I think my friends really ruined me...
Never wanting to hang out,
Never wanting to talk,
Never wanting to do 'what 21 year olds do',

I'm 21.
I stay home 95% of the time.
I hate school.
I hate being alone.
I hate the idea of growing up.

I'm 21.
I love one direction.
I love to be with my parents, too much.
I love staying home.
I love doing childish things.

I don't know what to do this point in my life.

I don't think you understand....
Exactly what you did to me.
Every hug,
Every kiss,
Every touch,
You hurt me so much.

I don't think you understand....
Having this 'just friends' thing.
No flirting,
No kissing,
No loving,

I don't think you understand....
What it feels like to be me.
She looks at you,
She feels you,
She loves you,
Just like I use to.

How could you do that to me?

You need to understand....
The pain I go through.
Everyday without you,
Everyday alone,
Everyday you slowly slip away,

I don't think you understand,
You need to understand.

I'm in love with the idea of love
you see,
I'm in love with the boy
in front of me,
I'm in love with his laugh,
I'm in love with his smell,
I'm in love with his mind
can't you tell?
I'm in love with you
you see,
I say as he stands
in front of me,
I'm in love with you,
do you love me too?

I just want you
to be happy
but sometimes
and selfishly
I want to be
your happiness

But
'happiness is a choice'
you say
and you didn't choose me

I clung onto the idea
since you made me happy
it would be the same for you

What is happiness now?
where has it gone to?
In time, society has robbed us
the real meaning of happiness

Go on your own way
and pursue your happiness
for your smile, is my smile
your laugh, is my laugh

and I'll be happy
when you find your happiness
because I love you
always have, always will