I don't love you.But maybe I love the way you laugh when I say I hate you in a funny way.
I'm not gonna fall for you, but mayb I'll fall for the sacrifices you've given.

No I'm not gonna fall inlove with you, but maybe I may have fallen inlove with the way your face makes when you're concerned.
Oh I swear to God that I don't love you but I'd be lying if I say I didn't need you.

I'd wake up every morning and wish that you were infront of me making me laugh.
I'd walk you home while we're holding hands and just being happy.
But maybe I don't love you.

They say if you love someone else you'd let them be happy.
Even if you're not the reason.
You deserve to be happy. But please,
Not infront of me.

And if I had known that things would end up this way,
I might have, stayed a little longer.
Talked a little longer.
And hugged you a little tighter.
But maybe I do love you.
I just couldn't love you right.

Within my book of memories
are special thoughts of you
and all the evidence of glorious things
which, because of you, came true.

As I turn back the pages of memories
and recall each single thought,
I realize the happiness and pleasure
that knowing you has brought.

There are memories of the times
we've shared both bright and gloomy days
there are memories of your kindness
and your friendly, thoughtful ways.

There are memories of your laughter,
your gay and cheery smile
that added a bright note to each of us
and made life more worthwhile.

There are memories of the things
we planned each friendly little chat,
when we would get together
and just talk of this and that.

And when I recall these memories
as I move along life's way
they grow more precious and blessed
with every passing day.

when you ask me if I'm bored
of listening to your terrible stories,
it makes me think about
what boredom means to me
and why it’s beauty that I find
in apparent mundanity.

you color my life in every tone of grey -
in a nourishing and poetic, underrated way.
GREY - the soul of every color in the world;
Invisible and aligned - right between extremes -
like all well designed things are known to be.

Or maybe because grey
feels like routine,
and you’re the everyday
that's to come and that has been.

you're where I set my bar for normal;
you're my Sunday night pajama informal.

You’re my common sense, and my reality check,
my perspective lens, my goodnight peck.
and even your grim phone voice
and plot less stories on sleepless nights
are part of the palette  I've come to adore,
painting magic in monochrome.

I love you more than the sun,
and the starts that I taught how to shine,
you are mine, and you shine for me too.
I love you yesterday, and today and tomorrow,
ill say it again and again,
I love you more...

So I guess it’s time, the time to moving on
Stop the tears, carry on, and appreciate the love we had
All we have to do is accept the fact
Now I know you know I have someone new
And I know this time I have to make this right
Can’t live my shadow in the past, so I had to move on
And I know I wont make this right if I won’t move on

Please help me God, I feel so alone
I'm just a kid, how can I take it on my own?
I've cried too many tears
I wake up every day, don't wanna leave my home
I'm just a kid, I don't want no stress
My nerves are bad, my life's a mess
The names you call me, they hurt real bad
Yo mister Bully, help me please
I'm flesh and blood, accept me please
Hey mister Bully, I don't know what to do
My mind, it can't explain what I did to you
Mister Bully, take in all my please
Every single day you bring me to my knees.
Hopeful, yes, I am
Hopeful for today
Take this music and use it
Let it take you away
And be hopeful, hopeful
And He'll make a way
I know it ain't easy, but, that's okay
Just be hopeful.

After so many years of loving you,
After so many things we've been through,
Still I couldn't find the reason,
Tell me why am I in so much love with you?

You've given me a reason
For smiling once again,
You've filled my life with peaceful dreams
and you've become my closest friend.

You've shared your heartfelt secrets
And your trust you've given me,
You showed me how to feel again
To laugh, and love, and see.

All I know is that I feel pain

In every part of my body

And the worst part is that

I know it won't go away

Until I stop loving you

And I vowed to never stop loving you.

You expect me to
Sit here and take it
I sat there for years
Waiting for you
To grow up in some way
I know it’s there
Somewhere
But not here
Not now
So yell and scream
I just won’t listen
Anymore

Its been a month when I start not talking to you,
I always tell myself,
I will forget you, yes, I can.
Yes I forgot my feelings for you.
But then, I saw that picture again with that person,
I start hating myself,
Why did I still had this feeling?
I feel jealous.
Seeing that picture,
I don't know what to do anymore.
I think my feeling for you will be forever.

When I first saw you, i was starstrucked.
The first time we hang-out, I was totally excited.
And today, from that 7 hours we've been together, I was very happy.
We talked, we laughed, do some weird moments.
Our eyes met, we smiled to each other and my heart begins to pump so fast.
And from that I think I'm falling for you.
Oh dear, please let me love you.

One day you will be mine,
Dark clouds will go the sun will shine,
From God blessing will rain,
One day you will be mine.

One day you will rise,
To see this world with my eyes,
Our bond is divine,
One day you will be mine.

One day you will be mine,
I will hold you for life time,
So give me your sweetest smile,
Let me dream for a while,
My world will be like heaven,
Coz one day you will be mine.

Say forever you will be mine,
Our love will win over the test of time,
Black days will run away,
Our life will be a brighter day,
Forever I am yours,
Promise me forever you will be mine.

How foolish of me it was
To give my heart
To someone so careless
So reckless, So disingenuous
And now I'm here
On the kitchen floor
Weeping
This is the
Pain of breaking.

You asked me why I like you
But I didn’t want to tell
Some of my reasons are cheesy...
But here is why I fell

I love the way your lips curve
When I make you smile
It makes me want to pull you close
And kiss you for awhile

I love the way your eyes twinkle
When you talk about things you love
I truely believe
You are a gift from above

I love that you are compassionate
You have such a big heart
That was the first thing I noticed
Right from the start

I love the way it feels
When you hold me tight
I finally feel safe
Like I could sleep through the night

I love that you don’t judge me
For my less than perfect self
That is more attractive
Than any amount of wealth

There are so many more reasons
But I’ll start with just this few
Maybe someday
I’ll give this poem to you

Secret Passions
Secret Desires
Hiding behind the curtain
But this is happening for certain
No one can know
No one can understand
This will be the end of us
But we still give it the just
All we have
All we can do
Every word I might say
Every Melody I might sing
They are all for you

My secret
The secret

There's one girl I adore.
She's kind.
She's a down to earth person.
She's an understanding girl.
She's weird ( I find it cute tho)
She's naughty.
She's not that "maarte"
She's a girl you'll not get bored with.
She's bubbly.
She's out goer.
She's adventurous.
She's a girl who loves to eat.
She's a girl who loves to travel.
She's a girl who loves visiting Churches.
She's perfect for me.
She's the one.
She is.

Accept the fact that she's gone.
Just like a bubble that have gone so fast.
Accept the fact that you can't have her.
Just like those things we cannot have.

She's gone, you're gone.
We cannot be longer be friends-friends.
Look what have you done.
It hurts a lot.
But what can I do.
I should respect your decision,
And ******* accept it!

What a terrible thing it was
To have been
So close to you.
And now, here we are,
So far apart.
I wonder,
If it would've been better
To have never felt
Your love at all.

So **** confused
Not sure what to think
What to do...
I have too many emotions.
I'm way out of my mind.
The words I speak one day.
The next, I leave 'em behind.

What's up with the world today.
Really, what's up with everything.
Everyone's gone crazy.
The world needs to start accepting.

People need to realize.
The world is full of difference.

people like you
are not easily
forgotten.
people like you
last a lifetime.

Some day we will find
what we are looking for.

or maybe not

maybe we'll find something
much greater than that.

Everyone has an idea of a person that is perfect for them,
How they look,
How they act,
Seldom do people truly find this person,
For me, my perfect girl is a shorter blonde,
Blue eyes that would light up the room,
A body that is neither thin nor fat,
A girl that makes good decisions,,
Perhaps a smart girl,
Smart enough to make me wrong sometimes,
I've never seen this girl I speak of,
But I found someone better,
You don't fit a single thing I just said,
Get okay grades in school,
You have black hair and auburn eyes,
You make me feel crazy in silence that you create,
Yet I still have loved you more than anyone,
More than my life it's self in which I'd give to you in a moment,
You've surpassed my expectations,
While not meeting a single one,
But I love you and always will,
Even if you hurt me I will love you.

you don't need someone else
to complete you.
you are already complete
you are already beautiful
you are already perfect
find someone who's more
than someone to live for

find someone you want
to share your life with.

Im jealous

Jealous that I
wasn't the  one

Jealous
of  something that wasn't mine

It was all  just  my mind
playing tricks on me

Dear me
So foolish to think it was me
I should have  known

Now my heart's breaking,
cracking, splitting into 2.

And im
still
jealous.
Yep. I still do.

I really don't know.
Here I am, telling you the truth.
You're so unfair.
You keep on denying and pretending.
How will I know what do you feel?
Could you please, be true?
at lease this time?
I can't stop thinking!
So please...

She is the sun, but you are the moon
and I am the Earth who needs the two.
She brings me light and warmth to my whole,
but she's always the same, here every day.
While the morning is sweet, I'm not myself
like I am in the night, the moon as my guide.
I constantly crave the darkened sky
where a beautiful mind comes alive.
You stand out amongst the other stars.
I breathe in your energy as it becomes mine.
You will forever bring out the best in me,
but your faces always change, never the same.
She is the sun, but you are the moon.
How on Earth do I ever choose?

I look into your eyes
My heart starts to race
My breathing rapidly increases
My body’s in a state
Yet …
I’m in heaven!

What is happening to me?
It feels as if I'm losing my mind
Do I take this chance at love?
Or do I run and hide?

You’re in my thoughts day and night
I’m fighting these feelings with every ounce inside
Knowing very well that I have plenty to hide

But you see right through
No wall too thick or too tall
I feel vulnerable
I feel bare

How I long for your touch
For the safe haven you provide
When you wrap your arms around me

I am falling for you
Falling hard and fast
It feels as though I’m looking at this
From one dizzy height
A mixture of excitement & fear
Whenever you are near

Here I am, take my hand
For I am fragile & scared
I’m putting all my trust in you
For I have fallen …
I have fallen for you!

Give them your turst untill they
Give you a reason not to..
Then thats great
For you
But my trust and my heart have been
Abused amd mis-used to many times
I have learned to protect myself
I have put up a wall and
And only let people get so close
Then someone like you comes along
Loving,caring and willing to be there
Wanting to be there
And i get scared
I dont know how to let you in
I know its unfair to you
To have to pay for the mistakes of others
To have to deal with the pain they left behind
But im asking you to try
I believe that love is about letting go
Putting all of your trust into that other person
I believe that when you hold back
You miss out on the possibility
Of experencing something great
Maybe im not ready to take that leap
But i am willing to try
Theres so many thoughts,questions and chances
That this could all be fake
Thats what my head tells me
But my heart is telling me that you mean
Every word that you say
And that your worth taking that "chance"
You wanted honesty and thats what you got
So there it is out in the open
Just lingering in the air
Where do we go from here?
Take the next step
Make the next move
Are you willing to wait for me?
I dont want to loose you and
I dont want push you away
So can we both make an effort to try?
For you to have patients with me
And for me to give you that trust you need
We dont have to know everything now
I guess its all up to time
But just remember that i love you
I know that i dont always make things easy
I just need to know that you will be there.

Sometimes in my tears I drown.
Like drops of a heavy rain.
They fall, hitting the ground,
No matter how much it hurts,
I know that these tears will help,

I will keep going,
and this will not last for long.

I was once left and get hurt.
Promised me something, but got broken.
Now you're being rude.
Not talking to me.
I'm here, always here.
Waiting for you to message me.
So sad to think that it seems we don't know each other.
You told me to be happy.
But how can I be happy if we're like this?

What a loser he/she must be,
Finding a new purpose in life,
Breaking borders, killing strife,
Trying things they never tried.

It is then that I see,
That not a loser they must be,
For no longer they're part of me,
The loser is indeed me.

Life is rough, life is tough.
Life is complex but becomes simple when you don't compete.
Own a style. and see it to the end.
And devotion will bring you success.

Don't hide your potentials for fear of failure; please let the, fly.
And on wings as eagle your spirit, in confidence will forever soar high.
Be ready to take corrections though; it's sure worth the try.
Success comes when you endure.

I want to cry
I want to scream
I want to tell you mostly
I hate that I'm so afraid of everything
I hate that you're the one thing I want the most but can't have.
I wish I were strong enough to say no to you
I wish I could believe my own lies I use to cover up the pain you left
I need to move on says my head
I need to hold on says my heart
I need to decide says my mind
I want to hurt you
I want to be with you
I want this nightmare to be over
I wish I could make things they were before you
I wish I could change time
I wish I could change you
I wish I could have hurt you before you hurt me
I need you out of my thoughts
I need you out of my heart
I need to start doing things for me
I hate that I gave you something I can never have back
I hate that I wasted it with you
I'm tired of hoping aimlessly for you
I'm tired of wanting something I can't have
I'm tired of hurting me for things that aren't my fault
Funny though how you never once said sorry for hurting me,
for breaking me,
for not loving me

What if one day I left,
Gone and no where to find,
Would you cry for me?
Would you be happy that I'm gone?

Because I'm tired, so tired.
Me being me, because being me is what you hate,
Its what stresses you, and,
Its what you don't need in your life.

No amount of accomplishments can change your way of seeing me this way.
Sad it may seem.
I can't change what you think of me.
Trust me, I tried. I tried so hard.