graceunderfire: Poems

Oct 2018 · 287

graceunderfire Oct 2018

It's not that I don't like you.
It's that I'm afraid to ask.

I'm demanding and I seek.
I'm afraid that you can't give me the things that I want.

Would you still want me by your side?
Would you still want to hold me in your arms?
Would you still want to kiss me?

I'm someone who needs time.
Time to develop, time to be ready.
I don't kiss on first dates, not even on the second, not on the third.
Could you wait till I am ready or would you give up and turn away?

And when the time comes, you'll know.
I'll hold you tight, I'll hold you close.
But. if we were to kiss, would you do it the way I like?
Would you take your time and kiss me so slow?

I'm demanding like that.
I'm afraid and insecure.
But I do obtain a heart that could love if given time.

#love #insecurity #fears #waiting #time #heart #loving

Sep 2018 · 167

you were loved

graceunderfire Sep 2018

you were loved

I possessed a heart
so capable of loving you,
along with your harsh words
and your mistakes

Sep 2018 · 392

untitled 2018 (first)

graceunderfire Sep 2018

untitled 2018 (first)

If you say you love me
My body is yours, colour in the lines
Don't let your hands go and wander
Beyond the edges of mine

Just hold me tight
Fingers tracing my spine
Kiss me tender
Harsh along my neckline

Oct 2016 · 340

transparent

graceunderfire Oct 2016

transparent

I'm glad we're not transparent,
they will see our inner bleed,
the heartbreak leaking from our hearts,
and the secrets we can't keep

Jun 2016 · 318

Untitled

graceunderfire Jun 2016

Untitled

The magic carpet left in the corner collecting dust,
You broke my slipper; the one made of glass,
I went and changed but i didn't win the battle,
My love was always out there but it was him I couldn't sea,
My hair was never long enough and I was a reflection of plain bareness,
I was told I wasn't fair and mirrors hated me for my ugliness,
I don't have space of my own and wouldn't know of colours to paint with,
Everytime I close my eyes I'd be woken not by a nightmare

Fairytales don't happen for girls like me

Jun 2016 · 229

when he learned

graceunderfire Jun 2016

when he learned

he felt small and I took him in,
I fell in love and I saw him grin,
and then his claws; they held me tight,
and he grew his teeth but not to bite,

then one day,
his eyes; they swayed.

he learned to roar,
came out his claws,
scratched at my skin,
the pain begin,
step into my skin and touched my heart,
jumped onto my bones and I fell apart

May 2016 · 255

there can't be two bads

graceunderfire May 2016

there can't be two bads

please tell me that you're big on happy endings,
'cause there can't be two bads in this love that we're both finding,
there's got to be one; out of us both that's gonna carry the other,
and i'm hoping you're up for it cause i'm the hopeless and i'm the sad,
so once again i hope it's you and i hope that you can; or would you prefer giving up and to simply forget each other?

Feb 2016 · 355

for better or for worse

graceunderfire Feb 2016

for better or for worse

I don't know what's worse;
To fall in love again eventhough you know you're going to get hurt,
Or to shut the slightest bit of feelings out

They say we learn from our mistakes,
Which now I know is a complete lie,
Cause' I can still look at you,
And bare the tears from my eyes

Dec 2015 · 362

one/none (choose)

graceunderfire Dec 2015

one/none (choose)

she said it to his face
"i want it all or i want none"

//

"i want to be the only ******* one"

Oct 2015 · 417

Full Length Mirror

graceunderfire Oct 2015

Full Length Mirror

I look into the full length mirror,
You all know I'm not good enough,
One ugly face, one messed up body,
Coping with emotions is straining tough.

I look into the full length mirror,
And I don't know what to feel,
All I know is that the walls are caving in,
And nothing feels quite real.

I look into the full length mirror,
And I see the girl I said I wouldn't be,
A girl with so much self consciousness,
Who would take a jump to feel a little free.

I look into the full length mirror,
I see the fake smile on my face,
Hiding hurt and bleeding sadness,
Isolating myself in my own space.

#broken #lost #hurt

Sep 2015 · 406

This Is For The People

graceunderfire Sep 2015

This Is For The People

This is for the people on the verge of letting go.
For the people who hide their sadness that the world would never know.

Sep 2015 · 1.2k

That Girl Was Me

graceunderfire Sep 2015

That Girl Was Me

She was a girl; outspoken.
She got her heart broken.
She wore a beautiful dress filled with unseen; harsh words; scratches
And under that dress lied her heart sewed up with patches.

the truth is pretty ugly.

Sep 2015 · 374

Head Over Heals

graceunderfire Sep 2015

Head Over Heals

Will i still be judged based on your expectations?
And to when you are bored, is that when i'm an option?
Boy it hurts like hell when it comes to opinions.
I've let you deep in, you have crossed the violation.

But still there's this urge, the sweetest temptation.
To fight for your love in this wild competition.
The feeling so strong yet so numb like a sedation.
Got me feeling so high, it's the greatest sensation.

And sometimes it's so great just like an imagination.
When you walk and you smile, i loose all my preparations.
And these little events make talking to you a huge desperation.
Not having you in my life would cause me a great devastation.

head over heals cause it's you over everything

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