I remember those nights.
Emptiness lit by a screen
Fingers tapping rapidly
For fear you might fall asleep.

I held my breathe noticing,
The hours growing older
The buzzing by it's side.

As the world began to slow
And the restless became still,
My mind was still firing.
What did I --? Am I-- was it?

A million questions, a million thoughts
Flooding me, knowing I couldn't swim.
I slipped under, I couldn't breathe.
It was dark and I was scared.



But you never fell asleep.

Me and my mom
I'm feeling nervous
A little bit shaky, little bit trembling
Eye to eye
In the longest stroll of my life

My excuses are my only weapon
Against the strongest wall of madness
My positive thoughts
They are my only shield in this war of heart and mind

Please stop hurting me
I whisper, trying to escape while wide awake
Trying thoughts real for reality sake
I cried

Somehow would you please assure me
That this night mare will be gone
Because I fear that  my positive feelings
Wo'nt even return to my heart.

You
Truly
Realise
Life
Is
Short
When
Times
Running
Out.

My heart was a mountain
So glorious and mighty
Towering above the clouds
Majestic and beautiful-
At least
That's what it used to be.
The wind and the water
Came along one day
Began to weather and wear it down
Slowly my heart was diminishing
As it eroded
And traveled elsewhere.
No longer majestic
No longer mighty
My heart is now only a hill.