I've got a better grip on myself than you ever will.
I'm already sick of you because you're not what I need and I don't mean to be leading you on, but you've got to decide where you want to be.
Either give it all you've got or you're gone for good.
Saying you're confused and you don't know what you want doesn't help because to me you're just a boy and I'd rather see more unfamiliar faces than yours right now.
I'd rather be healthier than this.
I don't see much difference between you and all the others, so maybe a farewell is better.
Growing up takes time and since I know you're not in love, this shouldn't hurt too bad.
I don't want to be waiting much longer.

There is nothing beautiful about
Crumpling to the floor at 2am
And begging yourself to hang on
There is nothing beautiful about
The artwork that covers your body
There is nothing beautiful about
Purging so you can fit into that dress
Yet society is glorifying it all.
Sadness is not beautiful
It's a twisted relationship with oneself
A million compliments couldn't build someone up
But one remark can send them crashing down
You become more afraid of yourself than
The monsters under your bed
We continue to praise something
That causes people to suffocate
Even when they're still breathing

Sometimes I feel it, yes I can
I'm wrapped around your finger yes I am
The way you do my head it's just no good
The way you do my head not like a good girl should  

She'll slink up behind you bro
She hid in the garden don't you know
Everybody said she was before her time
She'll sneak up behind you and commit the perfect crime

But I find that it's alright yeah it's okay
I'll get what I need just for today
It's alright yeah it's okay
I'll get some of what I need just for today

She'll slink up behind you bro
She hid in the garden don't you know
Everyone said she was before her time
She'll sneak up behind you and commit the perfect crime

The coffee is going down and I'm waking up
I got a **** load of joy enough to fill a truck
Down by the waterfront I'll take the plunge
I went through the nineties I lived through grunge

But it's alright yeah it's okay
I'll get what I need just for today

but for so long now, i have been absolutely horrified of him doing me wrong. there has been nothing else i could focus on, other than the possibility that maybe, just maybe, this person that i've invested so much love and adoration in would hurt me, badly.

his reassurances have been constant, and his love has been consistent. it has been half a year since i had met him, and it has been three months since we had decided to give a name to whatever existed between us.

i don't know how he does it.

these demons i've let reign and conquer had basically eaten me alive in the past two weeks; i was sure i was losing my mind, i was sure i would never see things the same way again.

i don't know how he does it.

but he is slowly killing these demons, one-by-one. surely, i am on my toes, waiting for him to push me over down onto my face. but, at this point, i am on my toes still trying to kiss his mouth. to thank him. for shutting these monsters up.

it's burning down

all of it

isn't it

no no no you can't read the fire

or curse it out

blowing out the world's candles

that lit the hidden

showed what sat in front of squeezed-tight lips and eyes

idiots all of them never learning that the end is never

will this all end in clever back and forths empty

or will we move God ****** from that master past

tearing us afar

pearl-filled hearts begging for for forgiveness

in the lacey sweetness of Valentine cards

weeping for their skin

collecting tears in water-bottles

plastic spittoons holding forever

held back words that rot teeth and livers

a cold shiver in the leaving of the light

Take my body
Bruise my hips
Your name on
My swollen lips