To those days spending endless nights in my head with nothing but happy thoughts.
To those days spending countless hours running and playing with my friends.
To those days filled with happiness.
To those days where I was ignorant to the world around me.
When I didn't know.

To now.
Spending these endless nights with silent tears.
Spending countless hours with my fears of the world around me.
Spending every night awake with my horrible thoughts.
Spending these days hiding who I am.
Spending countless hours thinking of those who don't think about me.
To these endless nights the seamlessly flow to another day.
To these nights of pain.
To These Nights.

The smoke fills my lungs.
I let it enter my body and let it control my thoughts.
I am a prisoner of the smoke I inhale.
Being weighed down, craving it's embrace.
One more drag I say to no advale to stop for it has consumed me.

He smells like heaven to me.
His lips are soft but firm.
They are inviting.
He is gentle but i felt he wanted more.
I had this urge to never break away from the kisses.
I had these feelings of utter happiness overwhelm my body when he got close to me.
His hand fit perfectly in mine.
His eyes are mesmerizing to me.
His face is carved into the perfect features.
His nose is so cute.
He is just so perfect I am so surprised that he wasn't taken when I met him.

The wind is bellowing throught our hair.
We stand there in silence as we stare at each other.
We say no words for they can not form what we try to mean.
We are speechless.
Time slows down around us.
And then we speak and the sparks fly.