One hundred and seven pennies under my tongue
From all the times you never cared for my thoughts
Swallowing them up
Left a metallic taste in my mouth
Bitter
Reminiscent of the blood I ****** off my dripping skin
From your words of indifference that cut deep
Into my soft poet’s heart, that aches to be set free
These rusty coins sit in my throat
Tastes sour

I wander for water to quench my thirst
Searching for the perfect words, a secret key
When an empty book calls to me
The lady at the counter says one hundred pennies, please
I feel my throat tighten, resisting release
This little book silently promises ease
This
Tastes sour
But fills the depth of my desire
To be known completely
An intangible hug warms my body
Wrapping my heart in a hazel aura
Guiding me Home

Now my trustee black book with a broken spine and pages filled
Calls to me from time to time
Frees the songbird from my ribcage
And ignites a fire in my mind
Squeezing creative juices from my right side brain
A golden energy trickles down my spine
And through my fingertips
Flowing like honey through my ball point pen
Onto a blank canvass
That begs
To know me better
To hear my words
It lets me purge
These thoughts with no resistance

The white space of a turned page
Offers a pillow for my tired eyes to close
And invites my imagination to wake up
And paint vivid colors with my words
I speak so fluently in this cursive tongue, now
It keeps me sane so I remain
With my soul between its pages

Tucked into an embrace of solace
These words float from my brain
And every thought becomes ingrained
In these pages,
That glisten with my copper-colored word *****
Each corner bathing in my tears and my fears and my freedom
Reflecting passion poured from a piercing hot artist’s kiln
Critiqued by no one

This is a poet’s chant
And one by one,
I spend my pennies
To be heard
On this medium of acceptance
As you too, Deserve

Take me home to your peaceful place
No friend or lover bestows it like I know you will
No day breaks and washes calm and ease
Like the day the sun sets and I become whole
My chest bursts open and out my light runs free
Let my embers blow in the wind toward the coastline
Guiding my soul into the bright light where
The sunset wraps me in its rays and holds me close
And on a cloud with white wispy feet I'll float above into the sky
To fill the spaces I belong
The nooks and crannies of the universe a little more full
Of my love. Of his love. Of her love. Of our being.
Symphonies will pulse through the black sky
As the stars dance and twinkle
In this universal bliss that runs through space, an intergalactic river pouring into an ocean of light
Infinite love
And I know
I am home
I am

i am an opal
a rainbow of clouded beauty
a statement of character
uniqueness
not to be tied in a knot
don’t call me princess
don’t cut me into your favorite shape
leave my edges rough
blow away the carbon dust
leave our fingers bare
you want me pure, crystal clear
honey, my dresses are all black
like these silk sheets i lay on
so come play
with my brilliance
or have karats for breakfast every day
and when you look at her
all you’ll see is me
shimmering in your dreams

The deep oceans in your eyes
Rise and fall up and down my body
Like the rippling tide growing stronger
With the pull of the moon

You Draw me into your orbit
You begin Circling me and I begin circling you
And after a while I can't tell the difference
As we start to blur In this space

Your breath invites me in
Enticing evergreen matching your eyes
My skin begins to melt
Into a warm pool that floats above
And surrounds us with a blanketing tug

A fire is ignited and begins to burn through my ribcage
Trickling down my back and circling my thighs
In blue blue light

traces of your bite form a wet path
Tracing the soft spot above my collarbone
Slowly creating friction In my atmosphere
You graze my lips and a shock sends vibrations down my spine

I dive into your glistening skin
Drinking the oozing passion from your fingertips
As they run along my slippery skin
And I interlace my body with yours

We begin to sway with each wave
Sinking below the surface of consciousness
Into a deep fluid dance

A pattern of Seduction and expression ****** with the thrashing tide
Reddish-Amber colored energy dances around our interwoven souls
As we Climb through levels of sweet bliss riding atop the white caps

I sink further into an abyss of ecstasy
As the rhythm of life ascends
Sending ripples of euphoria into each cell of my being
Rocking me into a trance

A beam of light bursts between us
I see stars as I'm starved of air
Paralyzed with rapture
Exhaling all my energy as I float into the sky

The heavens cradle us in their arms
We drink from the mouth of the gods a peaceful elixir white as poppy milk
And I float back into you once more
And find you gazing at me
With a cool blue smile
As we float on this slow tide

We're gonna make it through this, right?
we can put a stop to these endless nights
Of comparing selfish sides
Until we see the blazing light
Of the fire that burns in our throats
Oh wait that's the mourning light
Shining in through the window bright
Illuminating the stubborn golden gild we wrapped around ourselves tight
Tinted with twisted satisfaction and delight
Take a bite out of this sour apple
Let your teeth sink into it until you have my sight
Because we both screamed what we wanted
Until it didn't feel right
Until our lungs felt tight
And our hearts pulsated In our throats
The absence of each other
Left us raw with the insight
That Reminded us why we hold on so tight
At the end of it all
We just want to make things right

Time keeps ticking in my head
As I think of all the beasts
hidden beneath my bed

The tight space in my skull
makes me feel claustrophobic.
Out of breath,
to rethink every thought is aerobic

Wasting minutes as I reacquaint
with every regret  
Wishing I could breath and finally forget


But here I am,  listening
to that clock in my head
that keeps ticking

You just kept saying
you didn't know what else to do.
I'm not really listening.
I mean, you're a stranger.
Why should I care?
A stranger with the face
of someone I used to know
of someone I thought I knew.
Now all I see is you.
How can anyone know how it feels?

[Keep it like a secret, safe inside your chest.
A toast to what's been taken, and cheers to what is left.]

Gifts all around
freely given
and given freely...

now, even more aware
sense keenly

if you would hear-
Listen here,
"every gift is payed for."

Kissed by a dragonfly
On a moonlit summers night
There I was surrounded
By all he had to give
And more
A song to make my heart melt
With a meaning of its own
I felt the strain in my throat
As a tear fell from my eye
In that moment a shooting star
Leapt across the silent sky
I knew then all was fit just right
And now his voice soothes me
Like a kiss goodnight