Depression is such a cruel punishment.
There are no fevers, no rashes, no blood tests
or x-ray scans to send people scurrying in concern.
No signs of suffering.
Just a slow process of destruction
from the inside,
as insidious as any cancer.

And like cancer, it is essentially
a solitary experience.
A room in hell with only your name on the door.

People call me observant.
That's not particularly true.

I'm not more observant than any
other human being. People are just so
easy to read -
We bleed emotions even in the way we drink our coffee.

No one seems to notice though, because they're all
too busy drinking their own ****
coffee.

You know what's stupid?

The concept of treating adolescents like children
throughout the entirety
of their teenage years, and then
around age 17 pulling a complete 180 turn
and expecting them
within the next couple of years to decide
what they want to do the rest of
their lives.

I don't know what happened.
It's like i woke up one morning
and i felt like my chest was filled with bricks.
I looked in the mirror and i saw
a little girl who grew up too fast.
I miss the days without worrying
and sadness.

How can this feeling
of emptiness feel
so **heavy