As a baby I was not wanted
To this day my mind's still haunted
How could you let me go
You should have been strong enough to say no
I want to know my real father
But you don't know so why should I bother
You tell me your sober and doing great
But my entire life my heart's been filled with hate
As a baby you were supposed to show me love
But you were never around when push came to shove
My brother and sisters hardly ever ate
Because you never put food on our plate
The things you did messed up my mind
I feel like I am always behind
You made me live my life with anger and rage
My whole life my heart's been locked in a cage
I can't be free and open
My whole life my heart's been broken
There are to many words left unspoken
But we will never truly talk because those wounds can't fully reopen
You may be my birth mother
But I was raised by another
I want to scream and cry out
But those emotions I have lived without
I want to tell you how I feel
The things I've heard can't be real
You should hear what people say
If it's true you need to pray
Your going to go straight to hell
Because you did not live your life well
I no longer want to be under your spell
And have my heart and mind locked in a cell
There's nothing more that I'd like to do
Then tell you I forgive you and have it be true
I know you live not far from me
But to see you I don't know what my reaction will be
One day we may meet you'll have to wait and see
Til that time I will continue trying to be the best me
I know these words will make you sad
That makes me feel really glad
I could go on for a while
Till these pages stack up in a pile
But I feel better now then at the start
I feel a little less hatered in my heart

Contemplating things beyond the earth
Like where we came from before birth
What happens to us when we die
Do we go up to that heaven in the sky
Who knows cause all religions lie
Its enough to make a grown man cry
Iss there heaven is there hell
Who on earth can really tell
So many religions in the Christian belief
My mind just can't find releif
Some religions with more then one god
To learn them you'll have to proud
Religious people have been persecuted and become slaves
Yet there beliefs they took with them to there graves
Which religion should I entertain
Some say religion is good for the brain

To say your happy that's a lie
I can see it in your eye
I've known you for 20 years
I know your hopes, dreams and fears
Together we have shed a few tears
And together drank many beers
I see your life is pretty rough
You quickly had to get real tough
You became a dad to two beautiful kids
You changed your WAY and yes there where some skids
But you stayed your path
And let anyone who didn't like it deal with your wrath
Brother I am so happy for you
You got amazing reasons to live your life and fight til your black and blue
No matter where I go
I want you to always know
I will be there in a flash
I'll drop all my **** and dash
Right to you because your my kin
When were together we will always win
Your kids are safe for there rest of there life
No one will give them strife
If they do I am here
I will show there enemy the meAning of true fear
I will stick by through it all
When you are big and you are small
Those moments when you feel tall
I will always been with y'all

I want to push you against the wall
Make you cower and feel small
My hand will softly caress your cheek
Til you start to feel real meek
My lips brush softly against your neck
Our feelings no longer will be kept in check
Touching you makes me ache
I feel you begin to quake
Are lips me and we kiss
We slowly start to feel real bliss
We help each other to undress
Then together are naked bodies press
I pick you up and carry you to the bed
In pillows so soft I lay your head
Up and down your body I kids
There is no spots that I'll miss
I feel you shake and begin to quiver
The feeling of ecstasy starts to flow like a river
I start to rub between your thighs
The pleasure shows in your eyes

Dad your are the best man I've ever know
And your kindness to the world is always shown
You have been with me through it all
When I was big and I was small
When I had habits that were bad
That made you mad and real sad
I want you to know I'm doing great
My heart is filled with less hate
You have helped me almost all my life
All I've done is cause you strife
I want you to know you are my hero
Without you I feel like a zero
You have shown me how to live
And to the people truly give
It's not possession that we own
But the kindness to people that is shown
There is no man greater then your are
Everyone else is subpar