My heart screams at me
It's reverberating the words
'She's perfect', let her know
But my mind, my mind clouds
The words that come from
My heart.
My mind is telling me,
'If you do, there's no going back',
So I let my mind
Silence the thoughts that my heart
has created.
I let my mind
Silence the ***** that keeps me alive.
I ask myself daily now
'Will I ever be more than a struggle
Between heart vs mind? Will I ever
Be able to choose my heart like
A dog chooses to fetch a stick
Without any actual commands?'
If I were to let my heart choose,
It would say ' Go tell her you
really really think she's beautiful',
so I go and do that but what
I'm really trying to say is
'I don't think any part of me
Can enjoy life as much as it
Has without your company'.

Electric guitar
I won't go far
Or travel the world in the back of a car
I'll end up cremated in a jar

none of these words
i muscle into existence
fill the dread
-the writhe that never dies-
that eats at my yellow bones
one day at a time

and still i push them
words words worm food soon

Forget what the society thinks for a day
see how your mind will start to sway
live the life you want to live
and think of the people you want in it
you were created
you are not there to be hated

Do what you want just for a day
see which way your views will sway
a life that you want to live
a life with only you in it
you may not want to live like this
but you know what will fit

Don't give me anything
because it's human nature to want more.
Leave me to live my life
and see how high I soar.

I don't want your pitty,
I can do it on my own.
leave me to live my life
you've seen how far I've already grown.