I do

"And I feel like I'm losing my mind
Banging my head up against the wall
Staring at nothing 'cause I can't sleep at night
Can't make it stop, yeah I think too much
What do I do? Falling apart
I need a shock straight to my heart
No one would want to be in my shoes right now, oh"

the tears run freely
my sweat makes me feel hot and stuffed into my clothing
uncomfortable in my skin
the pain isn't helping
the smell of burnt skin and hair
baby nobody even wants me

All of my Facebook "friends"
are asleep
I honestly have nobody I can talk to
Will someone please talk to me

Words
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everyone feels sad
angry
pathetic
used
abused
confused
reused
everyone uses
abuses
drinks
delays
betrays
I haven't been through the worst of it yet
I need to toughen up
This is just passing a kidney stone
From taking everything with two grains of salt
and it will get better down the road
sweet heart sweet beloved child hunny bae
cliche
I'll cut and burn you out of my brain anyway

i'll bleed from the same old wounds all the same
it was for you that i retrace old scars
it was for you
i feigned maturity
it was
you
who caused me to scream into my pillow and take all my pills
and pass out for 22 hours
and dream of you
you

everybody wants to be right absolutely
but I, I am always wrong
and always right
so are you.
liberating, isn't it?
now all that's left is for us to understand each other.