You held me in your arms
Watching me grow into myself
Into the person I was supposed to be
I became a piece of you with time
Together we bloomed
You taught me what I needed
to be myself while still
Carrying around some of you
Your wisdom and bad habits
building me from the ground up
I could never understand
Your distance,
but I never doubted you
Every ounce of me misses the old life
Before I only recognized your back,
The life where you loved me,
And you didn't make it look
so easy to walk away.

Wild eyes,
A beauty like no other
You lit a fire in everyone at first glance
How is it possible
For one person to bring so much luster
A passion for life that's been lost
in the lack of communication
Misunderstood texts and
nonexistent phone calls
Her voice was heard from
every ounce of her being
She radiated a light that
brightened a room
A delicate flower with
a heart of gold
A heart that could melt
all the bad in the world
She was every piece
of all the good
Never lacking sense
I learned from her to
grow with the world
Grow with the sounds
of my favorite songs
and through the
laughs of every person I met
She taught me to be better
To live through the fire and
always come out brighter

Look into my eyes...
         What do you see?
A vision of what you
think I am,
Or actually me.
False identity,
always so quick to judge
You look at me and
         see what you want
Convinced you
have it all figured out
What I'm about,
What Interests me
            An altered version
                 of the person I am
All I ask,
And all I can hope for
Please, try to see me.

Take her heart
And tie it with strings
So you're always the one
Always in charge
Always pushing towards
a conclusion,
What you wanted while
she watched her
own life fall
from a distance
Slowly diminishing
You were in control
Making moves
Forced decisions
She wanted to feel
like she was living
along side you,
not with your hands
around her neck.

Darling,
what a beautiful dream you are
Like a combination of a dozen roses
And a million of my favorite things
A sweet song,

With a perfect rhythm.

An alluring tone,
like one I’ve never heard before.

You take my shadows
and force them to be bright.

A hidden gem, 

With the perfect amount
of sincerity and warmth.

Oh what a beautiful delight
you are,
 I hope I never wake up.

You were heaven and hell,

The devil with a pair
of beautiful wings.

Why did I yearn for the
bruises you left me?

I kissed the scars and
prayed for just a second
more of your time.

I needed it;

the agony,

the pain,

the light
I saw in your eyes.

To fix you?(or to fix myself)

I loved to hate you,
but I loved to want you
simultaneously.

A delicate tragedy, 

when will I learn?

Do beauty and pain
go hand in hand?

She craved a life deeper than the people around her. A small town with a bunch of crowded thoughts and a bunch of tiny people. She liked the views and the beautiful moments with the few beautiful people who mattered, but other than that- it was a drag. It was the way she viewed the world that made her love it so much, how every little moment mattered. I saw it in her eyes, how much more she saw in every person. Things they didn’t know existed. Things they didn’t recognize until they were with her. Spending endless moments together. I saw her, I knew what she wanted. A beautiful intimate life with a significance that made everything worth while.She had a way about her, a dream. I sat with her and I saw the love in her eyes. She was a dream and nobody saw the world how she viewed it. Through tired sad eyes but with so much beauty. She saw it how I hoped and prayed everyone could see it.
She would break trying to put it back together-
And she did.