I realized today
that I am a lost soul.
I never really
felt like I belonged anywhere.
I searched around,
but I was never found.
I'm looking for myself in
all the wrong places.
I needed help,
but who can help you
if you can't help yourself.
I think being lost is one of the best
things that has ever happened.
I say that because I connect with other souls
who
are
lost.

It's late in the evening
& I'm staring at the walls.
I'm thinking of our future,
& all my flaws.
"I want to marry you!", I yelled.
"I want to marry you", I whispered quietly as you
began to fall asleep.
Your heads on my chest.
& all I can think about is our future & my flaws.

The scariest thing about falling in love is
that you're simply falling.
Just like if you're climbing rocks
& you slip & you feel your heart drop.
That's what it's like falling in love.
You slipped into their mind.
Falling for their beauty.
Falling for their smarts.
You're falling
&
it's scary.
But you can't help but to fall
for them.
Because they're perfect to you.

She wakes up every morning & looks in the mirror.
Not happy by what she sees,
she covers her face with makeup.
She thinks it makes her look pretty,
but I know she's pretty without it
& I tell her everyday, hoping she believes me.

My girl is tall.
My girl has darker skin.
My girl has deep brown eyes.
My girl is beautiful.
My girl is smart.
My girl has my heart.
My girl is my girl.
& I'm in love.

For as long as I can remember, I've had depression.
I can't remember how it started,
but I know it's been a while since I was better.
I crave to be okay again.
Then I met her.
She came into my life &
changed everything.
I guess things do get better.
She helps a lot.