tears...
fears...
lies...
goodbyes...
no kiss...
no bliss...
lonely nights...
long fights...
love is done...
and my heart feels barren...
a dark veil comes over me...
where i can't see...
what will i do,
without you?

What have you done to me?

You have...

Flirted and teased

Swept me off my feet

Been on my mind
And in my songs

Made me fall in love with you

Then you just dropped me
Like a nasty tissue
When at once you treated my tender heart
Like a porcelain figure

Why?

If my life were a recipe
I feel like every ingredient would be followed
by the word "optional".

8 hours of sleep (optional)
Two to three meals a day (optional)
1 social life (optional)
1 job (optional)
A handful of friends (optional)
A pinch of creativity (optional)
One cup of laughter (optional)
Three heaped tablespoons of positivity (optional)

You get the idea.

But you're different.
You're the one ingredient I can't do without.
You're the one thing that matters
when I can't be bothered with the rest of it.
When all the chopping and sautéing and boiling
and grilling of everyday life
seems like too much hassle,
there's always enough time for you.
You're my quick-fix meal on a weekday evening.
You're a mid-morning snack
snatched between errands.
A quiet evening in on a Saturday
with a bottle of wine and Joni Mitchell playing
"I could drink a case of you".
I could cook you every night.
You're comfort food at its finest
unpretentious, convenient.
Never bland and never tiresome.
You're the one ingredient I'll always have in stock,
that one I'll never let myself run out of.
Because you cannot be substituted.
You, and only you, are not optional.

Without you
there'd be no reason to write this song
without you
I'm not quite sure where I'd belong
without you
I'm incomplete
but I know someday
we'll finally meet

[Chorus]
And I don't know
but I don't mind
we're just another story
lost in time
and I don't know
if I'm still fine
but when I'm with you
life's sublime

if I never see you
will you know just how it feels
and if I never hear you
will I know if you're even real

[Chorus]

But now you're not here
and I don't know why
so I'm kind of lonely
because its just me
not you and I

[Chorus]

But for now your there
and I'm still here
dreaming of times
when you were near
and now I don't know
but my minds still mine
knowing someday
we'll be just fine.

Why do I dream?
When nothing I dream ever happens?

We never met

I cannot fly

I am not there

And never will be

All these days I dream
Without known consciousness

And pray they come true
Do you not  hear my prayers, my Lord?

But they never do
And I always leave myself disappointed
Wishing for what Destiny **won't give me...

I thought you were the exception
To my curse of sour apples

It didn't take me long
To notice a difference
The lack of affection
The absences

The sacred crimson
Of which we were bound
Meant nothing to you

You loathing brute!
You thief!

You came in like a phantom
And out like a March wind

Did you ever think about me?
About my love for you?
All these things I think of
As I think back on you...

Salty, bitter tears
To end sweetness
With another hateful word
All because of you...

To have everything known
No secrets left
That's true freedom

To have no restraints
No bars blocking me from doing what I want to do
That's true freedom

To have a heart be known
No love to hide or secret admirers
That's true freedom