if i climb back to my mothers womb
will it fix all the pieces i broke into?

there is no thing like total depravity -
just a change
in how we feel gravity

there is nothing to prove
and nothing to **** for

do not do
what doesn't breathe life to you
i know that it hurts
to turn from bleeding

love isn't so much a force

love is the pain
the apathy
the hurt
and the weariness

that is healed when something comes around
to meet you where you are

if you are to fear
do not let it be that you are not enough
do not let it be that you are not loved
do not let it be that the fear will never stop

let it be that you are loved
and have loved
too much
let it be that your fear teaches you lessons that you learn
let it be that your fear will one day lessen the hold on your chest
let it be feared that
fear can not conquer you

we are loved
and forgiven
take care
go and come
in peace.

it will not be truly solved,
not now.
it is liberation.

they are loved,
so why not you,
Child of God?

we eat bread
we drink coffee
a hundred thousand times

read three hundred books
write two hundred less
we look at the tree outside our bedroom window
a hundred thousand times

a hundred thousand times
i will run
i will go back
i will run
i will go back
a hundred thousand times

eating bread and drinking coffee
one last time

read one last book
write until there is nothing left to say

a hundred thousand times

no matter the day
no matter the time
i will always shake.

in fear i will tremble as a willow tree
in strength i will roar as an earthquake

as an addict i will shake in withdraw
as a friend i will shake with laughter

in silence i will shake
in din i will shake
i will shake in darkness
i will shake in the light

i will shake near and far

in shaking i will move

i will never settle

i am chocolate
bitter
dark
produced of bad labor

you are coffee
bitter
dark
i melt in your hand

so;
love me
be my compliment
but do not hold me long