I don't understand
Was I not enough
Was our love just a wasteland
Why is letting you go so rough

I tried my best
Yet I have failed you
Was I too depressed
Please tell me what to do

Don't leave me
Don't make me cry
Don't toss me out to sea
Just why?

All I did was love you
And you still left
Did you find someone new
Or was I just too big of a mess

I planned a future
Was it just a lie
The pain will just get worse
But in the end, I'll die

The emptiness
It swallows me whole
I'm left in the darkness
With nothing except my soul

All alone with my sorrow
Sinking deeper and deeper
But wait for tomorrow
I'll be much weaker

My demons will haunt me
With my horrible past
Leaving me with nobody
How long will I last?

Will I just cry
Or finally give in and cut?
Hoping I die
And get out of this rut

I can't stay any longer
It gets harder everyday
I'll never get stronger
Suicide is the best way.

At night is when it's bad
They come without warning
The nightmares come, making me sad
Making me cry from midnight to morning

Him slitting his wrists
It seems so real
Him disappearing into a mist
With a pain inside that won't ever heal

I can't get rid of the images
Of him about to jump
off a building causing his life to be finished
Taking my heart with him with a loud thump

Him in a coffin
The picture won't go away
It causes me to cry every so often
Making it hard to get through the day

So there you know
What I deal with at night
The nights are slow
With me crying and hoping to see the light.

Loud noises
Soft cries
Fake smiles
False lies

Badly beaten
Hearts broken
Watery eyes
****** knives

Scarred wrists
Shaky legs
Unspoken words
Bruised arms

Happiness ended
Pain unknown
This is the
Abusive "home"

You look down
And you see a puddle
You smile and then frown
You're in a bubble

A bubble of hate
You can't escape
It determines your fate
Which you can't create

You need help
But no one can
Hear you yelp
So you ran

Ran away
And never came back
Until the next day
Your life turned black

Youlook down
And see a flood
You smile and then frown
It's your blood

You always see me cry
And always walked by
But never asked why
Tonight I'll say goodbye

Weeks have went by
While no one said hi
And stayed in my room all day to cry
Telling myself that soon I'll die

All I think about is suicide
Maybe jump off a roof and learn to fly
Only to go so fast to see the sky
Or telling everyone your life's a lie

Every night you cut your thigh
Wearing pants in the middle of July
When you you listen to this you can't deny
This is my Suicide Lullaby.

As he walks away
With my heart and a gun
My world turns to gray
As a war has begun

A month has gone by
Hoping and wishing
That you won't die
and leave my heart missing

Three months later
The news left me empty
Up all night praying it gets better
Now that you left me

I can't believe you're gone
You left me too soon
Crying all night until dawn
Trying not to miss you

Forever in my heart
Gone but never forgotten
With my heart torn apart
Missing you until it's rotten.