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I've tried so hard to escape reality
Music, running, sleeping
I fear the tears and anger night brings to me
I can't breathe, I can't turn it off
I'm trapped, I'm yelling, but no one is listening
I'm drowning, I'm alone, no one is there
It's pulling me deeper and deeper
I try to swim to the surface, but its got
ahold of me. Won't let go.
All armies are the same
Publicity is fame
Artillery makes the same old noise
Valor is an attribute of boys
Old soldiers all have tired eyes
All soldiers hear the same old lies
Dead bodies always have drawn flies
 Apr 2013 Dalton Burnett
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escape
 Apr 2013 Dalton Burnett
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right now, i really would like to just disappear
run far far away, to an abandoned village
or a deserted town or
a forest in the middle of nowhere

i want to get out, and see a place
where there are no maps
or directions, or ways to act
and people to be

to escape to a world, where i can be carefree
and let all of my worries abandon me
let go of my sadness in a flowing stream
and finally see what it means to be me

no way in which i must act and pretend
not a reason to be fake or something that
i simply cannot ever believe
no inhibitions or falseness

just a broken mind and a hollow heart
roaming in a place that they can finally
surrender and abandon a convincing façade
so convincing that they almost believe it themselves

finally finding oneself in their purest form
is something i can only ever dream of
because i am made up of so many things
and so many people it just seems impossible
I try to stop and wonder why
Am I numb now?
Tears start to fall
Never wanting to stop

Just a minute ago
I was laughing
Now I’m depressed
Suicidal thoughts arise

How can I've been happy?
Then so upset in a blink of an eye
I remember their faces
And I feel nothing for them

Everything’s a distant memory
My own nightmares taking over
I try to find something joyful
All I found was even more terror

How can I tell the people who love
That when night comes
I’m no longer myself
Just like Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde
I’m a monster that does not feel
Alone and cold, immune to everything
What happened to me?
I want it to stop

But whenever I try to stop
Someone else barges in
I don’t know who it is
But they’re taking over

I try to control myself
Hoping to win the battle in my head
Whether I win or lose
I’m no longer the same

I've changed but not for the better
All the things I've pushed away
Have resurfaced and formed
Now it has personified into my nightmares

Gladly, it only happens at night
But it talks to me during the day
I push back the negativity
Or else it’ll swallow me whole

Who knew it would be like this
I didn't, but that’s what I get
I can never be truly happy
I’ve accepted this much

I’ll face the world with my burdens
Give everyone a smile
I’ll lie my way to my death
Knowing that no one knows the monster inside.

— The End —