The little bit of self worth I had you stripped it away
Little by little until I had nothing left






thats why I dont know who I am anymore

Dear Mommy ,

I'm with a sweet guy now mama
he buys me things
takes me out to eat and makes me laugh

but sometimes he yells at me then says sorry
he's verbally abusive but he says he loves me
sometimes he makes fun of my insecurities but then says he's joking

but I love him mama
I don't know what to do

I learned this all from you mama

remember when you use to mentally abuse me then buy me things
remember when you use to make fun of me and said you were just kidding
remember when you use to hit me then said you loved me

I dont know what love is mama
all I know is what you taught me

I give him chances because even though he hurts me
he still loves me
just like you mama you hurt me but I know you love me

right?

Please don't stop telling me you love me

thats the only thing that keeps me sane
thats the only thing that keeps me moving
thats my oxygen, I need to breathe

those are the words that keep me hoping...

I can't stand taking tests or exams
All of a sudden when I start
My mind becomes blank
I start to over think
I stay on one question for to long
and when I get the results that I didnt want to or if its so close to passing
I break down
I get so mad
because it will be the easiest question ever
and I still fail  
This is why I don't like tests or exams
It makes me feel stupid and question my intelligence

The girl so full of hope
she wanted to save the world
to brighten it each day

The world was far too heavy
now she's full of pain

She suffers more each day
in this world of dismay
but she is unaware
of just how perfect she truly is

She's ready to give in
to the pain that's deep within
I guess I feel the same

She thinks that she's alone
that no one else could know
but the agony she holds
grabs me just the same

I know her feelings
I know her pain
people say the monsters hide beneath the bed
but mine, mine crawl inside my head

And every now and then
I see her teary eyes
I guess I'm not the guy to walk away
I guess I'm not the guy to give up
cause one day the world will see
the beauty that she holds

Broken and drowning, I guess I know her pain
but I can't let her give up
I can't let her give in
so I'll never walk away.

Our relationship was a beautiful corruption

Its so funny how you can be there for someone that is treating you like ****
But you can't be there for someone who was always there for you
You could be there for him when he needed you the most
But you can't be there for me when I did?
That honestly shows me a lot
That shows me your true colors