your tongue down his throat stabbed my spine
and your fingers in his hair tore the veins in my wrist
you smell like his cologne and i want to stick ******* down my throat
when your hands intertwine like vines on a gravestone
remember me six feet under

How am I?
I feel sheltered by a rotting pine that is about to fall
I can hear it creak as I gaze at its the growing cracks
When it falls on my back, the misery of pain will end my screams
For now, I sit waiting for my world to collapse
The woods where I reside, has yet to see the sun shine
As the sky weeps endlessly, behind the front, there is a frozen sunset
I look in awe at this realm that is mine
A place that I do not want to be, shall be ripped away by the weight I carry that shall be a fallen  **tree

the most simple thing to do
is breathe

but some people
find breathing difficult

their heart beats are fine
but theyre suffocating

theyre suffocating inside themselves
calling out for someone to help

nobody comes to help
they dont listen at all

their breathing slows
same as their heart beat

heart beats are simple
just a signal that says

"Hey! You ARE alive!
Don't fret! Don't worry."

but some people find it hard
to make their heart beat

to make their heart beat
to breathe

its difficult for some people
anyone can have this issue

but, its simple
right?

take a look at people sometimes
acknowledge them

befriend them
care for them

help them breathe
help their heart beat

those people will love you
whether you know it or not.

some people just do not get it
do they?

they think they can see you clearly
when in reality, you are not a window

you're more of a piece of one-way glass
people think they can see through you
but from the other side
its completely opaque

they say
"Your smile makes others smile!"
when really you're thinking
"My smile is so forced."

its hard
seeing everyone all happy
when you're all sad
they just dont get it

so you laugh it out
you laugh when they do
you smile with them
you put on the best **** act you can

they dont know that youre breaking
they cant see it
its the one-way glass
they dont understand

you might open up to people
but they mainly just leave
some will stay
but its likely theyll leave

so you go to school
or work
or out in public
and you force it

you force your happiness
and your smiles
and everything
and you just laugh it out

laughing makes it seem like
youre perfectly fine
youre okay
but you arent

they just cant see through
the piece of one-way glass
they dont know
they wont know

as long as you laugh it out