"Do you wonder who you are anymore? Well I can say that Im a sad, depressed, lonely girl that cant realize how many mistakes has changed her. Making the future scarce and holding back while time pass by. Now living for the unknown... that harder question remains. Who are you? I am ME or was i becoming you all along!?.. My fate set as i see more of my mom. Why every reflection im lost finding me and just seeing this woman i tried to hide from most of my life... So who am I? I am my mothers child, her image, her actions now mine. I AM HER."

Starting as a young adult, your playing this game called life, as the pieces are in place, the rules are set, simple steps, just blindsided with challenges and regret, so hard to follow, going by how you land, moving forward seems like a hollow bet, take one step forward then ten steps back, you felt like you didnt prepare for whats coming next, now your back at the beginning, chasing that dream of winning the end, a bittersweet feeling trying to get closer again, intended for lessons to be learned, but ending up so soulless, cold by touch, this game showed your true colors, making another side of you stronger within, life was created for no winners, just sinners, pinned to your passed decision, as we try to do anything to survive….

***** you snitched  
Now your in a ditch  
With fishes in your stitches
When you could've swimmed in riches
Hitching a hint
Your sleeping in itches

Boy get out my face
You fcking lame
Talking sht but eatting it
Being dumb but actin tuff
Knownin you a super ***


Go home you mamas boy
You cant even handle being alone
Get your **** together boy you
lookin real dumb
A job at 8.25 will never guide you wrong
But your playing a role you will never fill
Cause a drug dealing stealing **** aint the way to live


Keep that act up boy youll learn the way
Your image grows to show how
fake you are made
Dont look at me I might catch a case
Your dumb disease might get me chased


You steppin to a real one
You better play your cards right
If you actin shady you better
get your mind right
Cause **** with me ill be that b
Becoming your worst enemy
All your dreams will be of me
Ill destroy you mentally


So keep on laughin
Keep on Actin like your better then me
Your soul wont see me come in and take everything
I won this race cant chase
what you could have embraced


As your world burns
ill be at your burial
Being the last one youll see
The creator of this place you now call home....

What if i told you that our lives were a lie?
A image created to fool our eyes?
Racist bigots undermining enthinicty,
Materialistick money hungry criminals,
Follow the leader dummys to have more pride,
A taste of a life as we convice ourself that it wasnt a lie but a way to hide inside.

As we live with our way of life, our selfish acts, and unbalanced time,
Destroying us wont be a problem as we already started to destroy one another.

Crooked cops,
Innocent citizens,
Innocent cops,
Crooked citizens,
No one ever winning in the end of this fight as it goes on.

Now more blood falls, heavier tears shed,
Not yet we learned how to deal with that pain,
Not yet we have faced our greif head on,

We mask it to go blind to a unbearable feeling,
When we learn to keep feeding this demon we have told ourselves *'is not real'.

Satans playground now is all around us.
To make a army strong enough to end this war against God.
A never ending battle between good and evil.
No surrendering, no white flags, no mercy for our souls.
Working against each other making everything worst.
  
So give pitty to our world as its holding on for dear life.
As our lies of our lives lie the way to make this world die,

As the great shadow comes from the deepest part of your brain, memories fade, darkness prevails, not yet once known why, your mind a mess, just overlooked as drugs and alcohol is consumed, forgetting everything, loving nothing but hate is all you know, crazy thinking, insane behavior, now you've proved to them all, a black hearted, cold shoulder, selfish kind of person, so mean, full of mystery as they wonder, how a person so hollow inside, created a world so spontaneous, not one has dared to try, those negative thoughts, cloudy view, as depression is your core, no looking back, keep moving forward, leaving everything behind, your careless ways showed you the way, a better day from yesterday. your strong, your smart, alive but dead, taking that step to be normal again, keep them wondering, guessing, as they play their role by watching you take hold of your shadow, the darkness within, that hidden part of depression, your control now less grim.

You are beautiful inside and out, yet smart to making a change in life when needed and strong for living another day surrounded by negativity. You are a very special kind of person so keep your smile bright and your time vauled because youll never know when its time to go to your desitny..

#staystrong #godbless #imout