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Oct 2014 ephemeral

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Oct 2014 ephemeral

J

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I want to kiss you under a thousand stars
As any thing less just won't do
But above all else
I miss you

#kiss #stars #you #miss

Oct 2014 ephemeral

HTML Blues

Oct 2014 ephemeral

Creep

HTML Blues

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 Why. Is. This. So. Difficult?!?! 
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*sigh* tech class will be the death of me... like,repost, comment, if any advice can be given, or if you feel my pain of having that one really hard class....

Oct 2014 ephemeral

The John to my green

Oct 2014 ephemeral

BaffledImagination

The John to my green

I remember the way his voice melted my heart like a paper plate melts in the microwave when u heat it for more than 6 seconds

I remember the way holding you at night was such a privilege because for those few fast moving moments I had the world and every star ever spoken into creation lying in the crease of my elbows

I once asked someone why love hurt so bad his response was a cliche john green quote that sounded a little something like
"pain demands to be felt"
Which in my response sounded a little something like
"pain is a pain in the ***"
But it's quite true
What would love feel like without pain.

Perfect?
Because perfect seems to pleasing

I want the 3am fights about how you didn't kiss me sweet enough or the moments when I felt like loving you was too hard for me

You see you were the john to my green you were the fault in every star that the galaxy birthed because your flaws we're more beautiful than any constellation

Please don't forget the way my lips pressed gently to yours
And please don't forget that the same moon that You see at night is the same moon that I look up to praying God will save us .

And I hope it's some day soon

Oct 2014 ephemeral

2 Types of People

Oct 2014 ephemeral

Morgan sb

2 Types of People

There are two types of people
The heart breakers, and the broken-hearted
I cannot be the heart breaker
It pains my body, as fear pulses through my veins
knowing i will be broken again
You ripped the muscle from my chest
And left a scar that bleeds each time
you kiss her, touch her, think of her
don't kiss me, don't touch me, and don't think of me
It aches and aches
Why have i let you break me?
There are two types of people
heart breakers, and the heartbroken
how can you destroy me by loving her?
How can you break me and remain unshattered?
Why can i never be the breaker
Ripping the souls form others chests
Turning their advances into worthlessness
turning their love into loathing
turning their hearts to stone
like you did mine.

#love #heartbreak #romance

Oct 2014 ephemeral

Untitled

Oct 2014 ephemeral

Creep

Untitled

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHRGHGHRGRHGRHRGG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Oct 2014 ephemeral

I like trains

Oct 2014 ephemeral

Creep

I like trains

I like trains,
I used to watch them throughout my childhood...
I used to stare at them,
Chugging along with the rickety tracks like words whispered in my ears.
I would always see them coming...
Yet I would still watch it with love
And admiration...
I just stood there...
Like the dumb **** I am...
Just there, lucid to the euphoric song this beastly thing was getting me drunk on...
Until it hit me.
I knew it was coming,
I saw it right there in front of me.
I guess maybe I wanted it to hit me?
But once it hit me,
I was long gone.
I woke up with scars and
blood running down my eyes and
Tears seeping through the seams of all the cuts and bruises across my arms,
Funny how they r shaped like the railroad tracks...
I guess I should have learned never to drink because it will **** me every time... And it does.
Two days later,
I'm here again. On those tracks,
Drinking in the songs of the sirens that lures me in every ******* time.
I still like trains.

Idk... My bf just broke up with me so.. I guess the train is love? Idek *sigh* I'm just so conflicted right now... Need to gather some thoughts... Expect me to be here a lot today or this week...

Oct 2014 ephemeral

Time

Oct 2014 ephemeral

Creep

Time

It's funny how,
even after you broke up with me,
I still think about you,
remember your cute little english accent,
and how I automatically without thinking
add 5 hours to my new york time
to get the English time,
like I always used to...

im trying...

Oct 2014 ephemeral

Should I?

Oct 2014 ephemeral

Creep

Should I?

Should I be crying,
bawling my eyes out, numb to the core?
'Cause I'm not.
My eyes are tired,
but nope, no tears.
My fingers are freezing,
but I can still feel the music pumping through me.

Oct 2014 ephemeral

Things to do (1)

Oct 2014 ephemeral

Creep

Things to do (1)

lab report,
high school applications,
technology hw,
living environment hw,
everything hw,
fix my nonexistent love life,
get my **** together,
stop using pandora to only find sexters and suicidal people,
find a way to make you see me the way I see you,
learn how to not be a heart breaker,
don't break my heart ever again,
don't let hormones drive me crazy
oh and

GET MY **** TOGETHER.

any pandora users? follow me at Asuna Yuuki
yes like asuna from sao... hmu if u kno who or what im talkin about