It feels like your being drug under the water
So deep
Then the pressure starts getting to you
Until it feels like youre gonna explode
Then they start ripping and tearing
Until your blood is everywhere
Then they let you float to the top
Just to do it all again

They told me i was wrong
They told me i need to shut up
But at the end of it all
I knew
That i was right
And they just couldnt handle the fact i put up a fight
And every word that feel from my mouth
Was truth
And they didnt like that

When I wouldn’t let you kiss me in public because I was uncomfortable.
2. When I said no because I wasn't ready.
3. When I got worried because you would never text back.
4. When I was sad.
5. When I was sad.
6. When I was sad.
7. When my happiness was an inconvenience for you.
8. When I was too clingy.
9. When I wasn't clingy enough.
10. When I stopped loving you.

Purple shirts.
Purple markers.
Purple jewelry.
It’s your favorite color.
I packed all my purple things away in a box.
I hate the color purple; it reminds me of you.
I later came to realize; I should not hate a color.
Purple has done nothing to me.
I started wearing the color purple again.
It reminds me of the good times.
It reminds me of how much I truly miss you every day.

I hugged you for the first time in 3 months.
You smelled good.
You smelled of sweat pea and vanilla.
The blue shirt you had on tonight, it smelled like your cookies and it smelled like dad.
I wish I could have kept hugging you.
I love you.