A soldier called to the front lines
Fighting an uninvited battle
With another enemy
The war continues but a heart
Remembers the journey's way

After all has happened
When we see the evil that man can do
I'll still be patrolling these trenches
Searching for who I used to be

Barely holding to what sanity remains
The thought of you is my only constant
I imagine beyond this hell
Praying it won't last forever
And when they give me leave
I'll mortar all my broken stones
And lay them on the path
That leads me home to you.

I struggle daily
The cost clearly
Someone's else's tragedy in your eyes
There's no compassion in your guise
When it gets bad as it could ever get
You want to know when I'll get over it
A once broken victim-blamed
My heart's just marked, not maimed
The sound of disgust goes unspoken
Just know that I'm bent, not broken
My body was bruised
Another man's abuse
Although your disgust isn't fists
The stigma is still a direct hit
I'm strong enough
To know you aren't love
No longer helpless and I won't play
No matter what I won't stay
Looking back I've come too far
No longer wounded, I carry warrior's scars.

♥
              Kaleidoscope

Prism's from God's chandelier
Form in the atmosphere
Spectrums that float into view
Offering each and every hue
The center that makes you whole
Revealing the patterns of your soul
Permitting His light to shine through
The kaleidoscope of you
                 Dj

I'm a puppet in your theater
You pull my strings for pleasure
So I dance to your command
And twist with each demand
Sometimes I think it a jest to see
That I am you and you thus me
For after the curtain falls
While the crowd's applause
Is it clear, can they decipher
The puppet from the master?
                 Dj

If love is unseen
Unseen and thus never valued
Valued like a fault instead
Instead of the treasure
Treasured measured measured soul
Soul for a mate to wrap around arms
Arms that entangle even the heart
Heart that beats true for the other
Other dreams that matter
Matter to the universe
Universe where only love
Love builds trust
Trust begins within
Within the sanctity
Sanctity where forever holds
Holds tight to each
Each promise
Promise when we speak
Speak in  whisper
Whisper to a true heart.

A loving heart
Knows from the start
A cage can not hold
Or shackle the soul
Even when broken
Or left to abandon
A heart
Torn apart
Regardless of mistakes
Or whatever it takes
Must remain
Unchained
For there's nothing truly worse
Then a heart afraid to hurt.
Dj

There are people like you
That pretends to be true
One glance in their eyes is all it takes
To know they are a huge mistake
Even though they try to hide
You see the truth of their lies
The spiteful rage of their commands
Should you not meet just one demand
Using you until they're through
Oh yes, I've known people like you
Dj