You were my mistress, my ever lasting love
So beautiful and free like a dove
I wish I could prevent you from this wreck
You were too delicate to protect
If only I could stop the gods above

I loved you and you loved me
You went out of your way to pay this fee
I was blessed with your grace
You lit a fire in me with your embrace
Why couldn't I just let you be

You were more then my best friend
My wounds you did mend
If only I could do the same
And prevent you from this pain
I wish this wasn't the end

I wasn't the only heart you did steal
I couldn't help how it made me feel
But I was to blind to see
That you only had eyes for me
But I just couldn't tell what was real

All these emotions manipulated
You were so devastated
I don't know how I couldn't see
I was hurting the only one who loved me
This was a monster love created

You didn't run, you didn't hide
You just looked me in the eyes as your cried
You tried to calm me down with your speech
You thought there was a part of me you could reach
But still you died

If only you picked some one whose love you deserved
Instead of picking the man you served
But now you're in heaven after all that pain
And I will be in hell but the only thing that will keep me sane
Is keeping the memory of you preserved

The Moon in the sky
Is for every one to see
To call it yours is a lie
Because it only speaks to me

It pulls on my soul
It whispers in my ear
It makes me whole
It makes me listen even when I don't want to hear

Savageness in my thoughts
Sadness in my Heart
Sanity rots
Soulful inspiration to create my art

I wish it would end
It is relentless in its pulling
It twists me and I cant defend
But I will never stop looking

I was floating up into the sky
Completely free
Where no mortal rules would apply
Nothing stopping me

I would stop right at the edge;
Of our fleeting world and space
In this theoretical world I would jump off that ledge
See if there is more
Then what I have bin told I can explore
Or look death in the face

Excuse me

I feel the need to interject
You better show some respect
Your just a miserable little insect
Looking to infect

You minimal power has gone unchecked
Your so intoxicated your lost
Time to be rejected
Time to pay the cost

You flew to high in the sky
Living off the tears people cry
Time to say bye bye

Now that the end is nigh
Ever word out of your mouth is a lie
Time to put this to an end
Time for you to die

Excuse me

What is it that you said
You didn't mean to leave so many dead
Yet on their corpses you fead
This is where your actions have led

I feel the need to turn you into a wreck
To show you some respect
Use this time to reflect
On every little aspect

You minimal power has gone unchecked
Your so intoxicated your lost
Time to be rejected
Time to pay the cost

You flew to high in the sky
Living off the tears people cry
Time to say bye bye

Now that the end is nigh
Ever word out of your mouth is a lie
Time to put this to an end
Time for you to die

To bad for you I was the next one for you to bite
My delusions of granger give me the right
To smite you like a mite
Say your prayers before I say good night

Excuse me

But this feeling has got me effected
All this power has bin redirected
I will be your god that no one has elected
To my wills you will be subjected

My power has gone unchecked
I'm so intoxicated I'm lost
Time for most of you to be neglected
Time for the others to pay my cost

I have flown so high that I have become the sun in your sky
Living to see the tears and to hear people cry
And to stomp out those who try

Now that the end is nigh
Ever word out of your mouths will be why
Time to put this to an end
Time for you all to die

My heart has become a hollow shell
It is some thing that makes me dwell
I look for some thing to put inside
To make my heart swell

You are a muse
You take me out of my blues
You make me feel alive
Your my light and my fuse

In my empty heart you reload
You put me in a creative mode
You give me drive
And make my heart explode

No need to fear
Death is here
Bringing nature to an end
So we can begin again

BOOM!
It hits me like a blast
Theres a ringing in my ear
Nothing good can last
But how could you no longer be here

I was the last one to see you and remember
The 24th of December
You said you were "sick of living like this"
but I didn't see any thing amiss

How could I be so stupid
How could I be so blind
I didn't do a thing
It's so clear as I look behind

You're cousin called me from your'e phone
Told me about your nose and ****** foam
All this misery wasn't suitable
I'm sorry but I could't bring my self to go to you're funeral

I want fun
I want destruction
I want to blow up the sun
I want seduction

I want action
I want ******
I want want a chain reaction
That will bring me to my knees

We only got one life
Lets make it worth living
Pull out a knife
Lets go out screaming and kicking

Lets start a fire

**** Yeah

I want control
I want more then I was given
I want to sell my soul
I want women

I want to be the angel the fell
I want freedom
I want to be the bat out of hell
I want my own eden

We only got one life
Lets make it worth living
Pull out a knife
Lets go out screaming and kicking

Lets start a fire

**** Yeah

Life's a prison can't you see
Where held down by our job and our family
Life's a prison can't you see
Where held down by our job and our family

Kiss me, I'm dreaming
And I can't stop screaming
I can't hide the scars in my soul and my heart bleeding
And Soon when I die I won't wake up and it won't be fleeting
And when I open my eyes from this vicious beating
Thats when the real nightmare and I will be meeting

I believe in a Demon who lives inside my head
He's scratching and screaming, he wants to be fed

Tears, fears and things better left unsaid
Horrors appears as my thoughts are led

He's like a toxin rotten my brain with a constant spread
I hope all is forgotten as I shoot myself dead

Take a deep breath in
Close your eyes
Feel whats deep within
Don't believe your lies

Slowly breath out
Feel your stress cease
Release your self doubt
Find your inner peace

Now open your eyes
Everything is going to be all right
Feel your self reach new highs
Ok its time to write

She screamed
You fiend
All she could do was ask why
This is worse then it ever seemed
You will never be redeemed

He cried
I thought I shouldn't of lied
I want to fix this, I want us to try
How can you just push me aside
When yesterday you wanted to be my bride

This is a relation ship based on trust
Not lust
I thought you were my ally
What is there to discuss
With out me you will have to adjust

This isn't fair
I still care
This argument is just making it multiply
There is so much more of life to share
With out you I would be in despair

You should of thought of that before your mistake
You knew what was at stake
Time to say good by
This was more then I could take
For my heart to break

Fine I will leave our home
When I all I want to do is atone
I want to do is die
Think about that when you are with another guy
This is a love I will never disown
Even if I am with some one els, my heart will always be alone

In this world we are tossed
Some of us found
Some of us lost
But we all have to bear our fathers cross

In this world we survive
Some of us starve
Some of us thrive
But we all have to pay with our lives

In this world we are one
But yet we still fight
Some of us start Wars for greed
And some just for fun

In this world we have nothing to fear
For if you are healthy or in pain
The punishment is always just as sever
Because Death is always near
And to him you all look the same

If you like to howl
Taste things fowl
Stay up like an owl
And act shallow

Your Wrong

If you feel for peoples pain
Question if your sane
Like crying in the rain
Hate financial gain

Your Wrong

If you like to sing
Love the flowers in the spring
Hate when life stings
Wish you could fly with open wings

Your Wrong

If you live for thrusting
Love when people are lusting
Think monogamy's disgusting
And that *** is trusting

Your Wrong

If you think life's not a mess
Like kneeling with rest
Think hardships a test
And to be good you need to confess

Your Wrong

If you think you can be right
While the rest of the world is full of spite
Want to be some thing the world can't smite
And for every thing not to be finite

Your Wrong

This is boredom
Tedium at its best
This is freedom
But still I cant get any rest

As I look in the Mirror
I recognize what I see
But its not clear
If this is really me

As I was a child
I was always free
My heart was so wild
I could be who ever I wanted to be

As I was a Teen
I Had to unlock the key
How I wanted to be seen
And who I wanted to be

As I left school
I learned what was really me
I no longer tried to be cool
But who I was accurately

Now I am a bit older and have done all the things I have done
I and I have become who I was supposed to be
But I don't think the choices I have made were the right ones
Because the person in the mirror I see
Is no longer me

How could you?
How could I know?
That you were lying
Did you not care how hard I was trying?

I warmed your head
I warmed you're bed
I mended your soul
How could I know?

I shouldn't have listened to your word
instead of your actions
Its so absurd
That I didn't see your different factions

How could I know?
How did you know?
That I was lying
Despite how hard I was trying

I played with your head
I ***** you're bed
I stole your soul
How did you let go?

I should have listened to your action
instead of your words
You warmed me with every reaction
how could I be so absurd?

For along time my heart was at war
I was racing for the grave
But finally I see life for some thing more
Yet I am still fates slave
Because now I have cancer knocking at my door
But I still I won't cave
Because I finally have some one to adore
And it helps to make me brave
Now no matter what the future has in store
I know the life I have left will be saved

Can some one kiss me
Wake me from this dream
I want to be set free
For all I want to do is scream

Can some one pinch me
Wake me to some thing real
I want there to be something beautiful to see
Something that can make me feel

Can some one help me
Show me what is wrong
Help me find the key
Because I haven't bin happy in so long

I's a shame
Satan knew my name
I'm a dead man
Or worse
Save me from this cures

This feeling wont wain
Lucifer save me from this pain
My name is all I am
Satan speaks rhymes same as man and cures, go with indies song, punk guit, rain, destructions but only chorus

Give more for the ***** at the shinny heaven door
She's meek, she's weak but God needs some thing to eat

Read the scrolls and give your souls to that who controls
But you are all wrong and will all sing screaming songs while the suffering will be long

Burn more to let the fires soar, if only people could see the grotesque gore
Its a horrific sight that isn't right but from far away it looks like a heavenly light

Scorching fire in the veins
Blistering flesh and wrenching pains
Poring water on the skin
Sheds of the flesh in massive strains
Tender muscle is all that remains
Will I ever win?
What's the answer to my sin?

Sitting in the rain
Why is this a life worth living
All I feel is pain
I have nothing left worth giving
I could end it all in one quick fall
All I feel is pain
Would people understand if I gave up on it all

Can you feel me
I'm shivering
Because of your heart
Your delivering
I hope that this is love

Is this what you see
I never thought some one could feel this way about me
I think this must be love
Because it is setting me free

I can feel you
I'm listening
Because of your heart
I'm blistering
I want this to be love

I wish I knew you were always the key
To these feeling warming me
This must be love
Because for it I will pay any fee

I feel like I am going crazy
because all I can see
Is artists being lazy
But thinking they are better then we

They write poems on how they are the only one
They can't even poke fun
They take every thing so seriously
And attack every one furiously

I want to write a nice comment for them to see
But to them you're nice comment is just you paying a fee
They just see the comment section as their personal fleet
Who are just their to grovel and kiss their feet

They are a bleeding heart artist
And every one should know
They are the smartest
And we should all tell them so

No one will ever under stand them
No one will no their dream
But I just say **** 'em
Because they don't under stand, they're more pathetic then they seem

Is this the end of all my fear
I have built a wall high here
I am ready for this to end
I must stay steady if I am going to fend

I can no longer let this be
I have to get stronger because no one will save me
I am going against an army immense
I have built up my defence, let it commence

Will I win it all
Or will my sin cause me to fall
I will keep on uniting my soul with every breath
I will keep on fighting for my goal until my death

My heart has paid a fee
I turn a blind eye to what I see
My philosophy has become hypocrisy
What has become of me?

Her looks were perfect and left with me with nothing to say
Like the feeling of being melted on a hot summers day
Her voice and words were as soft as a breeze
But she could run cold and make my heart freeze

I couldn't help but think about her every single day
And when we were apart I couldn't stand to be away
Finally one day I was able to tell her my love for her was like a flame
And I couldn't have bin more joyed when she told me she felt the same

Soon we were together every day and night
Holding each other in embrace and holding each other tight
But over time she started to leave me out of sight
I started to feel like things were no longer all right

Finally I grew the courage because some thing was wrong and I had to know why?
She looked me coldly in the eyes and told me "there was another guy"
My heart was destroyed, my feelings weren't there to play
She looked me coldly in the eyes and this is what she had to say

"Do you think you are special, do you think you are alone
Heart break is a feeling that every one will have known
You are not the first and you wont be the last
I have done it to you like some one has done it to me in the past"

What a cold hearted *****, what horrible words to say
But soon I had a new girl to make me feel ok
Sadly my jaded heart wandered and I made that poor girl see
That I broke her heart just like it happened to me

Skin sizzling
Voice screaming
Tears christening
A ship thats sinking

Girl:
I love you
and care
      Boy:
I love you too
We just have to rise from this despair?
        Girl:
I hope it can be true
Or els life isn't fair
                                      (Maybe one more line)
         Boy:
We will make it threw
Don't worry I'll always be there
And with a love so true
There is nothing we can't bare

Dear God who brought me to me knees
I know you've never answered me yet
But please answer my pleas
I have paid so many debts
Without racking up any fees
And before I succumb to this disease
Knowing why before I die
Is the only thing can put me at ease

Why was a child defiled
Ravaged brutally when I was innocent
Molested till I was in my own imprisonment
Making me punish my self in equal equivalent
Living a life where death was always imminent
Now Before I go I have to know
Where you just ambivalent?

How do I get on the front page?
Do I show them my rhymes
Or talk about my crimes
Or do I try and fill their hearts with rage

What is it that I lack?
Do I show that beneath this raging desire;
To set their souls on fire
I am really just a hack

Have I become lost?
I want to bring people near
And show them I am here
But really at what cost?

Am I here alone?
I write out my groans
Into filthy little poems
And take comfort they wont be shown

******* I am ****** up
I'm sick and I'm dying
I'm lost and I'm sighing
I wish I could start crying

Every word you say is true
no one knows me better then you
I wish we could start a new
and you didn't think I was ****** up too

Oh sweet princess of the queens
You teem in my thoughts and in my dreams
I would kiss you by any means
But all we have are our distant screams

My soul has already bin shed
A statuette of the forgotten; forsaken
But wires fill my veins
A spirit in my head
A marionette of the dead
rotten, for the taken
Don't mind it's pains
It is made for breaking

I feel my wheels turning
I feel my heart on fire
But why am I still waiting
For events to transpire

I'm torn between my spirit
My need to be a machine
I have so much passion I can feel it
But it is still left unseen

What am I missing
Why can't I crack the code
I hear my self hissing
Why wont I just explode

Maybe I should just rest
And let my passion go
Maybe I should stop being compressed
And just let my spirit flow