what is this feeling
this melting away
my insides are weak
in a slow panic
can’t seem to grasp it
why I am this way

I’m on the rise
yet falling

afraid I’ll fall alone

will her steps meet mine?
am I no longer lost
or blinded by an empty hope?

slipping into darkness
an array of thoughts
swarming like moths in a lampshade
hurtful possibilities emerge
saboteur of my own vessel

can another ever love me
want me, need me
as I them?

submerged in cold matter
I’m fragile
forced to live on
my eternal wandering
for a chance to become fully alive

to share my life
what sings to my soul
is an endless desire
I fear that may never change
that my soul will live in shadows
never truly seen or heard by another

I am the only true observer
and that is the feeling of loneliness
that makes me sink into myself

it hurts to be here
painfully present
meaningless
and inevitably forgotten

I've lived a little
I've loved a lot
I lost myself to you
We tied our dreams up in a lovers knot
But none of them came true
My solid ground soon turned to quicksand
The warm winds turn to frost
Where does love go
When it has no plan?
When everything is lost?
The only thing that I forgot
Was that we walk alone
I'm learning how to stand again,
A steady hand again.

I'm going to be O.K.
I'm going to be just fine
I'm gonna be alright now
I'm going to make a break
I'm going to take my time
I'm going to be alright now
Alright now

You said you'd love me bigger than the universe the sun and all the stars
You said that there was nothing that we couldn't overcome and yet we fell apart
We fell apart

I speak out of tone
The cradle rock
Fable stone pages

One fell swoop
Star stricken in remission
Abuser, the unforgiven

Chastised, can't take flight
Hostile winds envelope
Tangled threads of my kite
Stitched into the soul
Whirling chaos, devour the whole

Numbness born of pain
I want none of this
Empty bliss
Selflessness

Black and white
So vivid

I am
Silently livid

The same story rewritten
Somehow shameful
Could be worse
Yes
Baneful

subservient is the shade that follows
oh, how she wallows undoubtedly so
bewildered as each footstep eludes
pulled back to the frailties we seek to conclude

entangled beneath the iron tides of time
fixated on my own rotten vision
kept lying and dying awake
forcefully keeping our eyes wide
still faced with how we shiver
until the silence starts to glimmer

I feel the need to say something to someone
why am I not enough for myself?
who is it that needs to listen?
its some form of self inflicted torment
I unknowingly bring upon myself
my mind only knowns how to cause harm to itself
something inside me calls for something else
I'm never getting there
no matter what signs may come my way
I am hindered by my own lack of will
its been so long in the darkness
I've lost sight of everything
this is all I know
**** this existence
i don't know what I'm doing anymore
right now there is nothing. just meaninglessness. lost and dead.
the only thing keeping me breathing is to avoid more negativity
because i don't know, maybe hell really is a place
and not just that, I've always tasted it, I'm there in some ways
maybe death is a more exaggerated form of imagination
and my earthly presence is a bittersweet existence
maybe this is my mercy, for the lost and ******
we can only hurt our minds and soul
but given grace to have a primary state constricted by time and space
I can only assume at best my top priority is to purify myself
but how? no one can do this but me
I'm alone and isolated from the rest of you
yet taunted because we are what appears to be close
but it means nothing without connection
to me you and everyone else are just some ignorant drone
indulging in meaningless *******
your schooling, your work, family, friends.. your memories
will all fade and be swept away by the tides of time
who the **** are you? what are you?
we're dropped on this planet, ignorantly acting out
participating with the rest of existence, never questioning
when one day you might stop and wonder
we have no divine guidance, or intervention
we're on our own left to live out a meaningless existence
and perhaps it was better to keep our eyes closed
because I've caught myself in a trap of eternal melancholy
and I can never strip myself of the moment
its always here, my awake and aware is just painful
being quiet and observant of everyone and everything is useless
I have nothing to put in to anything here
and I feel guilt because I can't experience love or joy
to share my good feelings with someone
to have those things that make life worth living
maybe I can touch them but I can never own them for myself
I think others can, and perhaps they never once had to think of it
but I do, I think to a sick amount I don't even think I know because I've had so little contrast
contrast is what I need, if I ever experience pure joy again
only then can I see just how depressed and miserable and deprived I was
and then that itself brings me back down, because I mourn for myself
therefor any spit of hope or joy is always out of reach for me
the only thing that makes me feel okay is alcohol,
and thats just sometimes.
maybe its better to be an alcoholic than to be depressed
I don't understand why I lack the simple ability to make myself feel better
why I'm given no helping hand? no other soul can help because they could never know exactly what I'm experiencing.
therefor we have a disconnect.
this is why I'm isolated, so lost and bewildered
no one can see it
its so simple to hide, people are fools
this is why I crave so deeply so something unworldly
to be visited by some benevolent being of divine intelligence
to hold me, to look deep into me and for us both to just KNOW.
thats all I want. will I ever get that? i don't know,
I've heard stories, just stories. as much as it sounds wonderful I can't fully adopt someone else's faith because their experiences are not my own.
I've never had a real personal experience with God or entities or whatever you want to call it.
I've tried so hard I need to stop because I fear I'm making myself schizophrenic or something. there is no clear path to anything greater than whats here on Earth. I'm constantly questioning and I can't stop, I'm never getting an answer either, its painful and I'm just suffering every step along the way. Part of me has given up on life already. but I literally can't, I keep going on, still talking and moving when I'm prompted. I just feel like a machine with the only purpose to do things for other people. I'm really not all here, because I hate being here so much, my mind just wants to run away so bad. I kind of hate myself. I can't even look at myself in the mirror without feeling so much remorse. I want less and less to do with the outside world, I have nothing to give, and it has nothing to offer. It all feels like a bad dream I can never wake up from. I'm honestly just waiting until I die, I have many different ideas about what it could be after death, no matter how many times I read about it or hear the millions of people pledge their faith in some concept, I will just never ever know for sure, and that scares me. I already feel guilt for not living a good life, mostly for other people who are stuck with the fact they know me. my family are too good of people to let me go. I love them, and it makes me sad. If I had no one in my life maybe it would make things easier. no one to let down, no one to be a burden to, no guilt, no pain for failed relationships. I already feel a foreigner on this ugly planet stuck to deal with these elitist ****** who run the whole show. I'm not meant for this life or anything for that matter. maybe the best thing that could happen is for every fragment of a soul I might have to be scattered throughout the cosmos and be left unconscious. because being conscious is just a painful burden.

sometimes I wake up still dreaming
a mute marry in me
we didn't want to let go
its brings a jolt to my being
like fragile love softly fleeing
the best ones being in a lovers arms
could be a reminder, some kind of alarm
feeling its more real than daylight
as it hits my sore callus eyes
I want to rush back to sleep
and its a gamble I take
to find my way through the ether right back to your embrace
its a journey I could never forsake
how you wrap yourself around me
its so hot and you feel like home
then again I awake inside some senseless drone

there are no words
no labels or logical understand
I am beyond my own reach
untouchable and unattainable
only the constant aching for contrast
stands ever present in the wake of despair
I'm the disposal service to all my worlds ****
swimming blind in heavens eyes
light runs from me
God is a fantasy
I'll take this daily dread
live and die
silent and alone

its a cozy little chaos
I am the eye in the storm
a stranger in a strange land
embraced by a mournful trance
though beyond this cloud lies no boundary
gently rocking in heavens wake
destined to roam this solitary state

known to myself as the eternal pariah
who found death behind the masks of many
animated figures dance around in pretty shackles
indulge in fruitless conversation to every last breath
embedded by such relentless contradiction
and I silently swell in frustration as the crowds cheer

steal away my attention
again and again
so terribly haunted by your glory
always deprived of simple pleasures

and I'm always standing still
always in hibernation
hidden away from myself

oh how blindly I’ve spun this web

I dream to orchestrate a new serenade
leave behind the masquerade

i got so many ******* things to say
but nothing anyone wants to listen to
you just want to turn away from the dark
pretend im not here
and run off to those fake pretty lights

you go with the rest of them
stuff your fat ******* face
with the **** your told to consume

maybe my negative face will find a place
and the world falls silent behind my incessant screaming
it couldn't be more wrong and ****** up
why don't you ******* see????

perhaps I knew a place far beyond this
I know how much better life could be
and thats why I hate it so much right now
could i be just like you?

here goes another day
heads spinning with a rock in my stomach
bearing my crosses, counting my loses
I’ll never be what I want to be
I'll never see what I want to see in me
and I don't care
no I don't care

my body disregards feeling, there's something reeling in me
through the wilderness of sorrow, that's where I'll go
this life is dull and I’m bleeding through the cracks in my soul
but my wounds don’t show to these strangers, they don’t know

we pretend we’re one and the same
but we’re as separate as stars
I like to think that we are

Pandemonium seeps, swallows, and creeps like a crawling
Virus barreling havoc far beneath the innermost psyche
Dispatch the strike, angels discern demons alike, appalling

The flight of sparrow's circum to children below
Consumed within a thoughtless crow
All bold to make haste on an hour's race

The final shade seeps under all frontiers
A foe abandoned in fear
Passing tides in the dead of night

Shown troubled to the world's delight
Such lonesome calls to a stranger
Embark on this journey, my ranger

ALL RIGHTS RESERVED

She's got lips like spice
Eyes rolling like dice
We find common ground
From the heavens on down

Her dance strikes a fire
An essence that will not tire

Shes got a laugh so nimble
That stirs away sickness
Kissing the world with a love shy
But not simple

Starstruck, I stay rivet on her
Reluctant to wind her hand within my own
Holding firm, drifting across the sea I've grown

Tugging against a surface
The swift whispering hallow
Shaken to rehearse this
Each breath, a swallow

Raising unto clouds above
Eyes wide, stars collide
The sky casts over dove

Shattering verses divine
Ill intentions mutant into mine
Battering bones ignites a wind inside
Still overhead appears this silent white wisp

A tender heart lay beaten uneased
May I remain doubtful to claim
The chasm in which I have seized

ALL RIGHTS RESERVED

start to the finish
dreams came to diminish
maybe today was done well
and these angel's spell made demons repel
but still I'm at the bottom
I came asking for the tools
now I got 'em

the next sunrise shadows my days
it whispers and wallows distinctly in praise
my days and nights swallow my sin
just as my hopes that seize to begin

sensual springs ****** to a drought
leave me standing in fear and doubt
refusing to accept the stain on earth
no measure was weighed
not even at birth

I read you this note I have to bare
that is only real when spoken unsaid
so you'll have no words to mutter or share
settle your tongue as you take this oath
and save any further words that'll **** us both

All Rights Reserved

I looked
I saw something above the clouds
Eyes glazed
I found all I was looking for

Whoa it seems that I have found new hope
Whoa I feels as if I turned around this *****

Gracefully
Something sunk into my pores
I don't mind
It simply soothes my sores

Whoa a Oh
The water flows
Whoa a Oh
It flows

I reached
I touched the oxygen
Blood rose
It all went to my head
And all the people fled

Whoa my faith, it's questioned once again
Whoa so I've had enough
Someone else please answer whenever I say when

Merciless
The atmosphere crumbled down
So pointless
Why be the last to frown?

Whoa a Oh
But water flows
Whoa a Oh
It flows

Every time I reach out
I have my hand smacked
Spare me frustration
And prove the fact

You've walked away before
You disappeared into thick air
Leaving me blinded in pain
And I'm still in despair

At first you were real
Now your just a phony
I'm sick of the lies
So cut the baloney

Stop feeding the addiction
Get your head on straight
I want my friend back
And I don't wanna wait

You fell victim to a horrid curse
Friend or foe, I don't know whats worse
Remember to park before you reverse

In the deepest darkness
I've been spotted by the white beast
Then I decided anger is a dead end
All the air in my balloon has been released

I walk around bare skinned
Careless to my bleeding wounds
Sat nights on end
Seeking out new moons

You just throw it all away
When we could be expanding
Bleached out the paint
And left me, the last clown standing

You cut the barrier down
You came crashed through my walls again
Screaming secrets through the code of men

This time you went straight for the scars
Every word digs deeper
Forcing me weaker
Your my grim reaper

When I look to the sky
These angels pity flow through the stars
They stay locked behind cold bars

I hold my tongue behind my teeth
How much more could your anger seep?
My heart cracks and tears before I sleep
Falling deaf as my soul weeps

Yet you walk away unharmed
Keeping me torn and fully alarmed
Spitting out dust to make me choke
Taking more from me? I'm broke

I've been crushed

Again failing to hold the truth
That you kept from me in youth

Now that you've had your fun
Leave me alone
What's done is done
It's a nightmare to be your son

With myself, I'm disgusted again
I walk away from my evil doings
Afraid to hear screams as I stare in the darkness

Then again, it might be my fears that I scare
A mutual fear, I ponder
Then finding a deep peace inside

My actions take ease and slow
My lungs prove themselves strong and young

Body, mind, heart, and soul
Wound together, singing a tune
Not a blink is taken for granted

But just one fear stands everlasting
To lose my peace,
My happiness,
My love

That, I trust in God
He will not strip me from my joys

With all of me
I am forever thankful
For the gifts
Both good and bad

For each stone thrown
I hold my own
Accepting the chips taken off my shoulder
I am what life gives me

Guess that's the way my dreams break loose
A dark angel falls prey, and I ******
It's so mysterious

Shutting my eyes to a world so distasteful
Then lifting my veneer to colors dancing in a spirit's wake
It's a path I have yet to take

Bones falling out of their rightful place
All constructing a brand new purpose far from grace

I WATCH MYSELF SHATTER

Deep booms, dripping hot vibrations
Thick fumes, slipping dead sensations

Stretching my arms out to the silver screen sky
Seeking further hope until my blood runs dry

Holding my back leaned towards the soothing light
Keeping watch for my demons, breathing terror through the night
I fear the worst of going under

With skin so fine
A scent so swift
You make gravity shift

A touch so gentle
With warmth so pure
Your the definite cure

I'm a natural cause
A recurring  case
Of a heart in need
Of an everlasting embrace

The face of a goddess
With a smile so sweet
Forces an armies retreat

Playful laughter murmured
With a quick hot kiss
That I'll always miss

I'm a burning ember
With hope for a flame
Just waiting for your claim

These waves
Splashing
Crashing

IN OUR EARS
Listening
Glistening

IN THE STARS
Shining
Blinding

IN OUR EYES
Projecting
Reflecting

IN THE SUN
Burning
Yearning

IN OUR HEARTS
Waiting
Debating

IN THE CLOUDS
Soaking
Joking

IN OUR THOUGHTS
Shouting
Sprouting

IN THE DIRT
Growing
Glowing

IN OUR DREAMS
...we're living it

Remember me 
At the end of days
Sing to me
In your deepest ways

Expand us
Beyond the stars
Let's build a kingdom
And call it ours

Must you
Make me laugh
Promise me this
On our behalf

Express yourself
In a single atom
Give me reason
To stare and fathom

Marvel us
Before you sleep
Count our kisses
Instead of sheep

Bless me
When I sneeze
Calm my spirit
Keep my heart as ease

Enchant us
As new magic
Vanish it all
Anything tragic

Rest now
You've fulfilled so much
All I need
Is your gentle touch

Do you remember me?
Take a look though the screen
See the guy that wanted you
Your the answer to his dreams

A beautiful angle looked down
Saw you both
Found two lovers right there
Long ago we made an oath

We would be together
On a whole other planet
Whenever we would meet again
Never would I take it for granted

Can you feel this?
Its a sweet breath of love
I hope we feel the same
Cupids arrow didn't miss

For once it's so real
But at the same time
I almost can't believe
I can barely say how I feel

Please say your name
One more time
Words spoken so calm
I think its love but it ain't the same

This is so much more
What you offer
I can always return
Thank god I got the key to this door


And if he's not what you find
Its time to move on
Blind the hungry child
The dreams were so wrong

Are you really the one?
The girl of my dreams
The special person I know
Your eyes shine brighter than the sun

It's gotta be you
To me your perfect
Your amazing
So what am I to do?

Take you by the hand
Show you my world
Tell you my secrets
You've stepped into an unknown land

You know me better than anyone
All we did was talk
All I did was share
You seem to be the only one to care

Your the first
The only one
Odds are insane
How lucky I am, your the cure to my curse

Just when things got ugly
I looked for the light
I saw you standing there
Wondered if you had something to share

Had no idea it'd be you
Everything between us grew
I was afraid to let you know
All the things I felt

How amazing this is
To finally find you
You have all I wished for
And so much more

Still my heart beats five times faster
You've taken control, I'm no longer the master
Drive me like a crazy train
Yeah I'm crazy for you

At first I was cold
Now I'm on fire
Something about you feels so right
For love we both have a crazy appetite

Finally my heart is at home
No doctor can name this syndrome

We shuffle around
Throw our clothes to the ground
In my ear you whisper a sweet sound

Together we lay
All night we stay
Neither of us know what to say

Takes a while to find lips
Pull my hair as I hold your hips
I kiss your neck, taking gentle nips

We've been waiting so long
This is where we belong
I can feel our love is strong

As you hold me close
I felt the world slow
Everything but us froze

When our lips meet
I get knocked off my feet
So glad we met, now I'm complete

Cupids bulls eye with his dart
In touch with my heart
Nothing can rip us apart

Why cant every moment with you repeat?
You make me skip a beat
How'd your lips become so sweet?

Demons knocking at my door
I feel this strange fear
Its never been here before

I try to ignore
But they knock louder
They've taken so much
Now they want some more!

Hold down tightly on my ears
Sweating, turning red
It's the worst of my fears

But they're already in my head
I can't get em out
Not even with a shot of lead

Demons digging me out of the mud
This evil is my nature
Its in my blood

They wanna bring back the pain
Break my chains
Let me go insane

Not knowing the source
I let it all go
Feeling no remorse

Hells gates open wide
Fingertips touch feel the heat
I fear I'm already inside

Every sin is a guide
Another arrow pointing me to hell
Pulling me inside

The devil needs me, I can't ******* hide!

Another scream
Can anyone here my fear?
Still not out of this dream

What does it mean?
They call me something strange
Are they here to burn me or are they on my team?

No, its a nightmare
They only come for me
Its not that fair

Maybe I got something to share
I've been called a sick ****
I've been called freak
Only the devil is here to care

Angles have turned their backs
They leave me to rot
Evil is all I got

I'm under the valkyries wing
The very son of evil
Pain and destruction I'll bring

Tears of fire and ash
I've seen the worst of life
I'll be the product when two worlds clash

But in the end isn't it just black and white?
No matter how you act, the world is never right

We need the good and we need the bad
It's the balance of all things, happy to mad

Now as I turn around
See the faces in the ones I ruined
The blood mixed with tears on the ground

Their eyes speak to me
I see it all
I ****** up everything
That's a guarantee

This could never be me
I wish I could be good
Look what they carved me to be

Take a look at the devil with disgrace
What a sick *******
I spit in his face

Now I'm living a curse
Look what I am
It couldn't get any worse

Just **** me now
I wanna get out
Just **** me now
I wanna be free
Just **** me now
This is all I deserve

I feel somebody
Creepin' up on me
It's always following me
All day and all night
It consumes all light
It's always creepin' while I'm sleepin'
When I'm laying in bed
All comfort escapes from my head
I'm a full course dinner waiting for evil to swallow me whole
Does it want my soul? What the hell is it's goal?!
Feel a connection to the dark side
Not like Luke Sky walker
I know this sounds crazy but even my shadow has a stalker
People say I'm just paranoid
But I'm really being ****** into a demonic void
I can't escape from this thing
It keeps me under it's wing
Is it here to protect?
Or something that I regret?
Maybe this is what my soul reflects

Find a way
Walk through the rain
You'll make a path
See the aftermath

Sun rise awaits
Peek through the clouds
A dream comes out
What's life about?

Find a key
There's the door
Can't break in
We don't always win

***** the mishaps
Can't bring us down
Stay strong forever
Fight for dreams we endeavor

Angel on the left
Devil on the right
We're not all black and white
You chose who wins the fight*

Every bump in the road
Every twist and turn
Stay on your feet
Know life will hand you a treat

Fight through the pain
Don't lose your head
Sooner or later
It'll be something much greater

One thing to know
If you weren't taught before
Your like a mirror
What's shinning on you will just get clearer

Every trail has to end
Some are too short
But others are long
There's a place you belong

So I sing this song
All for you
In hope to give hope
Please grab a hold of this rope

I can show you more
There's plenty I can give
In my deepest sooth
I speak only the truth

It calms the night
It sings in the wind
Howling back at me

Delicately it falls on me
Each flake chooses it's path
I grow careless of it's presence

I am a spec in it's wake
This cloudy white mass
I tremble beneath it

But it doesn't frighten me
I enjoy the simple qualities
And I let it be

It can bring laughter
It can bring happiness
It can bring comfort

It can turn into something dark and hazardous
That can make us slow down
Or spin out of control

We can't always avoid it's nature
It is not ruled by choice nor thought
It falls on random occasions

At first sight, it overwhelms us with joy
After experiencing it for too long
It grows old to us and we wish it to end

But it will never fail to fall on us again...

Shes like an angel
One I can hold in my arms
I'd kiss her lips till they're gone
Don't know how this could go wrong
The one I'm singing songs to
The only one my heart belongs to

When she leaves
I'm dropping down
Feeling lost in the snow
Don't know where to go

But she leaves her scent
It goes so fast
How she came and went

Every second I treasure
How much I care
No one could measure

Those eyes hold power
When I take the smallest glance
My heart screams louder

Feelin like I've never felt before
And your mine

Breathing like I've never breathed before
And your mine

Lovin like I've never loved before
And your mine

Like magnets we came together
I don't know how it works
She keeps me like a feather

I've never been more sure
When I'm with her
There's even more beneath the fur

I want to say something
It's just one thing
But right now I might be a dumb thing

I'm not sure how I made the cut
But I guess I'm no nut

I know shes gonna stay
And I know we'll be way ahead of okay
As long as she heals my wounds at the end of the day

Feelin like I've never felt before
And your mine

Breathing like I've never breathed before
And your mine

Lovin like I've never loved before
And your mine

Shes my calming breeze
That doesn't know how to freeze
It's only when with you, that I'm at ease

She's my shining light
Always there to guide me
And keep me warm through the night

And your mine
The only thing above fine
And my first reassuring sign

Life is so much better now your here
Being the cure to an everlasting fear
And your mine

I wasn't designed to fly
But you hold me high above the sky
And your mine

Feelin like I've never felt before
And your mine

Breathing like I've never breathed before
And your mine

Lovin like I've never loved before
And your mine

And your mine

She's here
She's here now

I see her
I see her now

Don't fear
We don't fear now

No barrier couldn't break us
The sun couldn't wake us
And no one else can take us

I'll forget about the world for you
And put nothing before you
Just to show how much I adore you

Taste of your lip gloss
Hairs on my neck criss-cross

Lean to my chest
Feel the deep beating
Held to your breast
Like our ever greeting

You make me melt, I'm liquefied
Can't say how i felt, it's justified

Baby your my number one
The one
The only one

Your breath on my neck
Best match combined
Your lips touch mine

She's here
She's here now

I see her
I see her now

Don't fear
We don't fear now

Yeah you know it
No need to say it
When I show it

Yeah I need this
Let the fire burn forever
I'll always feed this

Dearly we're departed
Missing the moon without you
Nearly we've started

Fact or fiction
Your my angel
And a true addiction

Hold me
Mold me
Just like you told me

I'll kiss you
I'll miss you
And stand through this issue

You found me
You bound me
But you don't have to crown me

I'll protect you
I'll reflect you
And I'll never reject you

In the days I don't remember
You were always there for me
Never failing to cherish
Both of us had hearts so tender

I kept my eyes looking up at you
You were my one protector
Our love knew no boundaries
I thought no one could fit your shoes

But I was right
You were a different person
My ears often echo from the past
What happened to your souls light?

Your laughter turned to screams
You were simple at first
Now our conversations are lost
And family is divided into teams

I fear that a demon's taken hold
You were stronger than this
I wish you would look at yourself
Then dive back into your original mold

You push me away, further and further
You were never this man
I have no choice but to run from you
It only gets worse day by day

Why are you giving up on me?
You were everything I once needed
I don't even know who you are now
You lost your place in this family tree

Are you gonna catch me
if I fall for you?
Think you can match me
when I call to you?
If you have the key
please take a look inside me
then tell to me honey
just what is it you see?
If you dislike what you saw,
If its ugly and raw
If it scares you, if it dares you, if it makes you withdraw
don't even open your mouth
don't say a soft ******* word
cause when I'm in this sort of state
I just need to be heard
to be seen to be great
I cant help but tempt fate
Are you a hater of love or a lover of hate?

Hate of the nation
The population
Don't you know what your facin?
Still spacin?
Can't run away cause we'll keep on chasin'

Time to fight back
From the get go
**** holdin' back
Time to let go

We done with the peace
We'll keep fighting back
And never take ease

Hit you deep for the shell shock
Here's a beating from the helpless ones you mock
We aren't here to knock
Breakin' down ya door
Bringing out what we got in store

A hell lot more
20 million haters washin' up on shore
Spit back out from the ocean blue
Dark fantasies are coming true
About the day you suckers get the pay

Where would we be without the hate?
How would ever thing be?
No one would be pleased by a goofy fantasy
-Hell no

But keep it comin'
It's gettin' kinda funny
You must be jealous of  my money
And I'm not braggin' honey

I'll throw back whatever you give
I know your bite ain't even close to your bark
You should know better than that
Put you mouth in park

"Never more" says the raven
You won't ever find a safe haven
This hate is savin'

I stay bold
I don't do what I'm told
This anger is way hard to be controlled

And if it get's out
I gotta let it out
Come on now shout

Anger is a place
It's a moment of hate
Can't fit anything else inside me
There's no more space
For you there's no remorse
Now I face my demons with force
Who's the guy laughing now?
Shocked by my recoil?
Spitting out blood
And you don't know how
Still not on the same level
Only now your a ***** and I'm the devil

Tell me how you feel to my face
That'll put you in a better place
Raging like an animal
I can feel the fire in my eyes
Lookin' up to the blacked out skies
There's no more hope for humanity
When I lose all my sanity

Everyday I sit in school
Always loosing focus
Hoping to drown in my drool

Am I here for a reason?
Or am I stuck in prison?

Nobody would talk to me, they wouldn't dare
They know me as the weird kid with blue hair

When I walk in lunch there's no one to greet
Eventually I ain't hungry and refuse to eat

In gym I'm always the last picked for teams
I guess nobody wants me it seems

Well I couldn't give a ****
After a while I just got used to it

I've never been called a friend
What kind of message could I possibly send?

You should be able to see
That someone similar to me

Go up to em and say hi!
Don't ignore em and just pass em by

Ain't it amazing what one person can do for another?!
Everyone needs a brother or a lover

You could flip their whole world around
All ya gotta do is pick em off the ground

It might sound strange
But you never know until you try it for a change
It's a win win kid!
I'm not tellin' you to do what Jesus did

Just show mad love and you'll get mad love
Or one day you'll be that kid wandering around lost and alone
Until your dead and gone

Could life get any worse?
I must be living a curse
But what did I do to deserve this?
I don't even remember how to kiss

I have so much love to give
So much love to give
I don't want to live
If I can't find my lover
My significant other

This heart is going to waste
And replaced with an awful taste
I know I had my chance
I wasn't even looking to get in her pants

I tried so hard
Even put down my guard
And before I knew it we were done
I thought she was the one

At first I didn't think it was real
I didn't even know how to feel
Year after year I can't heal

Now I know why
She didn't even try
Thinking she loved me

It took to long till' I could see
Blinded by my painful tears
Introduced to my fears

She was just too immature
Couldn't even tell I truly loved her
But that's all over and it's in the past
Just another ***** off my chest at last

I've been on the search since birth
Is my angle on another earth?
If she is, I beg God to bring me to her
Give me wings so that I can fly
If not, it wont be the first time I cry

To not have the girl of my dreams
Maybe she can hear my screams
She doesn't even know I exist
But I know once in a dream we kissed

I'm sick of my heart being a game
I just need to know her name
But I guess that's not how it works

Some things don't come easily
That's one thing you need to understand
So be a little patient and don't demand

I think sometimes that she thinks of me
It's a pretty life I wish we could be
Everyday I pray for it to come true
To be alone in this world with you

I just need to that one to kiss and hold
Before my heart turns bitter and cold

So find me and I'll find you
Kiss me and I'll kiss you
Love me and I'll love you
Cause that's all I need
Let my heart be freed