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champain Sep 2013
shifty eyes watch me
and your smile is the disguise
that hides your true intentions that lie
deep in those deceitful eyes

you notice the scars
and your concern makes my heart rise
but again i am reminded
that the past is clouded with lies

your hand intertwined in mine
and i gladly settled
into your arms
as you skipped pebbles

"let's just be friends" i said at the skating rink
and you cheerfully agreed
but when i skated past you
the deceitful eyes made an appearance (the hatred burst from this seed)

hours to days and days to a month
we crossed paths again on the train
i cautiously took a seat next to you and your friends
and you proudly planted a kiss on my left side brain

days later you return to your icy self
and i ask myself again
if i'm ready to take the plunge with you
as my shaking thumb pressed send

"he only wants to take you" my friend says
"please be careful" implies another
"i don't think you should" his friend whispers
"stay away from him" says my mother

but the mystery that is you
keeps me coming back
but you will never love me
and that is a fact.
young love eats at the edges of my heart and leaves me incomplete
1.2k · Feb 2014
chanel no. 5
champain Feb 2014
hope your new girl
does your laundry and
finds that all your
clothes still smell like
me
"I hope she smells my perfume"
835 · Jan 2014
fury
champain Jan 2014
sometimes
there aren't any pretty poetic thoughts  
no dressed up, meaningless words
to describe it

(the only way
i want to see you
is in a body bag
floating down the hudson river)  

sometimes
there is  
no
*salvation
748 · Nov 2014
phone calls after dark
champain Nov 2014
person 1:*  *pick up pick up pick up
person 2:  "who is this?"
person 1:  don't pretend you don't know who this is
person 2:  "i'm sorry?"
person 1:  but that's the thing, you're NOT sorry"
person 2:  "jesus jasmine are you drunk right now?"
person 1:   *no
yes
*******
this call is a mistake
no it's not don't hang up please
i saw your new girl
i'm just saying you could do better
do you ever think about me
when you're beside her
inside her
cause i just drank a full bottle of whiskey
and i forgot my name
but not yours
never yours
okay
i'm hanging up
i still love you
i never stopped
i love you
so, so much
you ******



beep
**dial tone.
479 · Sep 2013
invaded
champain Sep 2013
pain like i've never endured

loneliness like i've never faced

hurt like i've never imagined

rage like i've never had

depression like i've never believed

the things you say shock and repulse me

(and intrigue me and lure me in)

i keep repeating I won't do any of the sort

(but if the situation arose i would be more than ready for you)

my mind is plagued and haunted by thoughts of you

(and i feel you slowly devouring me inside and out)
436 · Jan 2014
butterfly effect
champain Jan 2014
the moment i heard
her tiny voice
the moment i saw
her wonderfully messy nest of hair
the moment i knew
she was here to stay this time
all of it began to snowball inside me
until a storm broke out
and i fell in love with her
                                                      all
                                       over
                  *again
382 · Sep 2013
mutual
champain Sep 2013
i'm
so
angry
at
you
(but
honestly
if
i
were
you
i
would've
done
the
same)
frustration leads to anger but as time passes, rationality returns
379 · Jan 2014
quiet talk
champain Jan 2014
how can you
speak up
(have a say)
when you didn't even
have a voice
to begin with?
champain Jan 2014
they told me
"write what you know"
but
I
know
nothing
Maybe that's why my writing isn't as good as it should be.

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