forlorn wanderer, lost soul
she drank the neck & shoulders from that bottle of whiskey
where do you travel with that tattered map
how do you know when you are home.

thick rolling clouds swell above the road
cumulonimbus
dark and tumultuous omens for a weary traveler
who doesn't recognize home.

forlorn wanderer, timid soul
she hid from a world that never made her whole
sweet child, why do you hide
what secret do you keep that can't be known.

a swelling tide tumbles waves upon the shore
noreaster
strong and dangerous for a tired heart
who can't bear to find shore.

forlorn wanderer, aching soul
she collapsed into her aching heart
what broke in you that keeps on beating
how can we mend your brittle core.

oh sweet girl
the weight of the world
draws you ever closer to the ground.
stand tall
as you lap the cool springs into you.
draw yourself up
feel safe
there's nothing to fear now.
release the sharp claw
dug into the ground.
let yourself be free

this hole can not be patched
with plaster, mud or straw

sweet little birdies they come
bring their hearth and home
warmth, love, and soft down

the weather turns and the days grow short
and away blows the sweet familiar of their song

again it gapes
empty and forlorn
no house, no home.

how i wish to cover
with tiny doors, soft curtains and warm embrace
this drafty open wound

come back sweet little birds
and fill us with sweet songs

bring your majesty
calamity
to this hovel built for two

The weight of you, bears upon my shoulders
my chest
my soul

I feel you swell within me, bearing down into the swirling darkness.

I want, need, crave

I must stare into the depth of you, and find that evasive piece.
Why can't you be here in more than just body and flesh.

the whispers of an unfamiliar voice
she's so this
too that

you're too perfect
i hate you
i want to be you

the hardened shell
an outer facade
a person crafted to appear

your demons
should meet my demons
fast friends in twisted truth

hide behind my veil of posture
act confident
fool the world

a wry smile
uncertain terms
heart pounding and unsure

carry on
brush it off
nothing to see here.

I feel the longing
the loss
Saudade.

I miss you,
I want you,
partner.

Take your hands off me
get away from me
I hate you

These bruises will heal
my heart will soften
you will forever torment me.

I am stronger than this.
I am better than that.
I can be repaired.

It comes at night
as you lie in bed
Awake.
Every muscle is paralyzed
with fear
with terror
you can't move.

The darkness creeps across the ceiling
coming closer
hovering above you.
All you feel is fear
it encompasses every inch of you
takes your breath away.

You want to kick every muscle
scream out loud
thrash and fight.
But you cant
you cant move.

Awake
but dreaming.
You struggle to wake yourself up
to kick your legs until you can sit up
and stop the blackness from creeping over you.
But you cant
you cant move
cant cry out
cant wake up
cant make it stop.

It comes at night.
Sweet Dreams