aviisevil

aviisevil Jan 17

every whisper
of my disguise

sets in my house
of summer

for the western
winds pass through
the alleys of my
mind

and every breath
takes away of the
little i have known

each cascading
thought mixes into
the never ending
abyss

dance of the
spiralling tears i've
come to mourn

how do I tell
myself

that my heart is
caught in a well
of sadness

and a thousand
years have found
a home within me

as my lungs expand
into the never-ending
nothingness

oceans rage
inside of my veins

storms peer
through my eye

each dream a
memory that fades
away

i am my own
escape

#love

aviisevil Oct 2023

rose tinted sunsets

the prison is
deep

her walls masked
in sewed flesh

there is only
a sliver of light

that comes from
the womb

awakening the
night

brewing many
storms into potent
thoughts

hide them
well

lest they pierce
through the skin

make a home
of murals

unwritten letters
to no one

that you keep
inside

let them return
to dusk

decay into
the rose tinted
sunsets

there are no
photographs
to remind you
of anything

nothing has
happened for
years.

#october #time #sunset

aviisevil Jun 2023

Souvenir

i am woe

her endless
desolation

the last refuge
of her memory

of the bitter
days and sweet
summers

of an autumn
that sleeps in
me

and i hear
her silence

reverberate in
the abyss of my
confinement

but there is no
escape

i am nothing
without her

and she is
my dream

#love #life #dark

aviisevil Jun 2023

portions

rest with me on
the rainbow

come with me
to the sun

i see you alone
by the window

waiting for us
to get young

we'll make love
in the meadow

burn everything
that hasn't come

i see you staring
into the shadows

waiting for one
of us to return

#love #dark #people

aviisevil Jun 2023

crowded

they sought me in whisper
in colours they could find

they painted of me a picture
of a man bitter and confined

they found me in winter
a song frozen in time

they caught me - a sliver
symphony of the mind

they bought me in silver
treasure of the divine

they divide me in scripture
then imprison me in science

they cast from me a river
of melancholy and wine

they ask of me a mirror
to show them they're blind

#dark

aviisevil May 2023

what colour is autumn?

the day
is lost

i sit in
defeat

it's a lonely
place

of fractured
memories

and boarded
windows

there's
nothing
to do

the world
must keep
spinning

until i fall
asleep

it stops
for no one

aviisevil May 2023

panthalassa

it is dark as
it is cold

i am naked/
falling

spiralling into
another song

caressing me slowly
are the arms of an
ocean

it only finds
me when i am
scattered

it only finds
me when there is
nothing

the end of
times

they conspire/
tie the knots

thousand cuts/
a thousand skeletons

threads of
grief

more than
flesh and bones;

people aren't
made of silence

but people aren't
made of silence

deafening/
there is thunder

captured in
our skin

pulsating in the
middle of it all

there is an
abyss

keeping us
awake.