You see me
yet you don't see my brain.
My brain functions at a different
level it's wired like a backwards
motherboard, I started life
in silence and frustration
slowly growing into a hurricane
of communication.
Speech is lacking in my brain
but still I learned how to speak
through my ability to write poetry
and understanding languages
you probably can't speak.
My eagerness helps me to develop
and grow.
Routine and schedule is my
favorite thing to do, it feels good
to stick to a straight line.
Noises and lights hurt my eyes
body and mind, causing painful irritation to grow and
poke my mind.
I've had to grow up inside this
painful design, it's been hard
and deep gloomy and
sometimes fleek.
I find my autism stylish
and unique, it's full of awesome designs but also darkness
that seems never ending.
Like everything else I have
bad and good times too.
I might think like a cat
but I am still human by design.
This is autism and me
my backwards life.
© 2019 By Amanda Shelton
I have high functioning autism. Poetry helps me to communicate and taught me how to express myself so you can understand my situation. Technology has made my life easier. Without the internet I wouldn't be able to share with you, also I wouldn't have gotten where I am today. I also suffer from a rare movement disorder and I was able to get a brain surgery called Deep Brain Stimulator that helps me to be able to move. The internet made it possible for me to find the doctor and specialists who helped me. I am very grateful.