In my desperation
to understand your disappearance
ive mulled that word over in my maze of a mind
way too many times
i can no longer find its meaning.

I took the first step
Today

Telling myself
I don't need you
To be happy

Because I see you smiling
With your friends
And other girls
While I'm all alone
Dying inside

But then it hit me

I'm better than this
And I don't need
An *******
Of a guy
To make me feel
Like maybe I can continue
Living

Because I feel like dying
21/7
And I don't need you
To be the one
Making me go
Closer to the edge

Instead of trying to
Save me.

-e.w.

Irrational beauty
A fly away thought
Of yesterdays
And places far away
Of your back on the grass
Or your feet In the sand
Your head in Clouds
Your
Hand in my
a
n
d

when i was a kid, i pretended i could
breathe underwater so that if i was
ever caught in a wave for too long
i wouldn't panic- but now my hands are
shaking and i can feel my lungs getting tight
and my ear drums are starting to pound, and
these ceilings are
crushing
me.

i saw a firefly while walking in the park
underneath the moonlight glowing in the dark
like a neon light flying in the night
glowing like a star shining very bright
it made me feel so peaceful such a lovely sight
fill me up with joy and brought me such delight
flying round the flowers its colors all aglow
clearly on display putting on a show
a lovely peace of nature like a fantasy
shining in the night shining just for me