cool to hide my truths no matter how ugly
and if you try to tell me to pipe down
Well thats only going to bug me.

I love to make waves, movement, to speak.
I want to be the difference that i think we all need.
I think we all deserve to be who we want.
I think we all deserve to kick Shame in the ****.

Lets through out guilt,
just for the sake of being Guilty
Lets stop holding on to our pasts,
I know mine makes me dizzy.

Its a lot to hold onto,
and I bet yours is worse.
I bet there are some days
you would gladly crawl in a hearse,
be drove to your own funeral,
hell, you would bury yourself,
But that's not what this is about.
this is about getting help.

This about loving you
doing what it is you want to do.
Figuring out, who exactly you are,
what colors you like, what kind of car.
What makes you cry, salty tears of joy
and what makes you angry
what makes you want to destroy.
What Gets under skin, and blisters up,


do you have any wounds,

I can sew them shut.

Classic red printed wine glasses.
Napkins too.
Red printed collar
Note to you.

In this hotel room.
I thought I might find you.

Distasteful to say the least
To abuse the already meek.
To pretend that you are weak

When your clearly very strong Man.

To lie to me like this, ohh
I would rather catch your fist
Flying toward my face
Thank to feel this betrayal & disgrace.

You've lead me on to long man
Its really very wrong man
I worship the ground you walk on
But now I know, I've locked on.

To every thing you do wrong.
And I am beginning to create quite the list.

But still I would have much rather eaten your fist
then be put through this.

Savagely I will eat you alive.
I will brace you for the moment you die.
I will escort you to the finish line

"She smells like ***"
I could hear them whisper
Did they really think that they were better
Just because I was 7 and smelled like ***
and they didn't cause they were cleaner than me.

"what a freak, she said she's part lizard"
Yes I did and also I'm a wizard
and I dont think you should call a wizard names.
Please stop laughing this is not a game.

"snicker snicker, we think we're better"
I see this and its not effecting me,
at least not now, in a conscious degree.
I am only 7 and i dont get why your mean.
I tried to be your friend, I told you my favorite color was green.
I told you how my dad was a super hero cop who faught the
aliens off.
I said that and I meant it too.
I thought you could tell me about your dad too...
Cause mine, well he's got alot of alien fighting to do.
and i haven't seen him since i was 5.
Oh my mom, I dont know if she's alive.
My grandma took me from her, I dont know why.
Something about germany, and *** slavery but I am 7 and dont know anything.
I told you about how my mom promised me a new world, she said i was her girl and we were leaving this place. She said the people here were of a lower race, and that when we got there it would be like outer space.
I told you how the power rangers lived at my house
and how even though im only 7 i still have a spouse.
told you my grandmother knows everything in the world and you can't convince me different Oh and she's rich, and i think shes a reverend. She reads alot a bibles, and tells me I may go to hell.
But hey remember I'm a wizard so I'll just cast a spell.

"she is crazy, i dont get her"
Your talking to loud to pretend that you whisper.
Your making to much fun to pretend that your better.
Because I may be 7 and I may be a wizard, I may smell like *** and I may be half lizard. But I'm a good person and I know thats what I am suppose to be. I'm nice to you, even though you hate me. I treat you well even though you berate me.  I try to impress you even though i see its no use lately.
I tried so hard but now I'm 8
Now My heart is filled with hate.
I've been abused,
My thoughts misused.
My mind mislead
My heart now dead.
Im Getting tired, and I'm gettign quiet.
You called me a liar  said you didn't buy it.
So i shut it. You dont want my stories
I dont want to tell you
dont want to hear my glory?
I dont blame you.
I'm useless. Im boring
Im stupid I'm dumb.
I'm 8 years old and I've stopped having fun.

But hey my moms back now, and she is living with me.
She hits me really hard, almost constantly .
You would never know that
and I would never tell.
I wonder if my grandma can send her to hell.
I wonder if you knew, if any of you would care...
That at night I am beat, and drug by my hair.
That I night I am hungry and far away.
That when not a school I am just as abused
as they way you do me here.

Call me your mother, call me you sister
You wife your friend you minister.
Call me when things get bad
as long as you love me when I am sad,
Call me all day and call me all night.
Wait for me  in the back if things get tight.
Meet me in the front if you want to fight
Call me your enemy if your not that bright.

Crinkle smash and just at last
The girl who wept, met her match
and just in time she finished up
She crossed the line, in time to touch.
She closed her eyes, and pulled him
She said to him, I always win.
She layed her face right on his
and in that moment they did kiss.
And in that moment she found bliss
and that single moment was one never to miss.
And in that moment it replays
a thousand times every day.
She looks back to that first win
and she thinks i would always
kiss him again.

Your face disgusts me
nothing in particular.
Just the slanting of your eyes..
The way they mimick all your lies.
All the teeth that you forgot you ever had
cause they have been gone bad


Sometimes i hate you dad
some days you just make me sad.

Sliver of the best
and sliver of the worst
Shiver on your chest
and then we will disperse

Not until we die
You can ever leave me
Not until we die
will you ever be free of me.

Tell me, Have I made myself clear
You can tell that  I love you and so need you near.

Tell me love, Of your utter feelings
and I'll show you all of my inner reelings

I can show you where the electricity runs
I can show you how I inhale my lungs
I can show you the way my precious heart beats
and you can tell me how you think its all very neat.

Once I was stray matted hair and all.
Needles and no food I was a doll.
Sweeter than you knew, you had to have me.
I wanted you too, we were savvy.


You invited me in, left the door open
You told me you liked me, helped with coping.
You said no need for fear that you wouldn't  hurt me
You said You liked me near that you hoped i would see

That your a lover not a hater
and your a healer but not a savior.
Your quiet but not silent and
clearly very driven.
And its me to which your loves been given

Hell fire, and waste covers the ground
Its been years since any thing has grown.
And I haven't seen many around
In a few more years I'll be old.

Broken Glass and hot ember, smoke to thick to breathe
walk through it all to find the door, just to see you've forgotten the key.

Back to the drawing bored back to decision
Or in decision tonight.

I want you to live I want you to grow
But this is only YOUR fight.

On second thought I will try romance
I will try growing plants
I will run and kick and sing and dance
on second thought I am two
One with out and one with you.

One with love and one with hate
One with Need and one with ate.

One with Give and one with take.


Hahaha. Youll never understand

I am  Lucifer, and I am Christ the man.

I am both and I am all and
Am risen while I am fall.

I am fallen angel here,
and risen dead soon to bear

the light of the world the great sensation
The magnetism of the planets the great vibration.

I am so sick of nothing I have this angst that wont leave.
I have this hate that can't breathe, I have anger that wants to seethe.
I am so sick of ******* and so sick of breathing and so sick of living when will I be leaving. I am so sick of me, and I ******* love you and this hate that I have  it has nothing to do
with your love and your face and your beautiful voice
Your slow talking pace and your perfection in choice.
You heart and your **** and you name and your whole.
Its not you that makes me sick  its the lining of my soul.

I have this anger that is rotting my tongue and my teeth
this hatred that is budding  and has been for weeks.
and months and years my entire life,.
This hate that i have is causing all strife.

I am ****** and moody and I ******* hate it
I want you to woo me, try to change it
But i have to myself I have to make it.

I just hope i get out before we get jaded.

I am feeling a break in the fault line
I am feeling that surely it will
**** me in a very short time
If I dont move, fight not to lose
Take my time too,
This shattered earth this ground thats shaking.
It is my time that I have been wasting.

He called it mornings night,
He called it angels flight.
He set his clock  just right

The only way he set his clock.


Mornings night comes in close
It gives unto those who give the most
It dreary dreams of clouds and candy
Murky spots still grow Lions of Dandy.

And He, unforsaken, clean
Staring through space to me.
Oh his eyes are fish swimming in and out
And I want to tell him but i would need to shout
Yes his eyes are wide and its a spacial spectacle
His horus face and his for head triangle.

Dear God I must be wittnessing a Miracle
Dear god do you  hear these angels song
and do you hear how lyrical
and could it last very long?

Just let me stay hear, with in this place
Just let us float here, Oh, Your Horus Face.
Just let me stay, baby, set the clocks.
And if you need me, give me 7 knocks.


He was setting his clocks, he does that
And he only sets them right
He sets them in vibration
and he sets his morning night.

seven seconds till you wake
Holding you until I ache
Seven seconds till you come
Seven serpents come undone.

Seven holes in the seams of the universe
and seven topics for the streams to converse

Seven days until we made it all
Seven tears until a cries a call.

Seven ways to show you love
seven failures, will end in shove.

Seven lies all right to your face
Seven Idols all in disgrace.

Seven Gaping vortexes waiting to be full
Seven lonely women thinking they are dull
Seven sad sadistic lives, all lived once
Nobody ever died twice.

Masochism
See i need you to mistreat me.
I expect you to defeat me
But you wouldn't
and I am confused.
See i like you but I am used to being used.
from a young age I was turned on to abuse
My mother said I liked it when she beat my ***
and I dont know how much of that is true
But i want mistreatment from you.
Or at least I think I do.

Sadism

I have suffered in this life to much
not to learn how to
enjoy it.

I want you to tell me i'm to much.
Try to destroy it.

Something about being broken,
and being breaking
and crying and ******

Something about all my history
all the things done to me,
I want them undone by you
By you doing them to me too.

I know you think I'm sick when I whisper

Hurt me.

But there is something inside me
hiding
and it needs you to hurt me.
It needs you to be the one
and we can pretend
that we are both having fun.

But me Im just reliving
****** up **** from my past.
and I pretend its some fetish some,
desire so strange twisted feat...
Some easy thing i keep discreet
but honestly its devouring me.

Lick me with your fist
Its all I've ever known

Lose me in the mist
Separation's all I've known

Tell me that you hate me
I want to know how that feels.

You've lead me through this relationship
So guilt free so comforting.

You have given me, lack of shame
Lack of pain
Lack of hate
and I fear it will be to late
when you let go
throw your fist first.
I need to quench this sadistic thirst.

Can you see the red in me
Can you see the orange in my womb,
Would you have come here to defeat me
If i hadn't beat you so soon.

I bet you were guessing my midriff wouldn't bare it.

Your weight or the serum you supply.
I bet you didnt think that i was aware of it

I bet you didn't think that little one would die.

We fight like deities.

I've thrown one, two, three apples across your floor.

We rise up the spine like serpentry
and you always have to stop before.

You always have to push for more.

We are Gods, and We are fire, and We are Water and We are air.
We are Gods, filled with desire, trapped in a world which is not fair.

I speak in terms of alchemy
Truth spoke out of turn.

You speak in silence, desolate
We let our souls slow burn.

Pink slip and you would never guess
Not between my thighs.
Drip drip from the tip of your tongue,
Yours to mine eyes.
And we can press it to the wall
Cage it there so it can't crawl.
Hold it down you will see
that everything is exactly me.

Does your brain ever falter.
Not when I was young.
Are you treading hot water.
Not unless I'm dumb.
Do you know how to live
Living some fake lie.
Do you know how to be
no I pray to die.

DO you want survival
I'd rather not
DO you want revival
I'd rather rot
Do you want to come back
Not from this
Do you need anything
Drug induced bliss.

Does your brain ever falter
Not when I'm sleeping
Did you ever want a father
Only when dreaming
Did you ever think
not ******* once.
Did you ever live
no i never had the guts.

I am perplexed by your ability to ignite such rage with in me.

See you speak and I  hear nothing but white hot anger well.

and You slow your voice and the drippings hit the floor.

Hit the floor like me, every time you raised your hand.

I remember the feeling, I can conjure the day

They way you would throw fists in my face

Really swept me away.

The way you would lose all control
all proportion, all authority.

She hit me again, I am trembling.

She tried to hug me this morning and I


fell to the ground in fear.
I flinch like a dog whose seen to many

back hands, guitar straps, branches from the fallen tree.
To many arthritic swollen fists swinging toward me.

This dog has heard one to many times

"I ******* HATE YOU" from the breast who fed it.

I live in sin washed clean
I live in the eye of chaos
                      Serene.

I live in desire controlled.
I live in hell, every demon owned.
I am the mother, God of my world.
I am the daughter, Suffered to sore.


We are the sons of man in this shadow box.
We Shepard eachother not sheep or goats in flocks.

What if i told you, God was not perfect.
Just perfectly alive.
What If I said no matter what you believed
You could never truly die.

See I know something a little
about the back of my head
and I know something, actually nothing
about being dead...

My mind works fabulously,
even though its delusional
and you couldn't tell me anything
even if you could prove it all.

Satisfaction never quite so painful
as after I looked to you.

For satisfaction never seemed so evil
until you told me what to do.

Intravenously Intertwined,
You just couldn't let me lose my mind.

You could have left me.
If I went to sleep I would have died.
To think i was just resting my eyes.

So tired,
pain brings no rest.  
So wired,
helps me deal with it.

No trust I had none to give.

Collecting my tears in a cup,

collecting will to live.

But it evaportated just as easy as them.

and the drug devoured me limb by limb.
Stale and crunchy Past my date.
Bleeding from the core turning to hate.
Losing myself once more, now who is to create.

The face in the mirror could not be me.
Sunk in and tired, is this the fee?
I'm to used to being waund.  
I dont want her around,
Two me, Two me,
One of me I can not see.
And left for you to choose
which one of me will loose.
I'm still tired, I'm still wore.
My veins, are still, very very sore.
I'm so fragile to delicate to survive
So for just right now I need you to keep me alive.


I dont mind your wieght on my shoulders,
just dont let me get any colder.

She said "your wasted and your wasting time"
She said "your bringing this on yours and mine"
She said "You ****** up and I stopped breathing"
She said "You broke me, now my hearts stopped beating"

He said, "Mine Minds broke and I am about to loose"
He said, "the only thing helping is the *****"
He said " I love you but I love me more"
He said, "i will be the one to clean your blood from the floor"

She said, "honey I need you, and your an hour late"
She said "baby I love you but its turning to hate"
She said "lover I' strong but I'm starting to faint"
She said if you ever get ahold of yourself it will be to late"

And he said "you want me, take me, Like I am"
He said "you say you love but you would love any man"
He said "you want to change me, but thats not the deal"
He said "im telling the truth, and I'm speaking whats real"

She said "dude your a child lost in your own world"
SHe said "I've been here a while but your about to lose your girl"
She said "I've been strong and I conquered my vice"
She said, "now you conquere yours or you leave my life"

Your words are confection
and My ears need protection
or else your flattery will rot me
Like sugar on the teeth

He's dead now... Its been three years two months.
Shot gun blast to the throat.
My heart aches but not for him.
It was never for him...
He was a urchen, a scoundrel,  a bad person in all.
Sure he didn't deserve to die but it wasn't all Logan's fault.

Devan was Robbing them, and he had a past
Of abuse in relationships and grudes that would last.
Logan was dealing, trying to make a living.
It was december I'm sure they were all shivering.

100$ Devan tried to take, He pulled out a gun
But it was fake. What he didnt know was that logan had one.
and his wasn't just for fun.

Logan had a sawed off shot gun ready to shoot.
and when devan played games he fell off his boots.

Pow, Blast to the throat. He would have survived but his friends were all goats. They dumped on the road.
left him to choke.
HE drown in his own blood

Logans been gone, in prison for 3 years and 2 months.
I miss him when i think of him, and that is a bunch.
I write him and i love him and I wish he never did it.

He has nightmares about it and he will never forget it..
Or forgive himself.
Even though he knows devan brought it on himself
Logan suffers for devans mother, and his brother and his father.
Logan suffers,
Logan thinks.
He remembers the gun powder stink.

Logan remembers and he suffers every day. They were 18

I want to be like Punk Rock Jesus Christ
and Holy Courtney love in love.
with just a bit less ****.
I want to be Kurt Cobain
and you can Be Axl Rose

and we can change eachothers clothes
and play eachothers Roles.

You can be Milton, he wrote Paradise lost
and I can be Satan  who was the stories cost
and the story that was told was one of love too.

You can be me, and I can be you.

We can be eachother and our parents too.

We can be history and all of its men

I can be the losing army You can have the win

I will destroy you next time, in the air with a gust of wind

You are my lover baby, and we are so much more than just human

Stand back my dear I am far to hot to touch.
Get away from here, stand out of my clutch.
You dont want this heart to hard to find
You dont want to change this cynical mind.

Stand back my dear, Stand down
Leave my house, and leave my town.
Leave this choking heart to drown.
Stand by my dear.

Stand by my love and watch me rot.
Watch me suffer, while you plot.
Think you'll save me, I can't save myself.

Get away my love You want some one else.

Breathe on me baby, tell me I'm cool.
I bloodied my wrists, you know I'm a fool.
Breathe on me honey you know I'm a mess.
cuts right above the hem of my dress.

Breathe down my neck, smother me alive
Tell me you love and that you'll never die.

Leave me alone I dont want you hear.
I dont want you to hear,
The falling of my tears...

Get away from me love, I am to filled with hate
You want to save me, but my cynicism says its to late

Tell me I'm cool, tell me I'm punk,
Tell me I'm spontanious and filled with *****.
Tell me I'm beautiful bleached blonde and all.
Tell me You wont catch me cause you'll never let me fall.

I can be Sid and You can be Nancy
You can be Jesus and I will be Mary.

I never asked for pain
I never asked for much
But this world gave me insane
I guess it thought i was too much.

See i never asked for love,
Only that I could give it.

And I never asked for a shove,
Only said I would let it.

Religion has its perks
and so does, gluttony
and in the wild animals thrive
in pedofilia and murdering.

That may sound out of place,
it may seem kind of sick
But we are all just taking up space
Turning all these tricks after tricks.

We trade, we fight, we barter with might.
We grow we expand we take over land
We move we control we love with or with out soul.

We all pay the toll yes we all pay the toll.

No one gets out, with a body.
No one gets out, alive.
In the sense that without a body you can't thrive.

But i see god in the movement of the stars
and I feel my mind in thousand year old scars
so eternity is already
right here for me.

I'm was  jabbering fool and you know it
Sitting in my sest pool, or below it.

I talked and I talked and Talked
sometimes when I spoke I was shocked.

Nobody ever really liked me,
But I never really cared.

Now every one wants to be like me
But they will never ever compare.

See I made it out of the house that was on fire,
Hell I even made it out of the bed.
and  I am still being lead by desire,
But I control it now with my head.

I ran from the shallow hole we all dug
I ran from that nasty place.
I took the key out from under the rug
and I ran at the fastest pace.

I hope no one ever goes in
at least not with out me.
Because that was my own personal pin
That was my nasty place to be.