You were fast moving

with the slyest amount of caution,

forward but I saw the hesitation.

I should’ve known from the moment you pressed your hand on my cheek.

That extra second you spent in your head
before you made your move.

The softest touch, so sincere. 

Did you know what you were about to do?

How you’d make me
fall in love with every touch,
every look you made in my direction.

You fell too, but never
for more than a second.

I knew how to play the game,
you just knew how to play it better.

You needed me.

You breathed me in like
I was the only thing that
could fill your lungs.
You disguised my love,
but you knew it was there.

You felt it in every move I made

and I felt it in you.

How our bodies danced,

separated, 

But always found their way back.

They knew the things we couldn’t always see.

It felt like love.

The way you touched me,

the second our eyes locked
and you couldn’t look away.

Full attention like I was the
only sight in view.

The way we moved together,

a perfect connection.

Two souls with one perfect rhythm.

Breathing simultaneously,

my heartbeat in tune with yours.

I wrapped my arms around you so tight in hopes you’d never let me go…

It sure felt like love,
but we never knew what that meant.

My body’s tense

Close to yours

So close

but we never felt adjacent

Promising a
 world of magic

after every drink

Before her,

Before them,

Before I based every

waking thought off your

body language

Forcing myself

to succumb to your “love”

Speaking pretty words

but never pretty actions

Wasted days 

Wasted, always wasted.

Wasting away…

You spoke beautiful words,

I watched you and I listened
like every sentence you proclaimed
held the key to a better world.

That’s the scary thing,

You spoke words I needed to hear,

ones that made it all
feel worth it.

Only after I’d fallen would I realize
just how **** useless they really were.

How’d you make me

feel so much 
without ever 

opening your mouth…

You looked at us

but where was your head?

With her?

with the people
who knew
 you or
with the 
people
you’ve yet to meet?

Always second guessing

Was it real? 

pretending to love

pretending to care

Such a beautiful show