nights don't matter. when you're all alone. feels like you're stranded, on an island with no food. the water glistens as the waves crash. you think you hear your name but that's just the man in purple whispering.

you're stranded so he wants your soul. to eat it and drown you in a fire. you're stranded so you cry and sleep alone, and he laughs and licks your tears of blood and black.

he grabs you and rips you to shreds. but you're out in the sea and all you do is scream. you put the pillow on your face so all you see is black. no more purple is what you desire, then all you get is white.

you ask yourself "did i make it out alive?" but the answer is, no. you're dead. then you plummet. what felt like hope disintegrated into rubble... and now... the one blue that became purple, the black you yearned for that formed to white, the red that bled into your mind. it's all...

to my future admirer,

you can never call me:
sunshine
beba or
princess and definitely not boo bear.

and when we go out
you always need to walk to the left of me
because of etiquette.

don’t tell me you love the way i look in purple..

and also another thing..

every time i kiss you
it’ll always be him on my mind..

i fell for someone who couldn’t commit.

and then he felt like talking to her
made him see
through the dull and somewhat cloudy
transparency of the plastic prism
within himself
and he saw so much more light.

only realizing he was reaching
just too

close
to the sun.

Eventually
he came across a potential alternate source
of light.
Only to see himself falling for the same thing over again.
Into a deeper pit of darkness still in search for light once again.
He then knew after some time
that he would settle for black

he became desensitized to the pain.

you were so special to him
he attempted to treat you for lunch,
he took you on a date through the cemetery.
the place for you to be acquainted with his demons.
he thought you would understand that that’s just how he was.
he’s sure you weren’t uncomfortable.
you said you like-liked him

he put you up on a grey stone
but you didn’t kiss him..



why..