I am getting lost in a world I do not belong in.

Do you think they will know that I am not one of them?

But what if I am one of them?

Will they ever know?

I'll go first,

Growing up, there was a huge emphasis on marriage in my community.
Everything I watched was about love,  lust and relationships, this was all I consumed.

Later on in life,  I began to crave affection and attention from many if not all the males in my life.

This lead me into a spiral of thinking that every male I had an interaction with was going to be my husband.

We listen and we don't judge...

i think i might just stop caring












it doesn't help anyways

i generally didn't know it was possible to feel this much pain












i guess you truly were my first of everything

remember when you loved me?











i do











i'm scared it was all in my imagination












how do i know i ever knew you if all i have are pictures














it feels like a fever dream



















i wish i never woke up

hey guess what
i won











i really did love you more

i don't think ill ever love someone
as much as i loved you











and i don't know if i want to

Broken, a dove lay.
Crimson blood stains her wings red.
Surly love was the cause.

Trying to tell
If the glimmer in their eye
Is the beginning of a tear
They are choking back,
Their wonder,
A yawn,
Or dust