What was mine is no longer

Pour me a glass of wine

Did you love me?
You would gently caress your hand across my face
Not punch me over and over again begging for you to stop
Did you love me?
You would run your hands lovingly thru my hair
Not grab it with your fist and pull it and throw me done
Did you love me?
To wipe the tears from my eyes and tell me I'm here for you
Not to tell me to shut up cry baby and kick me
Did you love me?
You would look into my eyes and tell me how special I am to you
Not say harsh words and spit into my face
Did you love me?
I loved you
But not the monster I saw last night, you were someone else
Did you love me?

Sometimes I need my space to navigate,
and your here patiently waiting,
To see what I find.

Even MY scars, they burst
Sending my pain, throughout the earth.
We have a lot to learn.
Do you think i'm worth it?

Sometimes I feel
Like I don't belong in this world.
I try too hard, and
I care too little.

No one understands how I feel.
I feel like something in my life
Is missing, but
I just don't know what...

Am I living, or
Am I just alive?

I lie
About my life a lot,
So they don't know
The truth

All I do is hurt
Those who
Are around me

Am I living, or
Am I just alive?

In the darkness of my night
you held my hand with love
so soft, so tight, guiding my
soul towards the light and
healing my body with your
midnight kiss, dragging me
from the edge of an abyss
who's hunger reached out
to feed on the agony of my
love for you.
Is this a curse that has been ****** on me
to live forever and never be
free from the beauty of your
treachery.

Every time I look at him I see your face.
It turns my stomach just thinking of how much I miss you and why.
you treated me so badly.
Only God knows why I still have feelings for you.
I love you and I was waiting for that special day to hear you say I Do,
What happened to that?
We were supposed to run off into the sunset together.
I guess fairy tales don't exist.
What the hell was I thinking?
The thought of you being with someone else,
treating them better than you did disgusts me.
Why are they so different?

She feels it everyday.
It is all the same.
It will bring her down, she is the one to blame.

She will try everything to get away from it.
So here she goes again,
She is chasing you down again!
Why does she do this?

So many thought that she can not get out of her head.
She tried to live without him,
But when she did, she felt dead.
She knows what is best for her,
But she wants you instead!

Over and over, over and over.
She will fall for you.
Over and over, over and over.
She tries not to.

My Spirits' been hurt
So deeply by your actions.
It literally turned me off
Of all other attractions.

You were the one who
Broke down my wall,
Opened my heart to love
Not just to you, but to all.

On a pedestal
I held you up, you
Were what made me live
and never to give up.

What a fool I've become
To trust you to love me
How blind I was, how
Couldn't I see?

You were my world or
so it seems,
When my eyes are closed,
In my dreams.

Don't do this, you're scaring me

I was informed
You have...feelings?
And apparently i've...hurt them?
My bad

Silence builds an awful wreckage of a girl
It feeds on loneliness and creates a void
Gray shadows haunt and torment and torture
A teenager is stricken and destroyed

There is no sound of laughter or happiness here
The little one has thrown in the towel today
Somber, melancholy moods decay the soul
It is futile to hope and dream and pray

Emptiness builds a home in this woman
In this girl, this child where hollows have bred
A deepening sea of nowhereness consumes
And eats away at every connecting thread

Confusion feeds like a savage inside her,
Leaving nothing considered worthy remains
Destined to walk through life less ordinary
Alone, exiled, different and disdained.

I met my soulmate, he didn't.

That very first day that we met
It's a feeling I'll never forget.
All the experiences that we've shared,
I knew right away that you were rare.

You see, it's hard to find a someone like you,
Usually they're too good to be true.
Though I should've entered with more ration,
But with you I felt so much passion.

I wish those things had never happened.
It feels as though my love's been abandoned.
All I wanted was to make you happy,
So why is it that I have to feel so ******?

I want nothing more than for us to move on,
But it's so hard now that the trust is gone.
I want to get past this, I really do...
What can I do to make you be true?

My love for you is like an undying flame.
And I once wished for our love to remain.
Do you remember that day, the day that it snowed?
It's the day that I wished for our love to grow.

You hurt me that night, you need to know that you did.
And I need you to know that I can forgive.
But I'm really struggling with trying to forget,
Because I still feel the same as that first day we met.

I just saw my reflection blink

Feeling down, alone, and empty inside,
Decisions to make, but can't decide,
Hurt from pain of a broken heart,
Days go on as if they are dark,
Looking for happiness, the light to return,
My soul feels empty, deceptive, a burn.

I knew you were the one.

Tell me that you love me

Why did you have to lie?

My fears are unnatural, the opposite is actual.
I can't help but relate, what i'm feeling is factual.
This world it seems so political and oh so practical.
So i'll remain spiritual, levitating and defying gravity, is this a miracle?

Could it be insanity from our citizens understanding of history?
All we know is vanity, there's no mystery to humanity,
so where lies victory amidst this calamity?


I'd be ****** if it's not in deity, as I write this poem or while listening to the 9th symphony.
Understanding subliminal messages in paintings as more than creativity.

Original activism has always been artistic fashion.
Infinite wisdom passed through the subconscious with a passion.


Bullets and blades can't **** ideas that would last forever.
I pray to see the day when we overcome these differences together,
with peace or whether or not it takes the apocalypse to stop the Devil.
Till my body is deceased and a spirit in heaven.

This I perceive in our near presence, judgment day is ours to face,
But never to deceive from those that choose or have chose to read all from which I have wrote.

I sit alone in the dark.
My eyes have darkened,
To a color never before seen.

Demons
Screaming,
Scary thoughts
Bleeding wrist,
I am incomplete,
Torn

I'm Broken
This is now how I live

My hands are cold
My lips are purple
This is how i die

It was just them.
No me,
No you.

I knew from the beginning we'd be blown away.
Such as a speck of dust in the wind.

You see, now glitter paths lead the way
To a world of doom.
The dark path leads to a world
That is brand new.
I followed the glitter,
You did too.


We never made it.
It was just them.
No me,
No you.

He left and didn't come back.

I've got a secret!
As long as you'll keep it,
I'll tell you what it is.
You must not speak of it.
My dreams are vivid, so real, somehow.
If you can't handle it stop reading now...

I tip toe to your bedroom
Get under your sheets
:)oops,I  mean fall with you fast asleep.
Maybe tuck you in, sing you a lullaby so sweet.

No
That's just too easy...
Just a little more insane,
I can't help it
I go crazy with you on the brain.

I want to feel your lips on mine,
As you caress my skin.
Don't tease
Lay me down to your mercy.
I'll give in.

Tell me what you want, I will gladly  comply.
You're ecstasy
But shh...you didn't hear it from me

You always said you loved me
you always said you cared
That you would always be with me
that you would always be there

You told me that you are here for me
through all the pain I feel
You told me that you are with me
till your very last meal

But you were never there
through all those endless nights
You could never stop the crying
after all those fights

My heart tore
and you just walked away
my happiness went up in smoke
everything looked gray

now after all that's happened
all the lies you told
how could you lie again
how could you be so bold

You say it again
"you are here for me"
if I'm here for you back
sure I'll be there
and I'll care
you know that that's a fact

But will you be here
for me
till the very end?

don't lie again
you are not my friend
my heart you could never mend

I gave you trust
you told me lies
I gave you hope
I can see it in your eyes

Please don't lie
We both know
you could never be there
to wipe my tears
or vanish my fears
you could never care

It's time to choose

Everytime you stay,
The world starts making sense to me!
When you go away,
I wanna scream till you see...

I don't wanna wait for you
It's you I want,
So stop wasting my time
Oh, it's you I need,
So please make up your mind!
It's time to choose

I don't wanna
Say goodbye to you...

There will never come a day, that you'll ever hear me say.
I want, or need to be without you.
I'll give you my all
So just hold me, you'll simply control me
Your arms keep away the lonelies
I'll look into your eyes
Just to realize
All I need is you in my life
All I need is you in my life

I'm broke but I'm not broken
I'm blind but I still see
Yes my wounds are open
But you won't leave a scar in me

So just hold me, you'll simply control me
Your arms keep away the lonelies
I'll look into your eyes
Just to realize
All I need is you in my life
All I need is you in my life
I'm not broken

Scars, you know they burst
Sending the pain throughout the earth
You have alot to learn and
I know you're worth it!

I'm in love with you, and
all of the things that hurt and sing
when it comes to loving you.
Tell me you feel the same way, too.
Who needs friends when we're together.
I know you'll never leave me,
Because we're meant to be forever.

You have been lured into the cave of joy.
We sing,
We dance,

Once you're tired,
We take a rest.
I'll smash your face with The Killing Stone.

I'll remove the stone,
and lap up your blood.
I'll show them
How sweet revenge really is

I tear my heart open,
To sew myself shut.
My weakness is
That I give a ****!

Now, my scars remind me,
My past is real.
I'll tear my heart open,
Then I fail.

Baby, be mine
Before time runs out.

I love you more than words could ever say.
I feel it growing everyday.
all the love I feel
as never been so real
you gave me something, no one has ever given me
something one can simply not see
it makes me think of you
your love is so strong, and so true
this feeling that you gave to me
makes me want to be with you endlessly


to feel your warm embrace
it makes me feel safe from harm
I look into your eyes to look through your disguise
I feel your hands with mine,as our fingers entwine.


your eyes are full with unconditional love
your kisses so sweet and soft
it makes me crave a million more

I love how much you care
the way you show me is beyond compare ;)
I love the way you smile secretly
my eyes are kept on you all the while.
I love the way you apologize
because it makes me realize that what you did was unintentional

Even though I am strange
you don't ask me to change
you admit i'm right when we fight
I hate to see you mad, or sad
it makes me feel bad

what you feel, I feel
it makes me think our love is real.
I have never seen you cry
I always wonder why

I am sorry for the things I do
that makes you so blue
I am sorry for hurting you

My anger is hard to control
Please, don't feel so insecure
This I am sure
no one will ever replace you
because I not only love your face
I love the real you, not the one that follows the others

It was over from the start.
This results in a broken heart.
I thought you knew me, but you don't!
I thought you'd love me, but you won'!
Now you'll find out who I am.

I kept my mouth shut for to long.
All this time, you got me wrong.
We've been going way too far.
I won't let you break my heart.
Tear everything we had apart.

Now, you're feeling lost.
Lost in the walls.
For no reason, your gone.
I no longer care about you!

What have you done?
You are so dumb!
Do you like who you've become?

Time stops
And stands still
Each day
Seems like a year
I'm lost
And can't be found
In this darkness
I lay dying
Cold
Empty
And alone
It holds me down
And won't let go
There is no escaping
it consumes me
until there's nothing left
I may look fine
But on the inside I'm full of death

You told me that they were wrong,
So I stood up for you!
I believed you were the one

You had all the chances in the world
To tell me the truth
What the hell is wrong with you?

Are you even listening when I talk to you?
Do you even care what I am going through?
Your eyes stare but they are staring right through me .
You are right there but it's like you never knew me.

Do you even know how much it hurt,
That you gave up on me to be with her?
Revenge is sweeter than you ever were

I'm so mad at you right now
I can't even find the words to express it.
You are on the way down,
I can't wait to see you burn!
You try to make me hate that girl,
When I should be hating you!
What the hell is wrong with you?

What does forever mean to you?
When you couldn't even keep it true
You said were you'd forever be there
But were those just words pulled from thin air?
Did you actually love me?
Did you really see the feelings I see?
The truth, the love, the loyal tears
The betrayal, hate, and the fear
I thought you felt the same
That you would cover me in the rain
I thought forever and always was forever
But now there's not an us…never
You said you'd always be there for me
But now I truly see
That you never saw the feelings in my soul
Now you've pierced my heart with a hole
But my heart has healed
Now I have friends that are real
And you're gone out of my life
Unable to pierce me with the heartbreaking knives
I thought forever was forever not just a word
But I guess that's not what I heard…

He doesn't know
What he wants to say.
She doesn't know
What she wants to do.

She doesn't really wanna be with you.
Tell her what you wanna to do.
She wants him not you,
But doesn't know how to break the news.

Baby it's over!
NO!
That just wont do.

She needs help, please help her.
Say what you need to say.
She doesn't know whether
To leave or to stay.

A single tear glides down my cheek.
It's warning me that I am bout to weep.
We used to dance, just me and him.
I felt, like I said something to win.
Then he fell, and he took me down too.
I turned around and let out a cry.
You lied, I thought you were all mine.

A single tear, slides down my cheek.
I swallow it
I do not weep.
I will be strong
Life will go on
*Tears

My name is the Fire of the Sea.
Burning and cooling in that order.
You'll hide your fears deep inside a grave.
I'll dig deep and ****** you up.


I'll laugh as you burn,
and cry as you cool.
Yes, my actions are oh so cruel

People live to die and die to live
Why don't you go do that.
I surely won't miss you.