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  Jan 2015 EmptySadness
effaced
i
eat
sleep
breathe
feel
and
see.          
                      but,
                      i
                      find
                      it
                      hard
                                        to
                                        be
                                                             me.
  Jan 2015 EmptySadness
tracy
Utter the word "long distance" and the first thing that comes to mind afterwards is relationship. After relationship, comes a lover 3,000 miles away that's dedicated to falling asleep on Skype and has Snapchat constantly open to remind you about how their day is going. Time differences. Distance. It all becomes blurred together when it's 4 in the morning here, but 6 in the morning there, and they're asleep but you're not. Welcome to your long distance relationship.

But when it's 4 in the morning here and it's 12 in the afternoon there and there's more than just miles in between us but oceans, you never forget to wish me a happy birthday and if your boss is nice to you that day and adds the extra dollar to your paycheck, there might even be a gift or two for me being sent first class (because who would ever dare fly coach these days?). You'd swim the ocean for me, if I asked. You'd push the countries together. To (platonically) love another person, as the saying goes, is to see the face of God and you are an angel.

There will be days where we don't talk. The days turn into months, and the months turn into years. The longest, I think, was the hardest of year mine--coincidence? But even when the hours begin to add up and it seems like the ocean is getting bigger and bigger, you never cease to tell me that I'm one of the most beautiful people you've ever met (and **** the skinny girls who tell me otherwise). I would have turned the world upside down just to bring us closer together, if I could.

We're too young to not go out and live life with the people who are here, but who's to say that the people who aren't physically here aren't real? I can reach out and touch the girl next to me, but her warmth won't mean as much as when I go home and sign into Skype and your voice is already bouncing through my computer's speakers ready to tell me about your day. We cry together. We dream together. We always said we'd grow old together.

They say you can't really know someone when you've never met them, but I've met you in more ways than I can count. I've met the way you sleep at night (thanks to Skype and time differences), because you snore when you're too tired. I've met the way your eyes light up when you talk about your job, your hobbies, the things you like. From my 13" screen, I've met your siblings, the posters on your walls, the room you sleep in. We depend on technology to meet each other so don't let anyone tell you that technology is ruining lives. It's been saving mine.

So, my friend, thank you for the long nights of telling each other our life stories, learning secrets, learning quirks that no one else has ever noticed (because no one else seemed to care). Thank you for taking my side in almost every situation and for keeping me company as I sleep. Thank you for the birthday serenades over Skype, picking up the phone when I'm drunk and crying, and for growing old with me. For all of the movie nights that we spent on Skype yelling "okay, press play in 3, 2, 1!" and for all of the advice about people you'll never meet, cheers to you, to us, the time, and distance apart.
A little prose piece written for all of my friends I've met on the Internet. I love you.
EmptySadness Jan 2015
You know you love someone
When you get physically sick
Knowing they're sad.

You know you love someone
When their pain
turns into
yours

You know you love someone
When you would trade your own
happiness
for that person to be happy
Even if its only for
A
Second

You know you love someone
When you fear everyday
That they might do something
That would take them off this earth

You know you love someone
When you give everything you can
Hoping, Just hoping
That they might be happy
Even if its only for
A
*
Second
EmptySadness Jan 2015
I still play your old voicemails
And read our text messages from months back
I cant deny the fact I miss you.

I miss you.
The person you used to be.
The one I fell in love with.

I have to face the fact
That you have changed
And moved on

But darling, I still love you.
And will until Im gone.
EmptySadness Jan 2015
I would be lying
If I said I didn't love you
or cherish you
or want to spend my happiness with you

I would be lying
If I said I didn't miss you everyday
and wish you were here
Or more near

I would be lying*
If I said I could let you go
Your the only person ive ever known
That brings out my happiness, and let it show

I love you more and more everyday
No matter what I say
You are my world
EmptySadness Jan 2015
I know you told me not to fall in love with you
Because you think you're
to
      broken

Too late
I love everything about you
I love your flaws
And all our 3 am calls
I love our devotion
Filled with heart and emotion

But simply, your presence
You make the world a better place
At least mine
Not a day goes by that I don't wish
you were mine

I know you told me not to fall in love with you
because you think you're
to
       broken
But I cant stay away
Youre simply my world
*and that's that
This isn't for anyone in particular. Just free write (:
EmptySadness Jan 2015
Darling,

Don't ever think your not good enough
or pretty enough
Or skinny enough
Because you would be telling yourself lies

Don't ever think I don't care about you
Its the only thing I ever find time to do

If
only
you
knew

Everything I would do for you
For a moment of contentment

You've saved me countless times
No matter how bad the thoughts got in my mind
You always find the right words to say
In every single situation and way

I love you with all my heart
For if we ever part
Remember the words I say:
I love you every single second of the day
And in every single way

My love for you is ever-lasting
Shall it ever run out, will be the day im gone
I will never stop loving you
I will never give up on you
That's a promise.

Keep going



b.l
For her
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