beneath the weight. the waiting and the ever churning grief.
however changed in my human skin
still too human for a civil tongue, too unforgiven to go a day
without persecution.
cloaked in new love's grace, with an ardent heart
and yet unclean... i embark to scale the impossible wall.
and what burns me down
is what i love.
it holds no water in the riverbed
that leads to the Truth
of Me.
II
this weary soul crawls on hands and knees
until it stands and screams, " i have not done thee harm this very day ! "
splayed beneath the grim shadow of a mutilated intention
driven out and whipped like an unrepentant fool
to the slaughterhouse of your constant doubt
and haste to take offense.
there is no safety to love freely and at ease.
only the vigilance of a paranoid -
love-sick as a sick dog
choking on a crust of
dread.
never allowed to rise from the dust i have forsaken
for true love to love thee more.
never allowed the grace of a lapse in my perfection
for perfection is the prerequisite for true forgiveness
in a war with a wounded angel.
so I remain
too human for love.
too human
to not be condemned
constantly.
ever the man on his knees
praying to a spiteful thorn
in his side.
never worthy. never saved*.
Dedicated to a collision of souls, in a vacuum...