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nevaeh Jan 2021
happy colors
pretty pictures
am i bleeding
or just having fun?
wowwiee
nevaeh Jan 2021
can you see it?
****, can't you FEEL it?
there's a fire
out there burning
maybe you can smell the smoke
but can you feel the heat?
nevaeh Jan 2021
WHY DO I ALWAYS HAVE TO BE WRONG?
WHY AM I ALWAYS THE BAD GUY?
I KNOW YOU'RE STRUGGLING
AND I'M SO SORRY I COULDN'T/CAN'T HELP YOU
BUT I'M ******* STRUGGLING TOO
I'M ******* EXHAUSTED.
YOU CAN BE MAD AT ME
HATE ME FOR ALL ETERNITY
I DON'T ******* CARE ANYMORE
NONE OF YOU CARE ABOUT ANYONE BUT YOUR **** SELF
IM NOT ASKING YOU TO DIE FOR ME
I JUST WANT TO BE ABLE TO BREATHE
FOR JUST A MOMENT
I WANT TO LET GO

could you at least TRY to see how ******* lonely i am? how isolated i've become? how ******* close i am to having nothing left?

I DON'T WANT YOUR LOVE
I JUST WANT A FRIEND.
go have your breakdown - i'll just keep forcing myself to be okay, because you all matter so much more than you should to me.
nevaeh Jan 2021
oh, how the world has watched hungrily
lapped up every drop of my pain

then to move on so quickly
feed off of another helpless soul

like i'm not even worth the effort
to see if i survive

it's almost like he wants me to see
how unimportant i am, how quickly he'd leave
so when i finally die, my blood will mingle with tears
and instead of leaving this world alone
i'll take my loneliness with me
god ******* ****
nevaeh Jan 2021
100
lately, more and more people have started to look at me
and suddenly i remembered what i hate so much about the world

it has eyes.
******* ****
nevaeh Jan 2021
i remember nights of running through the grass
catching the moths that fluttered around the dim street lights
blowing dandelion fluff into the dark sky

the sound of bare feet on endless black rivers of asphalt
the hum of late night drivers on the highway just a few fences over
hushed laughter echoing back from the empty night

i remember when we were kids
when math was easy and our hearts were free
unburdened by love or lust

i remember being cheerful and sad
but never both at once, i remember being simple
when everyone said what they meant

when i went on cute little dates with pretty girls
hold her hand and buy her a soda, going nowhere, but having fun
drop her off under the porch light and kiss her cheek

i remember sleepovers and secrets
whispers through the dark, when friends were just friends
when joining the circus was just a dream

before addictions and *** and heartbreak
i remember the humble, effortless, quiet nights
saying goodnight on good nights
remember when nighttime was magical and fun? now it all just seems so heavy.
nevaeh Jan 2021
if you sit and stare
let your vision blur
bad things start to look
a whole lot prettier
#ah
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