Evergreen Pines

Evergreen Pines May 2014

Gold, silver and lead.
Which of the three is best?*
Gold showers the beauty
but it is a true pest.

Silver gives off shine
but shall dull in time.
lead has no value
Yet it's greater than a dime.

To answer thy question:
*Lead is best of the three.
To eye's it's nothing
but shall set hearts free.

Lead is the tool
to unlock a soul
though what's written
maybe blacker than coal.

inspired by Shakespeare's "The Merchant of Venice"

Evergreen Pines May 2014

The Sounds of the Storm

rumble, rumble
I hear it;
that beautiful sound of destruction.
pitter patter
Hear that rhythm of rain.
It's the drums of the storm.
Listen to the wind's howl.
Oh how the sounds of the storm are so beautiful.
Nothing's like the drums of rain, the bass of thunder, the voice of wind and flashes of light.
Oh dear God. it's a thing of beauty.

Too bad their life's short

I am insanely happy during thunderstorms, which is weird since I really depressed when it rain.

Evergreen Pines May 2014

UnImportant?

No one loves me, no one cares about me.
No one sees me, I feel like they shouldn't.
No one pays attention to me, like a rotten fruit.
The world seems to treat me like I'm unimportant.
I think I am truly unimportant, I wish I was dead.
Stop talking! Let's get something straight here.
You are not unimportant! Don't ever say *that!
You are on planet Earth for a reason.
The reason I'm here is to feel this way.
So other people will look at me and feel better for themselves.
There here to treat me like dirt, so they'll feel good, and not like me.
NEVER! No one is here just to suffer! Stop putting yourself down.
You can do things in this world no one else can.
All I can do is feel useless and unimportant.
Stop treating yourself like ****, 'cause I know you're not.
Can't you see it? You're here for a reason.
And that reason is not to feel like this.
You have a gift, this gift no one else has.
You have a better affect on people than most.
So please, don't leave too soon.

some people just can't see they're important. the thing is everyone's important, we are all apart of something bigger than us: the circle of life.

May 2014

Hayleigh

You're worth so much more

Honey take away the blade
From those innocent little wrists
You're far too precious
To hurt yourself like this.
Baby, take your fingers
From down your throat,
You're far too beautiful,
To make yourself gag and joke.
Sweetheart, empty those pills,
From your hands
You're far too gifted
To slip through the sands
Of time.
Darling, take the fist away,
From your head,
Your far too special,
Take your fist to a pillow instead.
Angel, take all those self destructive thoughts and hold yourself in your arms,
You're worth so much more and deserve so much better,
than to cause your self harm.
I promise.

#suicide #pain #hope #hurt #selfharm #selfworth

May 2014

calion

nightcall. (10w)

i love you*
it took a year to realize that

bold- him
italic- me.

Evergreen Pines May 2014

I think I like you

The first year I knew I liked you.
The first year I liked you as a friend.
The first half of the second year's when it changed.
I still saw you as a friend, but something was different.
You stood out, I found you cute, but you were still just a friend.
At the end of the first half, I had to admit something.
I admitted that if you did ask me out, I would say yes.
But I wouldn't mind if you as some one else.
...
Now I kind of would.
...
Now I'd love you to ask me out, but at the same time I wouldn't
I wanna be with you, but I don't want a distraction from school.
I wanna know if you feel the same way, but I don't!
If you ask me out I'd say yes in a heartbeat.

What does this mean?
...
I think it means I like you.
I'm torn- I want a boyfriend, I want you!
I want to be your girlfriend, I want you to be my boyfriend.
But at the same time, I don't. I don't want to ruin our friendship.
So... if you ask me out... here's what I'd say:
*...
"Yes! but, school comes first. And... we'll always be friends right?"

(says in small voice) I tell him, but I don't know how.