-- when I have the tenderness of a writhing dragon,
he will paint flowers across my throat

as though to remind me that fires are indelicate,
and that I writhe in a prison made of open space.
-- this man will not smother me with his skin
when we sleep.
-- this man will unhinge the door of my mouth,
and kiss out the bullets stuck under my tongue.
                                                                ­               ---
whatever thousandth day I awaken beside this man,
realizing I have become the flowers he painted
across my throat, by braving my throat,

I will, unchaining myself from the draconic worry,
bring him his coffee in bed, with a smile.

that night
was

a place
adjacent

a shrine

thrummed totem rising
OOOoohhhmm-ing busting sifting
the hard
the oh-so *******
-hard-
mineral
that sits proud beneath my breast
always taking
deflecting

now
taken in
felt

carbon lattice wilt
this will pass

i've been

cared
for

her touch
friend love soul tall all pure
orbit of Oneness arcs above us

my chest

outside my self
reaching out of me
out of my grasp
wanting to be
more toward
the Other

my feat
inside the floor
where the beat is found

the hardness slips

for the first time
i wished to be human
and was

sliver in the diamond
shook loose
the sting of ME
wanting
transgressing
now outside me
the ugly is mine to hold
to observe

it killed me

i died last night
and
from that baseline goop
rose toes first
white-hot light dripping
from starburned furnace melt

On the far side of me was you.  I ride on my lightning bike passed Neptune in route toward home.  Its good to see my solar system.  I have been all over the galaxy.  Seen wonders no one has ever seen.  And yet none are as wonderous as you smiling at me for but a moment.  I cannot have you nor will I steal you away.  All I want is your smile. Just to see it.  Then I will ride off for the 2nd universe.  On my lightning bike made of star glass.  To see if I can find a wonder that is more wonderous than you.  I smile at the thought of me coming back again. Just to view your smile.  Because I know that even in the 2nd universe there is nothing more beautiful than you.

Through the light door I went..
I traveled through space passing by stars and nebulas..
I was on a trail made of different colored light beams..
I was going so fast..
But yet could not feel it..
It was as though I was not moving at all..
But I was..
And then I arrived!

I arrived to a place made entirely of light.  The structures, the ground, and even the people were all made of light.  All except me.  I could not see myself! It was very strange.  I was also invisible to everyone here.  I walked among the light world unnoticed to all.  I walked and walked until I was outside the light city.  I came upon a forest with light trees and grass.  I took a light trail and followed it to a river made of blue light.  The luminescent water flowed just like the water back home.  I then decided to head back to the city and found that the light trail I walked on is no longer lit.  In fact everywhere I had set foot seem to be losing its luster and shine.  What remained was a trail made of nothing but darkness.  My dark steps were being looked at by all the light beings.  I could sense a rise of panic.  What have I done!  I do not belong here! I need to get back!