There was never one that I loved much more
On this September day.
The ties between our sacred hearts
Done nothing but fall through cracks
The flower bed where I used to lay
Is not the same
Without you

Fence sitting causes splinters
But safety found in silence
Watching games there playing
Wondering at their worth
Falsehoods blossoming like petals
Some believe their truth
Sighing to see the games they play
Knowing of life inner truth
Gathered in their numbers safety in the flock
New ideas shielded by their misunderstandings
Wasting all their youth
Laughing in the silence
The crowds they mill and flock
Careful always on the edge never the boat to rock
Game playing with their lies held high
Again they con people [please they try
Sadness fills my vision watching as they lament
Beds they've made they sleep in
More tricks just to pay the rent
The when called on to answer
The blame they lay sideways
Always the fault of others
Through their patterns remain the same
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I'm not meant to be here
I was not planned
So why is it so bad
That I'm trying to find a way out?

I wish I could tell you
Every little thing
I think in my head
But I can't because
They move too fast,
Are too slippery to grasp
And hold onto long enough
To write into lyrical thoughts
Worthy of your time.

In disappointing them
I disappointed myself
And when you disappoint yourself
It's hard to tell others
Because they'll never understand
And they'll always ask
Why

When we don't have the answers
We end up alone
Crying
And wanting to die
Only disappointing them
And spreading the poison
That they don't deserve

But
Did you deserve it?