My heart has collapsed into a million pieces
And you've left a hole in my soul
And now you're gone
It feels like I cannot go on
I still have the pieces of you in me
I can't stop thinking about the night our eyes met
You kissed and hugged me, then you left
Left me standing there wet
I really thought we could have made beautiful love together
But you don't care, you don't give a ****
Everything to you is always whatever
Guess what? I still got the pieces of you in me
I don't know why I can't let go of what we had and just let it be
Every time I see you, it still feels like the first time I saw you
But I could tell by the look on your face that it's over, I was just some girl you knew
But every little day by day
The pieces of you in me
It's fading away and away

To lift up out of the darkness
Would take some strength and courage
None which I lack
But self-control I could gain a little more of
When vision becomes blurred, everyone around me becomes someone I have to defend myself from and I would attack anyone the second
they make me snap
Darkness surrounds me every day and everywhere
But I do care
About the outcome in regards to my negativity
So, in the back of my mind I keep but what a little bit of hope
And that little bit of hope
Helps me motivate myself to do better
But that hope only comes when my life is threatened from the darkness which clouds over me in consequence of my negativity
I will be no victim of darkness
For this will be my motivation to the light

She meets her at work, she thinks to herself this could work
Even though they have nothing in common
Besides they both are queer
And work here
And they both are lonely inside their lusting hearts
So they go for it
Three months together nothing could tear them apart

This is love and lusting of a lonely lesbian
She doesn't quite know what she's doing
Love and lusting of a lonely lesbian
She doesn't know what she's getting herself into

Six months together
They can't stand to be together
She gets another job in order to save the relationship
But it still is ****
Two more months go by
At night talking on the phone to each other they scream, yell, and cry
Another two months go by and that's it
They split

But now at her new job she's lusting all over again
And from the looks of it, this time she will not be getting any loving
This is love and lusting of a lonely lesbian
She thinks she'll never be in love again
Love and lusting of a lonely lesbian

The only thing she wants most in life is to be loved and to love
But it just seems so hard for her to find
She thinks to herself within time
Within time

This is love and lusting of a lonely lesbian
She doesn’t quite know what’s she’s doing
Love and lusting of a lonely lesbian
She thinks she’ll never be in love again
Love and lusting of a lonely lesbian

I hate awkward silence
So I laugh *******
Conversation has run dry
Anxiety gone awry
And I'm left wondering why
I'm so shy
Painfully shy
'Cause it's getting painful for me to hide
How I feel inside
I just wanna scream and cry
But I
Just laugh
I hate awkward silence
I hate awkward silence

Deep down inside there is this emptiness that's waiting to be filled with people who are interested in knowing I
Because I really am not so shy
If I feel you are open, compassionate, kind, and comfortable with to confide
We all got demons that we try and hide
But I dislike and sometimes cannot control being quiet and shy
But if I try to fight being quiet and shy I would say something stupid, turn red, and talk funny, like I got something caught in my throat because it's uncomfortable for me
'Cause I'm just not ready
I guess it takes a while for a clam to come out of its shell
Well, I hate awkward silence
I hate awkward silence
So I laugh *******
Then people look at me *******
But it's just my way of saying I'm friendly, you can talk to me
Aw ****, I hate awkward silence
I hate awkward silence

You're not my lover
You've could of never
Not even ever
Been her
You were
Just some repulsive girl to take her place
And I wish I could erase
These memories of what you and I had
No, that would be bad
'Cause then I wouldn't be able to grow from this horrible experience
And I must condense
All these bad experiences with these ****** up chicks
Into one
So I know that I am done
And I don't want none
Of these ****** up chicks
To ever come in contact or hit on me again
And I was wrong to begin
A relationship
With them
'Cause now I'm feeling like you suicidal ***** you don't have to **** yourself 'cause I'll do it for you

And just think I used to be the mellow type with a short temper but who couldn't hurt nobody
Who couldn't hurt nobody
But now I want to strangle every dumb ***** who ***** with my emotions
And now I'm learning not to feel
And not to open up

I used to be the mellow type
I used to be the mellow type
With a short temper
Who couldn't hurt nobody
Who couldn’t hurt nobody

Yeah, I used to be the mellow type
I used to be the mellow type
These chicks came along and disrupted my sight
And now I don't wanna be with anyone 'cause I feel it wouldn't go right

I used to be the smiley girl
I used to be the smiely girl
But they came along and altered my world
'Cause now I'm feeling like you suicidal ***** you don't have to **** yourself 'cause I'll do it for you
I used to be the mellow type with a short temper
But who couldn't hurt nobody

A crush is like a cold
You could always feel it coming on
There with you when you’re at your weakest, spreading like a virus, piercing your insides as it gets strong
I don’t know where I went wrong
But I keep singing this same **** song
Because this summer crush is like a cold, I can feel it coming on, nothing I can do to prevent it from getting strong


Just let go, every day of this summer
Let it go, let it go, don’t let anything beat you up inside

I’ll be there with you until the end of summer, ‘til the leaves start falling, ‘til they turn brown, ‘til they all start falling down
I’ll be your puppy, your savior, I’m open, you could see right through me

(How could this be)

We’re at a house party but yet it’s like dead silence when it’s just us two dancing so close
I like to think we got this party shut out
Because this summer is all about us and nothing is coming between you, me, and this beat
Our moves, closeness, and rhythm radiate through the crowd

The people start to move and we become a part of the move and I’m so close to you that I can feel your heartbeat to the sound of the room and in this moment we’re all in this together in here

This is the time to let our worries go and enjoy being alive
This night I want to spend forever with you
And I’ll dance until this sweat start pouring down my chest, until I don’t feel depressed, until I can’t take any more of this
And let the music transform us
And in this moment this life is just so perfect
For a wreck like me
(So many reasons to want to live, I need to let my sadness go)
For a wreck like me
(I’ve made so many humiliating mistakes)
For a wreck like me
(I need to let it all go)

I feel the crowd tighten up around us and the music becomes louder
I close my eyes and feel my heart beat faster and to my surprise you’re still by my side
(I need to let it all go)
The beat goes over and over again
(Letting it all go and dancing around in this room)

Now I’m letting this music take control of us
These lights go out got me grabbing you so close to me
Dancing around in the dark
Dancing around in the dark got me so close, depending on you
Never thought it would go down like this

For the first time in my life I finally see the light
I’ll be the one to make these people all see the right way to the light
I’ll be the person of greatness
To the light
I’ll be the one to make these people all see the right way to the light

For every day that I am empty I feel like killing myself
And I wonder when I am going to be fine again
Every day I am dealing with constant anger and fear
And I don't know how to make it end

Endless feelings of emptiness overcome me
Endless feelings of emptiness overcome me

Wasted youth, wasted years
Being sad, shedding so many tears
Wasted youth, wasted years
Spent with insecurities and fears

For I feel anxious, melancholy, and hollow
Oh, it's a wreck, I know
But it's not like I have given up and I'm still trying though
I have goals that I want to achieve
Something inside of me is still pushing, still believes
Insecurities holding me back
But my heart still stays pure
No one can take that away from me
It's inside of me
It's inside of me