Lois - Hello Poetry

Jan 2015

Christi Michaels MoonFlower

~Christi Michaels~January 2015~

Exquisite
Rays of Illumination
Beams of Beauty
Transparent
Bright

Sunset Hues Veil
Presence
Infinite
Gateway to The Divine

Takes My Breath away
Mesmerized by the Sight
The Sky opens
offering radiant
Hands of Light

Copyright © 2014 Christi Michaels.
All Rights Reserved.

When I was a little girl and the Rays of Light would spill down from the sky peeking through the clouds..we would call it "Jesus Light", just like in the paintings!
{Yes...I was raised Catholic}
now am Spiritual..One with The Light

#light #sunset #celestial #divine #heavenly #rays

Lois Jan 2015

the problem with poems

You know what is the problem with poems?
E v e r y t h i n g
Reading one or two or three
It is the worse.
It feels like you are obligated to think about someone
and when you did,
It will always be like that.
It makes me sick to my stomach
especially when the bird already took its departure
and
every time is going to be a constant struggle
because you will forced to think about him or her.
and it would ****. ***.
honestly It would **** so much.
**because you know you will always love poems and having to read them every time will get tiring because all you'll ever think about is their eyes in the words and their hearts in the blank spaces.

#poems

Lois Jan 2015

This will probably be the last time i'll write about you

I don't know how to start because words can't express how you have made me feel these past few years. You were everything that I wanted and didn't want at the same time. You bruised me in the worst way possible and there were days when I felt like I was dying. You've made me feel so good just by glancing at me. I know you are never gonna look at me. Probably glance but definitely not look. I liked you way too much that I considered it as love. I was so stupid. It was reckless. What we had was reckless, you were reckless. I hate you. ******* I hate you. You and your pretty face and stupid personality. Your laugh, **** it's making me feel like i'm everything and nothing at the same time. You were my sun and everyday felt like I was sun burning. We promised each other a lot of things and it hurts because all of those were already broken, if not, they will be broken eventually. I compared everyone to you because I thought you were so good for me. I didn't even know that it was destroying me already. How freaking unrealistic of me. I wanted a guy that will make me the happiest girl in the word. You kinda did the opposite and that left me confused. I liked bright eyes but yours were the opposite. It ***** because everything felt so fake and superficial to me. I remember dropping everything when you asked for my help. Last time I check which was a millisecond ago that I will always be here for you even when you won't need me anymore and I was right. No matter how much you push me away, I'll always care, but now, it's getting a bit tiring to the point where in I'm finding you boring, forgetting how I found you fascinating in the first place. Now I'm happy and I couldn't ask for more. *well that ended well

him

#him

Lois Jan 2015

Arrival and Departure

You meet this person without knowing that a part of them is growing in you; sad songs, horror movies, love poems, deep words, crazy thoughts all of these would remind you of them
at first you won't mind but the second that they are gone, you would realize how much you created your own grave.
It will be an endless process of you trying to move on.
But sadly you won't ever.
It will always be there, you won't forget it no matter how much you try to.
You just need to learn how to accept that people come and go.
They could mean the rest of the world to you and you would think of how much you regret meeting them but eventually you will realize that they were great parts of your life that you have learned lessons from.
Their departure will soon mean nothing to you and you will meet new people in your life and finally it wont mind you. You will just be living life to the fullest.

Lois Dec 2014

I deserve the world

I've spent my entire life trying to prove to others that I am capable of doing great things. I have always thought that to live, you need assurance, acceptance, & belonging. What I didn't realize is that you are your own person no matter what happens. At the end of the day, you are you. You have the capability to do so many things that you didn't even thought was possible. For god's sake, stop pretending. If you are sad, then be sad. scream your anger. If you are happy then show it, smile so big that you would look weird. Don't hold it in. Be freaking transparent that it sickens you. You have every right to do things on your own, But always remember that everything has its limits. Know that everyone is fighting their own battles, no matter how cliche that sounds, It is **** true. Change for the better. Do things for yourself the most. Be happy. Decide every day that you are strong and you can conquer the world. Take responsible risks, set goals, have higher standards, know how to be contented, & the most important thing? love your freaking self that it bores you. Remember, You deserve the world. Baby, I deserve the world.

2015 baby

#2015

Dec 2014

yasmine

(not mine)

“I keep telling myself maybe we were too young, like meeting at 15 years old wasn’t old enough for you to keep me around. I guess we both had a lot of living left to do like new people to meet, other people to ‘love’ and new places to see. But as the days turn into months and months will eventually turn into years do you go looking for me in others, do you do things that we used to do, just so i cross your mind on purpose? When you are 18 and realize you can make your own decisions, without your high school friends that you don’t see anymore or when your parents finally get off your back, will you look me up on some social media site and realize I look different like my hair is shorter and I dyed it blonde, will you look at my smile and realize I don’t smile the way I used to smile when we were young and in love, will you notice little changes that only you and I would notice? Do you ever think of your future and hope somehow someday we will meet again, the same way we met that first time when we were both 15 and never felt love like this before… I know for sure that days turned into months and even when they turn into years my love for you will never die, until I do. But even when I’m six feet under your voice will still remain in my ears and your touch is all my skin will feel and your face is all my eyes will see, but at least I won’t be able to feel the aching pain in my heart every time I hear your name or when someone asks me about my first love.”

I've always thought this and here it ******* is put into words. Hit me hard.