Oh, my darling lover,
My thoughts are always stitched with your image
You live in the quiet corners of my mind
I can’t seem to think without thinking of you

I find myself wanting all your time—
To see you in every form, every being, every unguarded glance—
And for you to see me from every angle,
To study one another like a language only we speak.

I crave your touch like a favorite song I never tire of
I picture myself wrapped up in your arms, never straying from their comfort.
The way my hands slip so naturally into yours—
How you trace their lines without even thinking,
Pressing kisses into them like they’re precious—

You make me feel treasured, wanted, and marveled
When your fingers slide through my hair,
I swear I can smell your love in the air.

I remember kissing you in your car—how you held me,
How you guided me with care and hunger both,
How I trusted you so quickly,
How you touched me like I was something sacred.
And still, I find myself constantly craving that feeling.

You made me feel desired in ways I didn’t know I could be.
Even the fierceness of your touch—the way you held my neck,
the way your palm met my cheek, the way you touched me with love
I felt it. I believed you. I believe you.
And I wanted it. I want you.

Darling, I want to be close to you in ways no one else could ever reach.
Thinking of you sends shivers through my body
You are something wild and consuming; who knows what you want
I wonder how you’ll handle me
As you shape me to your needs and I shape you to mine

Did you forget
that I'm human too
that your words can hurt
that we're not perfect
that there's nothing perfect here
that we're just repeating the past
that we didn't change anything
that I'm still hurting
that your words can be cruel
that you don't understand
that I don't trust easily
that I'm more willing to give up then hold on

Did you forget
that you can mess up too?
It seems to me
that you've forgotten
that I'm more than just a problem
I'm a person
and you forget
to treat me like one
so don't be surprised
that I want to leave
when you forget
how to love me

The sound of trains never stopped
I still hear the sound
like the first day you left me there
on the cursed platform
any chance at escape always
rushing past me
your words written on the walls
like some dying childhood
you wanted to have some legacy for

The sound of screaming never stopped
I can still hear it
ringing in my ears
from the beginning
to when it all ended
the explosion and burns
the terror what once had been joy
when it all went wrong
too far and too late
to be saved
there was no turning back

The sound never stopped
I still hear it
in my dreams
in the quiet moments
whenever I think that it might
stop hurting
because you don't remember
but I do
and the sound
never stopped

-Wilbur

It takes two to tango
but that's when we broke
in the quiet I sat alone
missing what we had
before it all fell apart

It's in the quiet
vulnerable moments
that we lost what he had
starting to wish
I had never spoke
what I really thought

I said yes
because I never knew
how to say no
and that's when
you took it all
and I couldn't
let go

Time was what we needed
but never really had
a frantic dance
of passion and desire
and in it you took everything
and it was no surprise
when it all fell apart

We moved too quickly
fell apart
even faster
sometimes I wish
I could cling to what we still had
but it takes two
and that's why we broke

They say the past is
simply in the past

That it's dead
and it stays there

But does it?
Does it stay there?

Our past never stays
locked away there

It lives on in the scars
on our skin and our lands

There's nothing about
it that chooses to remain

The past always
comes with us

It guides our hands
and tugs us along

We can't outgrow
what we used to know

And we won't forget
what we used to hold

There's no killing
what can't die

So learn to hold
the ghosts close

Before they learn
to drown you out