I wish you'd just apologize.
Sincerely this time.
I wish you'd truly feel sorry for what you did,
and want to make things right.
I don't want to be your friend,
or your acquaintance,
but I'm sick of carrying this feeling around.
This fear.
Because I know if I see you,
you'll be bitter.
And I don't want to be angry.
I don't want any negativity.
I was young and stupid,
and you took advantage of that.
How could you not feel remorse,
for doing the things you did to me?
I want to walk past you,
and feel like I truly have nothing to say.
Like we can be strangers,
not enemies.
I was listening to a song, and it made me think of how badly I was treated by someone in the past who I once cared for. This someone apologized several times for what he did, but all of them were false apologies to get me back. It's been at least 3 years and I've never gotten a true apology from him. I don't think he even knows how to honestly apologize or feel remorseful. I don't care for him anymore, but I hate feeling like I'll run into him in town one day and he'll try to start something or get under my skin by doing something childish like he use to always do. I just wish he'd grow up and own up to what he did to me and the other girls who gave him a chance. I regret ever meeting this guy, and I wish we could just be strangers without the bad memories that cause fear anytime I even think of running into him again.