She's cracking
like a fractured window.
One gentle touch
and she will come crashing down.
All her hopes and dreams
shattering
into a million sparkling pieces.
Soon,
there will be nothing left of her.
Just an empty soul
with nothing left to live for.

I'm sick I think I'm sick
Sometimes I think I get like this
I bite my tongue, I clench my fists
Resist at first and then reverse
The night knows me by name
Its shadow trained to dull the pain
All the black begins to blur
Resist at first and then immerse
~
        It tires me, it makes me sad
To think of all the nights I've had
Eyes shut tightly, I shut down
Won't be that much longer now
In the quiet, in the dark
All my ideals fall apart
When they come for me again
Resist with everything I am
~
It tires me, it makes me sad
To think of all the nights I've had
Eyes shut tightly, I shut down
Won't be that much longer now
~
I'm sick, I think I'm sick
Sometimes I think I get like this
I bite my tongue, I clench my fists
Resist at first and then reverse
Life's a war, you pick your fight
I think mine picks me first most nights
If I should wake before I die
Then promise me you'll never get this sick inside
~
Can't undo a word I said
Years of struggle still ahead
All the trouble in my head
I wish I were good instead
  ~  
I'm sick, I think I'm sick
Sometimes I think I get like this
I bite my tongue, I clench my fists
Resist at first and then reverse
My adversary knows me well
She's out for blood, too soon to tell
If I'll outsmart these lies of hell
And think my sick self back to health

Fantasies of you and me
dancing between the sheets
they flit and flutter through my mind

Heat and desire pool deep in my belly
making me need relief
You on top of me.

Make love to me
tenderly
roughly
any way you can.

I'll drag my nails
down your back,
and wrap my legs around you
pulling you closer me.  

Make me arch off the bed
make me moan
and scream your name.

I'll do things to you
that leave you shuddering
and begging me for more.

Kiss you on the lips
and start to trail down
leaving kisses as I go
until you are in my mouth.

Oh the fun we would have
and it would all be
between you and me.

Her feelings are burried deep down
like the pharohs of old.

She pushes on and carries on
Protecting her family
by bringing them endless laughter.

But

Her Humor is drying out
like a puddle in a drought.

The court jester is stumbling
struggling to hold on
She is reaching out for help

The court jester is crumbling
right infront of everyones eyes.
But she does it in secret

with a slice of her wrist here
and a swipe at her legs there.

She puts on her plastic smile
and brings laughter to everyone around her.