That poem you wrote about me,
is my favorite of your works.
How could it not be?
That's the most wonderful thing
anyone's ever done for me.
To care enough to be inspired, by me.
To care at all.
But when you asked me,
I lied && said I liked another one better.
I didn't want you to think I was being arrogant.      
I care what you think.
When you told me that your favorite
movie trilogy was The Lord of the Rings,
I told you that I'd never seen any of the films.
What you don't know,
is that later that day
I went out && rented all three films.
I stayed up that entire night
watching them straight through.
I thought it would help me
to understand you better.
I thought it would make me feel closer to you.
I'm not sure if it did that,
but I enjoyed the films nonetheless.
I've always had a problem
conveying my emotions to people.
I convey all sorts of emotions,
just never the right ones at the right times.
Somehow it always felt like I'd be too vulnerable, showing people how I really feel.
For as long as I can remember,
I've always acted the exact opposite
of how I really felt. It felt safer.
I guess I always thought that if I showed another emotion, other than how I really felt, when I was ostracized, criticized, put down, for such displays of emotion, I wouldn't be affected by it.
After all, that wasn't the real me anyway.
Boy, was I wrong.
I now have enemies who love me,
because I've only ever shown them
kindness, so they wouldn't know
how I really felt about them.
I then have people that I would go
to the ends of the earth for, that believe
I hold a strong disdain for them.
I'm not quite sure how to fix this conundrum I'm in, but you really make me want to figure it out.

You once said that in your lifetime
you wanted to witness unrequited love..

With a smile as bright as the sun that warms my heart
You chase away the darkness that clouds my life.
With skin that rivals the marvels of the universe time itself stands still and take notice.
With the moon for your crown and the earth for your throne you give a whole new meaning to the title Ms. Universe.

Written by Keith Edward Baucum

I am having bigger dreams during the nights
That I sleep in my bed
And I feel great about them
Because all my big dreams are different from one another
And by the next day i am still able to share them with people
But at the same time I feel that my mission was accomplished

His eyes are beautiful,
His eyes were watching you;

His eyes are open and round,
when you see them they'll turn your frown upside down;

His eyes are filled with beauty and pain,
With no hopes of dreadful gain;

His eyes were filled with happiness now that has all been concurred by misery and agony,
To think that all that was present before was a big phony;

Those eyes that once made you feel safe are now the eyes that make you feel incomplete and to what purpose do you owe this defeat,
Times like this you try to fix but it's as if the pain is a record and once a smile come the pain will come  back around as if it's stuck on repeat.

Carina j