because it seems as though
if you cant control
your future you hold
what do you control

where is your say
in your life everyday
what you do today
can affect you in every way

but how do we know
where we'll really go
when we really show
what we really know

subconsciously do we pave
the way for us to slave
with everything we gave
we take our mistakes to the grave

or do we fly high
on all the good we come by
on all the things we do try
with all the light we do shine

we can't really understand
whats the real plan
we must stay strong where we stand
and give and extra hand

4 a.m.
here i am again
why aren't we friends
you're as consistent as the pain
always there for me to blame
you're like a secret that i keep
locked in my thoughts
listening always when I'm caught

4 a.m.
here i am again
sleep left me and you're what i have
like the unwanted truth
a reflection of reality

4 a.m.
here we are
why does it hurt so bad
where is your comfort
you are here, just as i feared

4 a.m.
you're like a drug
see real life in a whole new way
the high lasts only until day

4 a.m.
you're the journal of my mind
i talk and you listen
you cover my sin

4 a.m.
all is lost
but sometimes you must loose it all
to find yourself

4 a.m.
its now almost morning
ill see you again after the day,
mourning

dust kept on his gift
the one thing i have left
of his presents, of our existence

the rooms in my home still remind me
of every memory we ever made
the nights i doused in his arms
to waking up to his light

our first kiss
where it once took place
it plays in my mind
without haste

our dance in the moonlight
our deepest talks
they're every where around me
every where we use to walk

so i escape that city
and call it home no more
but every now again i feel
the past knock on the door

my heart will hold his place
tucked away to be forgotten
though ill always feel lost
ill remember what id gotten

you want to be everything your not
for once
heres a thought
be yourself

you're all you've got

you shouldn't want to be like them
they aren't even themselves
so lost into fitting in
they think popularity sells

well ill tell you myself
be who you want to be
but don't loose yourself
trying to be a somebody

.

take my heart
take my hand
take my life
from where i stand

take my home
take my car
take me away
so very far

take away my breath
take away my mind
take my spirit
make me blind

strip me down
to not even a body
leave me along
before i start rotting

were made up of so much
so many things combined
but what is it that makes us
really alive

don't speak
your body says it all

your anxious
my call

i read you like a book
wear your emotions like a sign

how divine

words really mean nothing
and actions say it all

well by the body actions your showing

i think your starting to fall