Sometimes our actions don't reflect who we really are.
So we lie,
Sometimes
Well, most of the times
those lies are much more honest than the truth.
I may be smiling but that doesn't mean I'm happy
I may be crying but that doesn't mean you hurt me
I may be angry but that doesn't mean I hate you
You see I am chaotic and confusing as ****
I have an eternal turmoil of emotion inside me
churning and crashing what's little left inside
All those jokes I said, smiles I shown, and laughter I unleashed
did nothing to ease the raging thoughts that's been flooding me
consuming me
drowning me
killing me
help me
save me
please rescue me
from this self destruction I've been causing me
'coz even if I try to make you leave me
even if I try to look tough and nasty
even if I sound annoying
or irritating to be with
The truth is, I want you to see right past me
to see behind all these lies
and unravel the truth
that I am hurting
please don't leave me
for I don't know what to feel
or what to do
without you beside me