You ignore me, dont read my messages.
I came to your house today, to try and talk to you,
one last time,
before we turn into nothing.
nothing but broken hearts and memories.
i havent eaten in three days,
i shake like a leaf.
i puke everyday,
and i cant sleep.
you go out with her,
shes a filthy *****.
you gave up the one person,
that tried to save you.
the one person, that loved you.
that still does.
and the depressing thing is,
that im trying to contact you,
i want to see you one last time,
to hear your voice,
and most importantly,
*i just want my stuff back.

you came by last night.
you came to get your things.
to tell me it was over.
I haven't eaten in two days.
I cant stop shaking, crying.
this mental deterioration,
is just too much to handle.
I sat with you for two hours.
trying, begging, pleading
for you to stay with me.
but things aren't that simple,
are they?
I can't sleep. I cant function.
my first love, the one that promised forever.
has left me for a *****, a ****.
she would never do the things,
that I did, she would never endure
the pain that I did. all for you.
you caused me depression,
you say you still care,
but why aren't you acting like it?
everything could be better,
if you just wanted to talk to me.

He was a mighty Sitka spruce
In the dense forest,
Always stretching for new heights,
But I was nothing but a bonsai tree,
Small, beautiful to look at, yet
Extremely fragile and insecure

waking up was hard this morning.
hearing my alarm instead of the ringtone,
that I set for you.
it was rough getting out of bed,
when I didn't have you to get up to.
the loneliness is almost too much to handle,
but I do it, for you, for us.
I don't want to think of you,
giving another what you give to me.
so I endure the depression, loneliness
all for the fantasy of us.

New life and new beauty,
Meet with depression and anxiety.
The sun's rays feel warm against my skin,
Yet I remain in a melancholy state of mind.
It is because of you,
The one that drives me absolutely insane,
The one that deceives and hurts me,
And feels no remorse for doing so.
Yet, you are also the one
That pulls me in closer on the bed,
That holds my hand on long car trips,
That looks into my eyes, with a fooling look,
And whispers, "I love you so much."
You destroy me and re build me.
Giving me Spring Sadness.